119 She loves me more (1/2)

Lying on the bed, Huang Qiuyan stares at the ceiling. The burning sensation is getting worse by each passing moment. The empty blood packets are lying on the floor. She turns to her side and clutches the white bedsheet. It's so clean. She's feeling unclean.

She climbs off the bed and pulls the white bedsheet. With pensive eyes, she tears it into pieces. Still, she's not satisfied. She wants something. Why is Fu Sheng not back yet? How long does she have to wait?

How long can she wait?

The door opens and Xiao Chun Dan walks into the room with a bag. He glances at the pieces of the bedsheet. His host has been acting strange. She is too quiet. She refuses to leave the room. She doesn't want to see anyone else other than him. She even asked him to tell the vampires to leave her alone. She made him go outside and get her the blood packets. Even after finishing hundreds of blood packets, she is still hungry. He can tell that something horrible is happening inside her.

It's only been hours since she woke up. Her stats are frozen. There's nothing wrong in the analyzation report of her blood. However, he can't be sure because his analyzation cannot check the status of magic in her body. The seal might be keeping her magic frozen, but what is happening to her body after the enchanted magic and aberrant life force energy merged?

”Put them on the bed and get out,” Huang Qiuyan tells him from a distance. Though Xiao Chun Dan doesn't have a blood vein inside his body, she's still afraid of going close to him. If she could, she would use the bond to call Fu Sheng back. Whenever she tries to tap into the bond, she finds something keeping her back.

The boy places the blood packets on the bed and leaves the room without saying a word. She is thankful that he is so obedient today. She doesn't have the energy to argue. Rather, her throat is so dry that she is having difficulty speaking. She exhales and picks up a blood packet. It doesn't help her, but it's better than nothing. She sits down on the cold floor and sips the blood. A few drops of blood fall on her white shirt. It takes only a few minutes for her to finish all the packets. She's still thirsty. Craving for something more. She lies down on the floor and resumes staring at the ceiling again.

She should find Kai.

If she gives in, she won't be able to face Fu Sheng. Drinking the blood of pureblooded vampire is not same as drinking a hunter's blood when she was on the verge of death. As his mate, she shouldn't drink another man's blood. Even if he hasn't accepted her as his mate again, she shouldn't disappoint him. She made enough mistakes.

It is only a sip. If it doesn't satisfy her, she won't seek Kai again.

No, she drank fifty packets of blood in the last few hours. Where did all this blood go? This is not hunger. Something is wrong with her. What happened when she lost consciousness?

She can hold herself back. She only has to wait for a while. Fu Sheng must be on his way back. Through the bond, he must have sensed that she's sick. He will come back.

Why is she this weak? She's always causing trouble for him.

She should take Kai's offer. Fu Sheng should finish what he set out for. She doesn't want him to abandon his mission and come back for her. It's only a sip. Only a small sip. She will do better after drinking a little.

Huang Qiuyan sits up. She grabs her hair and squeezes her eyes. She feels like she hasn't eaten for months.

Just a little will do. She will only drink a little.

She walks to the door and then, she turns around. It doesn't feel right. Then, it doesn't feel wrong either. She paces around the room. She won't succumb to her cacoethes for drinking the blood. She can hold back until Fu Sheng comes back. She doesn't want him to look at her with disappointment. She won't be able to bear it.

Outside, Xiao Chun Dan is reading the vampire encyclopedia in his mind. Though pureblooded vampires are rare, the converts aren't uncommon.