Volume I Part 3 (1/2)
Some few weeks after Amy's arrival, as she sat working very busily (Edith, as usual, had taken her seat at the window), she felt that the child, far from reading, was intently watching her. At length, without looking up, she said--
”Edith, dear, if you have done reading will you come and tidy my workbasket for me? My wools are in sad confusion. I suspect Alice's fingers have been very busy amongst them.”
She came and busied herself with her task until it was completed. Then, still and silent, she remained at her governess' side.
”Who is this shawl for, Miss Neville, when it is finished?” asked she.
”For my mother.”
Edith drew closer still.
”Ah!” said she, ”that is the reason why you look so happy; because, though you are away from her, still you are trying to please her; and you know she loves you, though no one else does.”
”Yes, Edith; but I should never think _no one_ loved me, and if I were you I am sure I should be happy.”
”Ah, no! It is impossible.”
”Not so; I should be ever saying to myself would my dear mamma have liked this, or wished me to do that. Then I should love to think she might be watching over me, and that thought alone would, I am sure, keep me from idleness and folly.”
”What is idleness?”
”Waste of time. Sitting doing nothing.”
”And you think me idle, then?”
”Often, dear Edith. Almost every day, when you sit at the window so long.”
”But no one minds it. No one loves me.”
”I mind it, or I should not have noticed it; and I will love you if you will let me.”
For an instant the child stood irresolute, then, with her head buried in Amy's lap, she sobbed out, ”Oh! I never thought of that. I never thought you would love me--no one does. I will not be idle any more,”
and she was not; someone loved her, both the living and the dead; and the little craving heart was satisfied.
And so the days flew by. The summer months pa.s.sed on, only interrupted by a visit from Charles Linchmore. He was very unlike his brother; full of fun and spirits, as fair as he was dark, and not so tall. He seemed to look upon Amy at once as one of the belongings of the house, was quite at home with her, chatted, sang duets, or turned the pages of the music while she sang. Sometimes he joined her in her morning's walk with the children. Once he insisted on rowing her on the lake; but as it was always ”Come along, Edith, now for the walk we talked of,” or, ”Now then, f.a.n.n.y, I'm ready for the promised lesson in rowing;” what could Amy say? she could only hesitate, and then follow the rest. She felt Mrs. Linchmore look coldly on her, and one evening, on the plea of a severe headache, she remained up stairs; but so much consideration was expressed by Mrs. Linchmore, such anxiety lest she should be unable to go down the next evening, that Amy fancied she must have been mistaken; the thought, nevertheless, haunted her all night. The next morning she had hardly commenced studies when Charles Linchmore's whistle sounded in the pa.s.sage.
He opened the door, and insisted on the children having a holiday, and while Amy stood half surprised, half irresolute, sent them for their hats and a scamper on the lawn, then returned, and laughed at her discomfiture. He had scarcely gone when Mrs. Linchmore came in; she glanced round as Amy rose.
”Pray sit down, Miss Neville, but--surely I heard my brother here.”
There was something in the tone Amy did not like, so she replied, somewhat proudly,
”He _was_ here. Madam.”
”_Was_ here? Why did he come?”
”He came for the children, and I suppose he had your sanction for so doing.”
”He never asked it. And I must beg, Miss Neville, that you will in future make him distinctly understand that this is the school-room, where he cannot possibly have any business whatever.”
With flushed cheeks, for a while Amy stood near the window, just where Mrs. Linchmore had left her; and then, ”Oh! I will not put up with it!”