Part 28 (1/2)
”He just knows all about it, and has been caring for you all this time.
I do not mean Andy Curtin. He is nothing but a subaltern; but the dear Lord, our Father in Heaven, who never forgets us, though he often afflicts us. He sent me to you now, that you might know he loves you. It was he who made me love you and care to help you. All the love and care that come to you are a part of his love.”
”He wept afresh but less bitterly, and said:
”Oh you will think I am a baby!”
”Well! That is just what you ought to be. Your past life is sufficient certificate of manhood; and now has come your time to be a baby, while I am mother. You have been lying here like an engine, under a high pressure of steam, and the safety-value fastened down with a billet of wood, until there has been almost an explosion. Now just take away that stick of wood--your manhood and pride, and let out all the groans and tears you have pent in your heart. Cry all you can! This is your time for crying!”
When I had talked him into a mood to let me feel if his feet were warm, I found that wounded limb dreadfully swollen, cold almost as death, stretched out as he lay on his back, and a cus.h.i.+on right under the heel.
Had there been no wound the position must have been unendurable. Without letting him know, I drew that cus.h.i.+on up until it filled the hollow between the heel and calf of the leg, and supported the strained muscle, tucked a handful of oak.u.m under the knee, moved the toes, brushed and rubbed the foot, until circulation started, sponged it, rolled it in flannel, of which I had a supply in my basket, washed the well foot, and put a warm woolen sock on it, arranged the cover so that it would not rest on the toes of the sore leg; told him to get the new surgeon next morning to make a large opening on the lower side of his thigh, where the bullet had gone out--to ask him to cut lengthwise of the muscle; get out everything he could, that ought not to be in there; keep that opening open with a roll of bandage, so that old Mother Nature should have a trap-door through which she could throw her chips out of that work-shop in his thigh; to be sure and not hint to the surgeon that I had said anything about it, and not fail to have it done.
I left him asleep, and the next day he told me the surgeon had taken a quart of pus and several pieces of woolen cloth out of his wound, and his recovery was rapid.
CHAPTER LX.
COST OF ORDER.
In making molds and rests for mangled limbs, I had large demands for little cus.h.i.+ons, and without economy could not get enough. When one just fitted a place I wanted to keep it, and to do this, must have it aired, perhaps washed. To avoid lint dressings, I hunted pieces of soft, table linen, gave to patients pieces to suit, and as the supply was short they would get nurses and surgeons to leave their pieces of linen, after dressing their wounds until I should take charge, and have them cleansed for next time. To do all this, I must use the gra.s.s-plats and railings for airing and drying cus.h.i.+ons and rags. These plats and railings were for ornament, and there was soon a protest against putting them to ”such vile uses.” I had gone into the hospital with the stupid notion that its primary object was the care and comfort of the sick and wounded. It was long after that I learned that a vast majority of all benevolent inst.i.tutions are gotten up to gratify the asthetic tastes of the public; exhibit the wealth and generosity of the founders, and furnish places for officers. The beneficiaries of the inst.i.tutions are simply an apology for their existence, and having furnished that apology, the less said about them the better.
The surgeons of Campbell did really want its patients to be happy and get well; but it was a model inst.i.tution, with a reputation to sustain; was part of a system under general laws, which might not be broken with impunity. There was no law against a man dying for want of sleep from pain caused by misplaced muscle; but the statutes against litter were inexorable as those of the Medes and Persians. The Campbell surgeons winked at my litter, until one regular inspection day, when my cus.h.i.+ons and rags, clean and unclean, those marked John Smith, and those labeled Tom Brown, were all huddled up and stuffed _en ma.s.se_ into the pantry closet.
I used to wonder if the Creator had invented a new variety of idiot, and made a lot in order to supply the army with medical inspectors, or, if by some cunning military device, the Surgeon-General had been able to select all those conglomerations of official dignity and asinine stupidity, from the open donkey-market of the world. Inspecting a hospital was just like investigating an Indian fraud. The man whose work was to be inspected or investigated, met the inspector or investigator at the door, showed him all he wished him to see and examine witnesses wholly in his power--when the inspected and inspector, the investigated and investigator exchanged compliments, and the public were gratified to learn that all was in a most gratifying condition of perfect order.
One day we had a particularly searching inspection, and next day nurse told me of some four new cases which had been brought in a week before, one of whom the inspectors said was past hope. I found his feet and legs with, a crust on them like the sh.e.l.l of a snail; had a piece of rubber cloth laid under them, and with tepid water, a good crash towel, and plenty of rubbing, got down to the skin, which I rubbed well with lard. Then with fresh towels and water at hand, I drew away the sheet in which the patient had rolled his head, and while I washed his head and arms and breast, I talked, and he tried to answer; but it was some time before he could steady his tongue and lips so as to articulate, and when he did, his first words were:
”Are you the woman that's been a-was.h.i.+n' my feet?”
”That is exactly what I have been doing, and much need they had of it.
Do you not think you are a pretty fellow to have me come all the way from Minnesota to wash your feet?”
It was with much effort he could fix his dazed eyes on my face, and he made several pitiful attempts before he succeeded in saying:
”I think ye'r the best woman that ever I saw!”
”Ah, that is because you never saw much, away out there in Venango county, Pennsylvania, where you live. There are thousands of better women than I, running around hunting work, in this part of the country.”
”Is there?”
”Yes, indeed; and nothing for them to do!”
”I never saw none uv 'em!”
”That is because you have had your head rolled up in that sheet. Just keep your head uncovered, so you can breathe this nice, fresh air; open your eyes every little while, and you will see a whole row of those women, all hunting work!”
He seemed quite interested, and when I had done was.h.i.+ng and given directions to a nurse to cleanse the balance of his person, I asked if there was anything more I could do for him, when he stammered: