Part 20 (1/2)

I laugh and laugh, loving the way he eventually nudges me with his elbow. I get myself a bowl of crumble and give him another serving, then settle down next to him to watch Buffy.

I feel like I'm sixteen again, in my parents' bas.e.m.e.nt with the hottest guy in school. Only I'm on thousand-dollar sheets in a million-dollar bus, driving through Europe. And Gabriel is no teen boy.

His long, lean body sprawls across the bed in complete repose, and I have to ignore that fact or I'll do something rash like slide my hand down his firm abdomen and slip it into his loose sweats.

By the time he reaches for the remote and turns off the TV, I'm a freaking mess. My mouth is dry, and my heart is trying to pound its way out of my chest.

”You can wash up first,” he offers, subdued and not fully meeting my eyes.

If it weren't for the fact that Gabriel is waiting his turn, I would dither in the bathroom for far longer. As it is, I scrub my face, brush my teeth, and put on the baggiest s.h.i.+rt and shorts I can find.

My face flames as I scurry under the covers, all awkward and b.u.mbling, sending a pillow to the floor in my clumsy attempt to haul the sheet up to my nose.

I wait in total silence for him to take his turn in the bathroom. And when he comes out, I can't bring myself to watch him make his way to the bed. It's too intimate, too real.

Gabriel is far more graceful in sliding into bed. I cringe, imagining that unlike me, he's probably unaffected. Why should he be? He has made it clear I'm nothing more than a snuggle buddy. I probably rate somewhere between stuffed animal and oversized pillow.

The room plunges into darkness. I can hear myself breathing-too loud and too fast. I can hear him breathing-too steady and too controlled.

f.u.c.k. What was I thinking? I can't do this.

The silence is so thick between us now that I'm suffocating in it.

Gabriel turns my way, and I immediately roll to my other side, facing away from him. It's basic self-preservation. If we're face to face right now, I don't know what I'll do. But I'm pretty sure it would end with me being utterly embarra.s.sed.

He doesn't seem to mind. No, he moves closer. Gooseb.u.mps break out over my skin as his body comes into contact with mine. A heavy, muscular arm settles around my waist. And I forget to breathe.

What the h.e.l.l is wrong with me? I napped with him earlier, and I was fine. Well, not fine. I wanted to stay in his arms forever. But I wasn't all out of sorts.

I wasn't fighting a s.h.i.+ver the way I am now.

His warm breath caresses the top of my head. ”Relax, Sophie.”

I release a breath. ”I'm trying.”

His voice is a whisper in the dark. ”Are you uncomfortable?”

Uncomfortable? His big hand gently presses my belly, taking in the soft swell, which really sucks, but the way he keeps his hold there makes me think he either doesn't notice or likes what he feels. Wishful thinking.

And then there's the fact that he's so close. All I have to do is turn and I'll be wrapped around him like paper on a present.

”No,” I squeak out. ”I'm good.”

I can feel him nod. The bed creaks as he eases closer. And then I feel it.

Oh, f.u.c.king h.e.l.l. Just no. He can't do this to me.

It's big, it's hard, and it's nudging my a.s.s.

We both freeze. Well, Gabriel freezes. His d.i.c.k? It nudges me again, that blunt head pus.h.i.+ng into the small of my back as if to say h.e.l.lo.

”Involuntary reaction,” Gabriel says in a strangled voice. ”Ignore it.”

His hard-on says otherwise.

I swallow with difficulty. ”Your hard d.i.c.k is poking me in the a.s.s. I can no more ignore it than if you slapped me in the face with it.”

He stills, a sound gurgling in his throat. I'm about to apologize for being so crude, when he bursts out laughing.

Oh, how he laughs. He laughs with his whole body, shaking the bed as he flops onto his back and just laughs. The unfettered, deep, rolling laughter is so unlike his usual reserved self that I find myself grinning.

In the dim light, his body is little more than a silhouette, his teeth a flash of white across his face. He wipes his eyes as he giggles and snorts and laughs like a giddy boy. And I love every second of it.

Gabriel should always be like this, uninhibited and free. And if I have to suffer through his c.o.c.k prodding my a.s.s every night to get him there, I'm more than willing to make the sacrifice.

Gabriel

It's been so long since I've full-out laughed that my abs are sore. Apparently laugh muscles aren't the ones I work with my morning sit-ups. This ache feels different. Good and full, as if exhausting myself from laughing put something back in me that I'd lost. I rest my hand on my stomach and stare up at the ceiling, letting the sensation sink in.

At my side, Sophie flops her head back against the pillows, drawing my attention. She's beaming at me as if I've made her night, and she's so b.l.o.o.d.y gorgeous, my breath hitches.

This girl. I could lose myself over this girl. Who would have thought?

My smile fades as reality sets in, hard and uncomfortable. ”Chatty girl, what are we doing?”

The light in her eyes dims. ”What do you mean?”

”This.” I gesture between us and sigh. ”Me asking you to be my sleep partner. It was a mistake.”

”What?” She comes up on her elbows, moving into the light slanting through the windows. ”Why? What's going on, suns.h.i.+ne?”