Part 24 (1/2)

Falling, she grabbed and yanked, pulling him from his feet so that they sprawled on the turf in a complicated heap, Troth half on top of him. She laughed, her face inches from his. ”You learn quickly, my lord. Remind me not to underestimate you again.”

Her hair cascaded silkily over his face and her b.r.e.a.s.t.s crushed against his chest, enticing as the fruit offered by Eve's serpent. Their gazes locked and levity faded as deeper, more primal emotions coiled between them.

He should pull away, stand up, ignore what he saw in her eyes. Instead he said huskily, ”You're overestimating me if you think I can resist this much temptation.” He pulled her head down and kissed her. It had been so long, so very long...

Her lips opened, her tongue touching his. He responded like a starving man receiving manna from heaven. How could he have forgotten the raw power of what was between them? He wrapped his arms around her waist, holding her hard against him. ”Dear G.o.d, Mei-Lian, I've wanted you so much. To touch, to hold, to love.”

”What... what about the chi?” she said breathlessly. ”We don't want to risk bursting into flame.”

”I already have.” Blood pounding, he rolled them over and kissed the satin curve of her throat. Her hands slipped under his loose tunic to caress his bare skin with electrifying effect. As her hands danced distractedly across his back, he raised her tunic and bared her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. She arched and moaned as his mouth covered her nipple, tugging as it hardened.

After almost a year's hunger, he couldn't get enough of her. Her pale, tender skin was faintly salty, delicious against his tongue. As he pulled off her loose trousers, a breeze scattered pink petals across her torso, a silken accent as he trailed kisses down her belly. Her legs separated under his hand, revealing her most secret female places so he could wors.h.i.+p them with tongue and mouth.

She cried out at the intimate kiss, her hips thrusting urgently and her fingers tangled in his hair with sharply erotic power. ”Oh, Kyle, Kyle!”

Her pa.s.sion inflamed him, making him want to return it a thousandfold. Make this last, give her an eternity of pleasure, absorb the untamed wildness of her gasps as they echoed among the trees. After a culmination that went on and on and on, she groaned, ”Enough. Dear G.o.ds, enough, or I shall die.”

Panting, he rested his head on her belly, inhaling the intoxicating scents of s.e.xuality. Her hands became a caress, stroking back his hair.

When she recovered her breath, she murmured, ”Come to me now, my lord,” and tugged at his hair. ”My yin calls out for you.”

He stripped, the cool spring air welcome against his heated flesh. She'd spoken truly, for her femaleness completed him as he buried himself inside her. Yin and yang, wholeness of body and spirit expressed in fierce movement and sudden taut stillnesses.

Together they spiraled higher and higher until she climaxed again, carrying him with her into a stunning plateau of ecstasy. Time vanished, leaving only sensation, and the captivating woman in his arms.

Tiring together, they slowed their frantic coupling to a tender, tidal rhythm where they matched each other breath for breath, pulse for pulse. Near exhaustion, he bent his head for a last kiss, wanting to inhale her essence into himself.

”In this, my lord, you are a master,” she breathed against his lips as she curved her hips upward and clasped him internally with voluptuous power.

He shattered in a final convulsion, and his long-withheld seed flooded into her. Mind-hazing rapture paralyzed him, then ebbed to leave anger at his shameful loss of control. ”d.a.m.nation!” Gasping for breath, he rolled onto his side and held her against him, as if s.h.i.+elding her body with his arms would protect her from his mistake. ”I'm sorry, Troth. I didn't mean for that to happen.”

His words were like a torrent of icy water, transforming her exhausted joy to ashes. How could she have been fool enough not to realize that it was her body he wanted to love, not her self? ”Of course it was an accident. Dallying with a concubine should have nothing to do with the serious business of getting children.”

”Don't speak like that.” He cradled her head against his shoulder, as if a gentle touch could mitigate the bitter sting of his words. ”The issue here is that one doesn't carelessly make children with a woman who doesn't want them.”

She wrenched herself free and sat up, eyes blazing. ”What a quandary that would be, if you had to decide between having an unwanted wife or b.a.s.t.a.r.dizing your own child. Don't worry-I didn't conceive that last time in Feng-tang, and it's unlikely I did now. You and your precious patrimony are safe from me.”

He sat up, bracing himself with one arm while watching her as if she were a firecracker on the verge of explosion. ”Do you truly believe I'm so intolerant that I would reject a child because it had mixed blood?”

She dropped her gaze, knowing she had been unfair. ”I don't think you're intolerant.” On the contrary, he was the most open-minded man she had ever met, but tolerance was no cure for what divided them.

”Desire is pointless-dangerous, even-when there is no deeper foundation.” When there was no love. Yet now that they had coupled again, how could they keep apart as long as they lived under the same roof? It would be impossible. There was only one solution. With painful certainty, she said, ”It's time for me to leave.”

Shock flickered in his eyes. Trying to deny her real meaning, he said, ”We could start for Scotland tomorrow.”

”There is no 'we,' Kyle.” She touched his cheek, aching. ”We are more than old lovers, yet far less than mates. Being together is only hurting us both. I will go to Scotland alone.”

A muscle jerked in his jaw. ”It hasn't been a year and a day.”

”The handfast was a... a social fiction. There is no reason to continue going through the motions when the whole point is that we are not married, and never were. The handfast can run its course as easily when we are apart as together. More easily.” She stood, needing to get beyond the lure of touching him. ”With or without your approval, I'm leaving, Kyle.”

His naked body dappled by sunlight, he sat on the gra.s.s as still as a Greek statue except for the clenching and unclenching of one hand. At last he said, ”Take the travel coach-it will be more comfortable. And... and if you decide to return it will be ready to bring you back.”

”I won't return, my lord,” she said softly. ”What would be the point? ” She pulled on her garments and braided her hair, wondering if they would have behaved so intemperately if she'd kept it tied decently back instead of wantonly loose. No, it was the playfulness between them that had proved their undoing.

He stood and dressed also, his hands clumsy with the simple garments. ”Will you at least write now and then? Surely there is a strong enough bond between us for that.”

”Perhaps. But first I need to get away. Far away.” She stood on tiptoe to kiss his cheek, an absurdly casual caress after the feverish intensity that had briefly fused them together. ”I'm very glad to have known you, my dear lord.”

He raised her hand and kissed it. ”And I you. I... I wish things were different.”

”So do I,” she said with soul-deep regret. ”So do I.”

The travel coach would allow her to go like a turtle, with all her worldly goods on her back. It didn't take long to pack. Calmly she bade farewell to the servants she knew best, as if her departure were part of a long-existing plan. Bessy the maid and Hawking the butler stared at her with great accusing eyes, but spoke no reproach. She wondered how much they guessed of the situation between her and Kyle.

Just before going down to the coach the next morning, she realized she still wore his ring. She pulled it off and set it on the dresser, then found the matching Celtic knotwork bracelet Meriel had given her. Family treasures were held in trust, and she was no longer a Renbourne. She never really had been. She set the bracelet around the ring so that they were concentric circles, like the rings of a tree.

Beyond anger, she turned and walked away for the last time.

Chapter 37.

There were times and places to get drunk, and Kyle was in one of them. He'd managed to see Troth off in proper fas.h.i.+on, loading her down with cash and a draft on his bank in Edinburgh to keep her until he had a settlement drawn up.

She had behaved with equal formality, manners impeccable, expression inscrutable. After all, they had both known this was coming. Just... not so soon.

After a pleasant nod, she climbed into the travel coach. She'd refused the offer of a maid to accompany her; Troth could and would take care of herself. Her only companion was her little cat, safely stowed in a covered basket.

He memorized her still profile before the footman closed the door. Hard to remember that twenty-four hours earlier they'd been twined in the ultimate intimacy.

After the well-sprung coach had rolled out of sight along the newly curving front drive, he'd gone upstairs to her bedroom. He'd never entered while she was here, but he wasn't surprised to see that the room had changed from his vague memories from seven years before. Furniture had been rearranged, hangings and decorations changed.

The effect was pleasant, but chillingly empty. All her possessions were on the coach heading to the Great North Road. There wasn't a shred of evidence that she'd lived here, except for her abandoned ring and bracelet. There was a terrible finality in the precise way she'd left them, one inside the other.

Saddling Nelson, he went for a blazing gallop over the hills. When they'd both tired, he converted his ride into tenant visits, a proper landlord checking on conditions during spring planting.

In younger days he'd felt suffocated by these responsibilities, with the implication that he was tied forever to the estate. Oddly, now he enjoyed the work even though he'd never have Dominic's genuine pa.s.sion for farming. In the past, he'd always been a conscientious steward of the family properties. In the future, he would also find satisfaction in being part of the eternal cycles of the land.

Estate doc.u.ments and correspondence kept him occupied until dinner. He ate in solitary splendor, face impa.s.sive. Then he retired to the study and set out to become seriously drunk. Not too quickly-that would be vulgar. A genteel lowering of the level in the brandy decanter should have him pleasantly foxed by mid-evening, and ready to retire upstairs, probably under his own power, an hour or two later.

Perhaps he should go to London. There were plenty of distractions there: endless entertaining, friends he hadn't seen in years, more time with his father.

Marriageable young ladies and ambitious mothers who would love to capture the next Earl of Wrexham.

He shuddered at the thought. Best to avoid London during the Season.

He was on his fourth gla.s.s of brandy when he heard distant voices in the entry hall. Hawking and someone else, probably a footman.