Part 6 (2/2)

Thirteen scrambled away from the kid and away from Nail. ”Where'd you git that s.h.i.+v?” Thirteen asked.

”Been savin it fer ye,” Nail said. ”And I'll use it on ye if you touch her again.”

”'Her'?” Thirteen said. ”You want 'her' for yourself, huh?”

”Him,” Nail said, fl.u.s.tered. ”He ast ye to leave him alone. I'm askin ye to leave him alone. Or die. You choose.”

”Them guards catch you with that pigsticker, they gon make you die,” Thirteen grumbled, but he didn't bother the kid for the rest of that night, and maybe not for the next few nights either, Nail couldn't tell how many nights went by, one after the other, without the kid being bothered.

One night Timbo Red just tapped Nail on the shoulder and said, ”I thank ye, mister.”

Timbo Red did not lose his virginity before Christmas, but he got the dose of the strap that Fat Gabe measured out to let anybody new know who was boss. Nail, listening, was not able to determine that it had been provoked. Probably not. Timbo Red seemed to be trying his best to get along with people; his lockstep was always right in line, and he tried to be well behaved and inconspicuous. Somewhere he had found a piece of white chalk, the same kind you write on blackboards with, and he would sit on the concrete floor drawing pictures on it. He could draw pretty fair. More than pretty fair, really. He could make an eagle that looked like an eagle and a black walnut tree that looked like a black walnut. The way he would sit and draw also reminded Nail of Miss Monday. Timbo Red's drawings got walked on, but he didn't care, and somebody always p.i.s.sed on the drawings during the night and erased them that way, but Timbo Red would just start a fresh one the next morning. If Timbo Red ever did anything that might have provoked Fat Gabe, it must have had something to do with the way he was arting up the floor.

But more than likely, Fat Gabe just felt it was time to let the kid know what the strap felt like. Coming from a dirt farm in Stone County, Timbo Red probably knew the feel of harness leather on his hide the same way that Nail did, and he took the first ten lashes without even flinching. Fat Gabe was halfway through the second ten, and panting like a horse, before Timbo Red gave any sign that he even noticed what was happening to his behind. But along about the fourteenth lick the boy started to weaken. He whimpered. At the nineteenth lick he was broken and sobbing. Fat Gabe didn't stop at twenty. Usually, twenty swings of the strap was all that Fat Gabe could manage at one time, but he was mad because the boy had tried to hold out on him like that, and he kept going. The boy kept sobbing like a child.

Nail didn't bring out his dagger, although he was tempted. Instead, he brought out his harmonica. He had never played it before where anybody could hear him. He had played it all the time when he was alone in the death hole, but not once since then, and he missed it. Now he wasn't even sure he could get the tune right, but from the first note he blew into it, he knew he could do a fair job. He played ”O Little Town of Bethlehem.” He played it loud, he played it lively, he played if with his tongue and lungs and heart. He played it loud enough to drown out Timbo Red's crying. He played it louder than the crack of Fat Gabe's strap.

Everyone listened. A few men tried to hum in tune. From several bunks away a good tenor voice picked up at: ”...above thy deep and dreamless sleep, the silent stars go by...”

”Pack it up, Chism!” Fat Gabe hollered, and he stopped beating Timbo Red and started swinging at Nail, who scooted over to the far side of the bunk so Fat Gabe couldn't reach him without going around. Nail finished the carol and started playing ”Deck the Halls.”

One by one or in groups of several, the men of the hall joined in singing the words, and the blacks joined the chorus with: ”Deck de haws wif baws ob holly!” One man at the end of the barracks climbed to an upper bunk and stood up and began to conduct the choir, waving his arms as if he'd once been a high-school band director. Everyone was singing.

Fat Gabe stopped beating on Timbo Red and shyly tried to sing, ”Fa la la? La la? La la LAH LAH!”

Nail Chism played ”Good King Wenceslaus.” He played ”It Came Upon the Midnight Clear.” The three hundred voices singing, or trying to, drifted beyond the wall and reached the warden's house, the big two-story Victorian on the downslope to the highway. When the warden arrived at the barracks, Nail was playing ”Silent Night,” which was the last one that he knew. Mr. Burdell arrived in time to contribute ”Sleep in heavenly peace,” twice.

Then he smiled. No one had seen Mr. Burdell smile before. He said, ”Well, gentlemen, it looks like you're already in the spirit of the season.” He took from his pocket a letter, which he unfolded. ”This year Governor Hays has seen fit to grant Christmas pardons to a total of thirty men. As follows.” One by one the warden read the names, pausing after each to allow time for the men to whoop and holler and slap backs and carry on. Of course the two hundred and seventy men who were not pardoned were feeling low, and this included Nail, although he hadn't expected to hear his name on the list.

But his Christmas did not go unnoticed. Farrell Cobb came to visit, and stood beside Nail's bunk for a while, and gave him a present. ”The missus fixed it,” Cobb explained. ”Hope you like fruitcake, although it's such a tiny one.” Nail sampled a few bites, his first ever. Before the lawyer left, saying he hoped to bring good news from the state Supreme Court when he came again in January, he elaborately looked all around them to see if anybody was watching. n.o.body was. n.o.body cared what Cobb was doing there, or who he was speaking to. The nearest black trusties were shooting dice against the wall. ”You can read, can't you?” Cobb asked, and when Nail nodded, the lawyer reached inside his coat and brought out an envelope and handed it to him. The lawyer put his finger to his lips and said ”Shhh,” and then he winked and departed.

Nail tried to sit up in his bunk to open the envelope. It contained several sheets of paper and something very small wrapped in tissue. Nail read the signature first and, thrilled, backed up and read each word with deliberate slowness.

December 22, 1914 Dear Mr. Chism, They haven't let you see any of my previous letters, have they? I asked your attorney, Mr. T. Farrell Cobb, if it might be that the ”authorities” are not allowing you to receive your mail. He said that it is a common practice for the warden and his a.s.sistants to open and read letters to check for contraband, inflammatory statements, scurrility, or information damaging to the morals and well-being of inmates. None of my previous letters to you contained any of these things.

Shortly after I last saw you, I attempted to visit you at the penitentiary, but I was told that you are permitted to have only one visit per month, and that you had already had your December visit, so I will have to wait until January. I went straight home (I live here in Little Rock) and wrote to you.

Have you, I asked myself, chosen not to reply to my letters? That is possible, and you certainly have no obligation to respond. I did not ask you anything that required an answer, with the exception of my request for the whereabouts of your hometown, Staymore. I have, without any vanity, reread the first drafts of my letters to you several times, in order to discover what they might have contained that could have accounted for your silence. I have not been able to determine anything possibly untoward or disagreeable in them. Thus, I like to think, and I do not like to think: they wouldn't let you have my letters.

So I am resorting to this expedient of asking Mr. Cobb to ”smuggle” this letter to you. He said that he would. He seems a kind and well-meaning person, and I say this not to flatter him in case he is reading it too (Mr. Cobb, if you are reading it, please honor our agreement and deliver it as promised) but because there are so few decent, humane, compa.s.sionate men in this world. You are one yourself, Nail Chism, and you are rare, and that is the reason I have chosen to burden you with my attentions and devotion. If I have little else in the way of qualifications for existence, I have the ability-some would call it talent-to draw and paint the human likeness, and in the process to ”read” the...whatever you wish to call it: soul, psyche, spirit, essence, of the subject, sitter, victim, poser, person. I am not bragging, and I do not boast that the finished work of art conveys this inner character of the person (or even that it is a ”work of art,” whatever that is), but I am sure of my knack for seeing it, and when I saw your spirit in those terrible moments that were presumed to be your last, there in that awful room with that hideous chair, I knew you, and I understood you, and I intuited you, and I appreciated you in a way that I have not been allowed to feel toward another human being.

Yes, I know you may be telling yourself: here is one more of those many lonely ladies who like to cultivate convicts, and who visit or correspond with prisoners, especially those condemned to die, and play upon the men's desperate need for sympathy in order to gratify their own wish for an imaginative relations.h.i.+p safe from entanglement, safe from physical contact, and above all safe from permanence. Some of these women see themselves as subst.i.tute mothers or nurses or sisters, and they think they are purely altruistic and they glory in their charity, while other women-widows, spinsters, the jilted and the frustrated-who have had unpleasant experiences with men who were free to touch them and free to hurt them, are craving a liaison which now permits them to have the upper hand, to be free to say no, free to manage and schedule every aspect of the a.s.sociation, and free to quit at any moment.

Please believe that I have never before written to a prisoner...or, for that matter, written a letter as long as this one to anybody. And please believe that my only interest in you is a deep certainty of your innocence, and a consuming desire to prove it.

When I first knew you, I was disposed to hate you. Do you remember our first meeting? We were both members of the ”audience” at an execution. Before I was permitted to enter that room, I was lectured by Mr. Harris Burdell, the warden, who only with great reluctance had acceded to the request of my employer, Mr. Thomas Fletcher, managing editor of the Arkansas Gazette, that I be allowed to make a drawing of the condemned man, a young Negro. Mr. Burdell warned me that I would be sitting next to you, and he told me the crimes of which you had been accused and convicted and for which you had been sentenced to die. I suppose that Mr. Burdell was simply trying to frighten me, having failed to dissuade me from experiencing the horrors of the execution itself. But I was not afraid of you, because I despised you so intensely. The Gazette had carried a story of your original trial, and although the details had struck me as a ludicrous miscarriage of rustic backwoods justice, there was no mistaking the nature of the offense itself: a girl of only thirteen brutally abused and raped. Mr. Burdell personally checked my hair to make sure that I was not wearing a long hatpin with which I might stab your heart or put out your eyes. But I had not even seen you! When you were led into the room and given your seat beside me, I steeled myself to behold in your eyes the corruption and savagery which would have permitted you to commit such an abomination, and thus I was greatly surprised to detect such gentleness, such goodness, and such compa.s.sion as would preclude your hurting anyone, let alone a thirteen-year-old girl.

And you remember, I'm sure, how you inveighed against that butcher of an executioner, Mr. Irvin Bobo, when the first charge of electricity failed to remove the poor Negro from this world. You called upon G.o.d to d.a.m.n Mr. Bobo, and although I had the feeling that you were spontaneously invoking G.o.d without any real belief in Him, you conveyed exactly the words that I would have spoken myself if I had not temporarily closed myself off from all feeling.

Often at night when I am trying to fall asleep I hear your voice shouting those words. And when you yourself sat down in the chair and the warden lifted his hand and Mr. Bobo placed his hand upon the switch, I said aloud, ”G.o.dd.a.m.n you, Bobo, turn up the juice and leave it on!”

But you were spared! Although you weren't pardoned or your sentence commuted, you were not murdered. I have learned as much as I can about the reprieve: I've talked to Mr. Cobb (h.e.l.lo again, Farrell!), I've talked to Judge J.V. Bourland and Judge Jesse Hart; I've even had a short audience with His Excellency George W. Hays Himself (although the governor, I regret to say, doesn't even seem to know who you are), and I know that you are still very much in peril of having another date set for the electrocution. I intend to do whatever I can to prevent this.

I have received permission from my employer, Thomas Fletcher (who is another of the rare breed of gentle and kind men), to investigate the case completely. As I told you, I'm not one of the Gazette's regular reporters, only a member of the layout and design department, where I am usually found trying to enliven the margins of inner pages with my little sketches. But I have written for the Gazette in the past-the longest thing I ever wrote, before this letter, was an article, ”An Arkansawyer in Calcutta,” a place where I saw some of this world's most unkind and uncompa.s.sionate men. Mr. Fletcher has promised to free me from my usual duties long enough to permit me to finish my investigation.

Only these severe winter storms we've been having have prevented me from attempting to find and to visit Staymore. But when we get a thaw in January, I'm going to locate it...even if I can only reach it on horseback! (I should have said I have two talents: the other one is that I am a ”cowgirl.”) I have three requests, if you will be so kind: 1. Where is Staymore? I have a map showing Newton County but cannot locate your town. Is it north of Jasper? What kind of roads lead to it?

2. What people should I talk to? Can you give me the names of any witnesses who can account for your whereabouts at the time of the crime? Also, any character witnesses. Who was your best friend?

3. Before I go, is there anything I can do for you? Is there anything you need? Will they allow me to send you a basket of fruit and some cookies? May I smuggle you a book or two? Do you enjoy reading? Any favorite authors? Are you well clothed? Do you need any personal articles? Please do not hesitate to respond to these requests, and do not think of the expense. Meanwhile please accept the enclosed trifle as a token, a talisman, a keepsake, a subst.i.tute for a real Yuletide. Merry Christmas, and many more.

Sincerely,

Viridis Monday.

Nail Chism read this a second time before he opened his present. In due course he would come to know it by heart. He would unfold it and read it when no one else was looking (and no one else ever was), again and again, until its creases broke and it began to turn dirty and frayed. But for now he read it only twice, and then he picked open the tiny wad of tissue paper.

Inside was a gent's charm, the kind of chain ornament you hook on one end of your watch chain, if you have a watch, but Nail didn't. It was made of gold and must have cost her several dollars. But she must have had it special-made by some jeweler, because it didn't look like a store-boughten gent's charm. It was in the shape of a tree. Not a Christmas pine or a cedar, nor a hardwood you'd be able to recognize, but just a tree tree, no mistake. Nail turned it over. She'd had the trunk on the backside of the tree engraved in tiny letters: To N.C. from V.M. XMAS 14.

Even if he'd had a watch, and a watchpocket to put it in, he wouldn't have worn this on a chain for all the world to see. Instead, he attached it to the string around his neck that held his dagger, and wore them both hidden inside his s.h.i.+rt and jacket. It was the nicest Christmas present he'd ever gotten. He could hear that little tree singing to him.

And on Christmas afternoon the Salvation Army was permitted to come into the building and serve a soup that actually had some chicken in it, and with real biscuit besides. The men were required to sit through a long sermon before they were allowed to drink the soup, which was cold by then, but Nail was able to make it to the mess hall on his own legs, for the first time in weeks, and to drink his soup.

Afterward, as the men were waiting to leave the mess hall, required to keep lockstepping in place until the line could move again, Nail discovered that he was lifting and setting his feet right beside the standing figure of Mr. Harris Burdell, who was observing the Christmas festivities.

”Warden Burdell, sir,” Nail managed to say, although his words were nearly drowned by the men tramping the floor with their feet. ”I sure do 'preciate you lettin us men have a good Christmas dinner like this. I know I don't deserve it, and I know I don't deserve nothin on account of my misbehavior. But I jist want to thank you, sir. It is real good of you. And Merry Christmas to you, Mr. Burdell.”

”Same to you, Chism,” Burdell said, without smiling but without any rancor or malice in his voice.

”Sir, my brother told me that our ole mother is a-dyin, and he ast me could I jist send her a few last words. Sir, would there be any way I could git me some writin-paper and a pencil? Sir, I'd do jist anything if I could have me somethin to write a letter to my dyin mother.”

The line was beginning to move. Nail looked pleadingly over his shoulder at Mr. Burdell, who did not seem to have heard him. But a few days later one of the blacks who waited on the table at dinner wordlessly placed beside Nail's plate a lead pencil and a penny tablet of lined paper, which, Nail counted, contained twenty sheets. He used a sheet dutifully to write a letter for Mr. Burdell to see, censor, and mail: Dear Momma, Waymon told me about you. I hope you are better. You know we are going to meet again in Heaven, where they are saving a special place for you. I'm sorry you did not get to see me again. Waymon said you were not able to come with him to Little Rock, and I understand. You must try to take care of your self better. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better but all I can say is I love you and do not worry about me. What happens to me is in the hands of some one far better than me. And I aim to see you, all bye and bye, and you can count on it. Please be happy.

Your son with love for ever,

Nail.

His mother might puzzle just a little over that-if she got it-but he knew that Waymon would help her understand any of it that she couldn't, and he would explain the rest of it to her when he saw her, not in Heaven, which was a strange land to him, but in Stay More, one of these days.

Then he used several sheets of the penny tablet to write the following, which he did not give to Mr. Burdell to see, censor, and keep from mailing.

December 2931, 1914 Dear Miss Monday, How can I hope to answer? You write like the morning breeze soughing through the cedars, like a hive full of honey, like sun climb on the ridge, you write easy as breathing, like an angel's sigh, and I am dumb.

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