Part 3 (2/2)

She looked up at the moon again, a longing tugging at her. It would be nice to be able to tell him the truth that it wasn't just Lorne, that it wasn't just Millie. That it was everything. That it was David Goldrab saying, I promise not to call you a c.u.n.t I promise not to call you a c.u.n.t, and the thatch falling in, and the stain on the kitchen ceiling, and Isabelle's look of dismay when Sally had said she was planning to sell the tarot. That it was having no one to turn to. Basically it was because of reality. She wished she could tell him that.

9.

Bath was nestled, like Rome, in a pocket between seven hills. There were hot springs deep in the earth that kept the old spa baths supplied, kept the people warm and stopped snow settling in the streets. The Romans were the first to build on it, but successive generations had kept up the determination to live there in the warm whole cities had crumbled and been rebuilt. The past existed in multicoloured strata below the citizens of Bath: like walking on layer cake, every footstep crossed whole lifetimes.

Zoe had grown up in the city. Even though she and Sally had been sent away as children, to separate boarding-schools, even though her parents had moved long ago to Spain, Bath was still her home. Now she lived high on one of the surrounding hills, where the city had spread in the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries. A Victorian terraced house, all her own. The back garden was tiny, with just enough room for a few plant pots and a shed, but the inside was s.p.a.cious for a person living alone, with three large, high-ceilinged bedrooms on the first floor, and at ground level a single room she'd made by knocking down the interior walls. It stretched thirty-five feet from front to back door and was arranged into two living areas the kitchen-diner at the front, with a scrubbed wooden table in the bay window, and a TV-watching area at the back, with sofas and her DVDs and CDs. In the middle, where the dividing wall would have been, sat Zoe's hog.

The bike was a cla.s.sic a black 1980 Harley Superglide Shovelhead and had been her only friend on the year she toured the world. It had cost her two and a half thousand pounds and some long, sleepless nights when a drive belt gave up or the carburettor jets blocked in the middle of an Asian mountain range. But she still treasured it and rode it to work now and then. That night, at half past eleven, when the city outside the bay window was lit up like a carpet of lights, the bike was still cooling off, its engine making little noises. Ben Parris turned from Zoe's fridge and came to crouch in front of it. He was carrying a saucer of milk, which he put at the front wheel. 'There you go, favoured object.' He patted the tyre. 'Fill your boots. And never forget how loved you are.'

'It's not a b.l.o.o.d.y affectation, you know.' Sitting at the table next to the window, Zoe upended the bottle of wine into her gla.s.s. 'I don't have anywhere else to put it. It's as simple as that.'

'There's a back garden.'

'But no way into it except through the house. I'd have to wheel the bike across the floor every day anyway so I may as well park it there.'

'How about out the front on the road?'

'Oh, stop. Now you're really talking madness.'

'It's nice to see something so loved.'

'Treasured,' she corrected. 'Treasured.'

He straightened and came to the table. 'Mind you ...' he picked up his own gla.s.s and turned to look around the room '... you in a house at all is a bit of a revelation. Before we got together I sort of pictured you living in the back of a jeep or something. But look.' He opened his hands, spun around as if he was amazed. 'You've got curtains. And heating. And real live electric lights.'

'I know. It's so cool, isn't it?' She leaned across to the wall and flicked the kitchen light on and off. 'I mean, look at that. Magic. Sometimes I even flush the toilet. Just for fun.'

Ben carried his gla.s.s around the room, idly turning over pots and gla.s.ses and books, studying the photo collage on her wall, which had never been planned but had started as a couple of photos Blu-tacked there to keep them out of the way and grown to cover the entire wall. Talking of first impressions, Amy in the barge had been right, Zoe thought. Ben really was hysterically good-looking. Almost ridiculous that anyone could look that good. And his appearance, she had to admit, did make you wonder about him. She'd worked with him for years and it had come as a total shock to find that, not only was he heteros.e.xual, he was full-throttle heteros.e.xual. When he'd first kissed her, in the car park at a colleague's drunken retirement party, her response had been to blurt out, 'Oh, Ben, don't t.i.t around. What're we going to do if you come home with me? Share waxing secrets?'

He'd taken a step back, nonplussed. 'What?'

'Oh, come on.' She'd given him a playful poke in the chest. 'You're gay.'

'I am not.'

'Bet you are.'

'Bet I'm not.'

'OK. I bet there's not a single body hair on you. Bet you go to the barber's and get a weekly BSC.'

'A what what?'

'Back, sack and cr ...' She'd trailed off. 'Ben come on,' she said lamely. 'Don't mess around.'

'What? You head case I'm not gay gay. Je-susssss.' He undid his s.h.i.+rt and showed her his chest. 'And I've got body hair. See?'

Zoe glanced down at his chest and clamped her hand over her mouth. 'Good G.o.d.'

'And more down here too. Hang on.' He was tugging at his zip. 'I'll show you.'

And that had been Zoe and Ben spoken for, stuck into a twenty-four-hour mission for Ben to prove to her how ungay he was. She'd emerged from it screaming and giggling and doing a naked jig at the open window, like a rain dance, singing a victorious whoop-whoop-whoop out across the city. That had been five months ago and they were still sleeping together. He wasn't intimidated by her height, or her messy thatch of red hair, or her never-ending legs, which should have been in a kick-boxing movie. He didn't care about her drinking and her tempers or the fact she couldn't cook. He was addicted to her.

Or, rather, he had been. But lately, she thought, something was different. Recently a serious note had crept into the equation. That resilient, good-humoured man, the one who'd come back at Zoe in a blink, had transformed into someone quieter. It wasn't a change she could put her finger on, just something about the length of silences between sentences. The way his eyes sometimes strayed in the middle of conversations.

Now, while Zoe pulled another bottle from the rack and shoved in the corkscrew, Ben went to the little pantry to get a bag of crisps. He stood for a while, considering what was on the shelves. 'You've got stacks and stacks of food in here.'

She didn't glance up. 'Yeah in case I get ill and can't go out.'

'You couldn't just ask someone to go out and shop for you?'

Zoe stopped struggling with the corkscrew and raised her eyes to him. Just ask ask someone? Who the h.e.l.l was she supposed to ask? Her parents weren't here she spoke to them sometimes on the phone, visited them in Spain every now and then, when she felt she ought to, but they were thousands of miles away and, honestly, things had always been strained with them. She hadn't seen Sally in eighteen years at least, not properly to speak to, just briefly in the street and that was all the family she had locally. As for friends, well, they were all cops and bikers. Not exactly born nursemaids, any of them. someone? Who the h.e.l.l was she supposed to ask? Her parents weren't here she spoke to them sometimes on the phone, visited them in Spain every now and then, when she felt she ought to, but they were thousands of miles away and, honestly, things had always been strained with them. She hadn't seen Sally in eighteen years at least, not properly to speak to, just briefly in the street and that was all the family she had locally. As for friends, well, they were all cops and bikers. Not exactly born nursemaids, any of them.

'I mean, you'd do it for someone if they needed it, wouldn't you?'

'That's not the point.'

'What is the point, then?'

She went back to opening the cork. 'Being prepared for the unexpected. Didn't they do a module on that in training? I'm sure I remember it.' She topped up her gla.s.s and set it to one side. Then she reached into her bike satchel and pulled out the file on Lorne. She spread the photos of the post-mortem on the table. Ben emptied the crisps into a bowl, brought it over to the table and looked down at the images.

'”All like her”?' Zoe used her forefinger to trace the words on Lorne's leg. 'What does that mean?'

'I don't know.'

'There are letters missing. Before and after. They're smudged.'

'That's just part of the message. I guess it's up to us to fill in the rest. If it's important.'

She picked up the photo of Lorne's abdomen. The words 'no one'. 'What the h.e.l.l?' she murmured. 'I mean, really he's nuts, isn't he? What's he talking about ”no one”?'

'I don't know.'

'That she's no one to him? That she's nothing. Dispensable? Or that no one understands him him?'

Ben sat down. 'G.o.d knows. b.l.o.o.d.y nightmare, isn't it? And I keep going back to what she said outside the barge: ”I've had enough.” I spoke to the OIC when she was missing, and there was nothing unusual about the chat she was having, according to her mate at the other end of the line.'

'Alice.'

'Alice. So when Lorne said, ”I've had enough,” what was she talking about? And why didn't Alice say anything about it?' He gazed wearily into his drink, sloshed it from side to side. 'Someone's going to have to speak to her parents in the morning.'

'The family liaison's with them overnight.'

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