Book 4 - Page 58 (1/2)
“We do.” I put my foot down. “This is my last race, Jared.”
He fell silent, and I turned around, looking up at him studying me. Taking his hand, I leaned back into the car and pulled him close, wanting privacy from the Loop crowd a few feet away.
“We’ll always share our love of cars,” I started, keeping my voice even. “And we’ll have a lot of fun driving and pulling our own little stunts in the years to come, but . . .” I took a deep breath, trying to find the right words to make him understand.
“Growing up, I always thought I’d share this with you,” I admitted. “From the first time you mentioned the Loop when we were ten, it was going to be Jared and me at the race. Jared and me in our car. Jared and me a team.” I swallowed down the dream that really never came to fruition.
I cleared my throat. “When you left, it was like what you were talking about when you were on your bike on the track . . . about how it was the only time we were together. Remember?”
He stayed still, studying me warily. I could tell he was concerned that I’d be giving up something I loved for the wrong reasons.
“Well”—I nodded—“that’s what the Loop has been like for me ever since you left. A way to be close to you when I fooled myself into thinking it helped me survive without you.” I shook my head, dropping my eyes. “It didn’t,” I confessed. “I have no glory to seek here, and I have no interest in pursuing anything more advanced. Medicine is where my ambitions lie, and although I love driving, the only way I want on this track from now on”—I met his gaze—“is if we’re in the same car.”
I liked driving, but it wasn’t love for me like it was for Jared. And I didn’t want to enjoy it without him anymore.
I tightened my arms around his waist. “I know your heart is on the track, but I don’t need this, and I don’t want it unless I’m sitting next to you. It’s time my energies went elsewhere.”
He grazed his fingers down both sides of my face, sending s.h.i.+vers down my arms. “But you love this,” he maintained, looking at me with concern.
“I like this,” I corrected him. “I love it with you.”
He tipped my chin up, kissing me, and in less than a moment, my body heated. I loved the way he tasted.
“So . . .” I pulled back, blinking away the haze he’d created. “It’s my last race, and the last time you and I will be opponents—or enemies, for that matter—and I want it to be you. No one else.”
The corner of his mouth lifted. “And what makes you think I won’t just let you win?”
“Because it’s also a bet,” I retorted, the mischief thick in my voice. “If I win, I get to propose to you in front of all of these people.”
He rolled his eyes, walking away from me.
“And it’ll make you feel really feminine in front of the huge crowd and their phone cameras,” I went on, talking to his back. “And it’ll be a superinteresting story—if not a little unmanly—to tell our children someday. And my father will probably lose all respect for you, but when I get down on one knee, baby,” I teased, “you’re just going to melt and swoon.”
“Good G.o.d,” he whined, turning around and looking like he ate something bad. “I think I lost a t.e.s.t.i.c.l.e listening to this.” And then he turned back around, ordering over his shoulder, “You’re not proposing.”
“But, sweetheart,” I yelled, catching the others’ attention. “You love it when I’m alpha.”
Bystanders laughed, and I smiled as Jared shook his head as he walked away from me, probably seeking escape by going to find Jax and Madoc.