Chapter 94 (1/2)
There is no doubt that this is the most embarrassing moment in Xiao Jiashu's life. He felt extremely ashamed, as if he had been stripped of his clothes and rushed to the street to March. No, not only his clothes, but also his skin had been scraped off. He exposed his blue and red blood vessels and pulsating muscles to the sun, and exposed his open heart and unbearable emotions in the air. The pain was irresistible but unavoidable.
He covered his chest and stood in the same place for a long time before going out. He asked in a low voice, ”does brother Ji see it?”
Lin LeYang, who helped him ”keep the wind”, shook his head, ”he doesn't know, only I can see it. The same-sex relationship is always not accepted by the world, so we dare not show too close in front of people. I don't blame you for this. You don't know. I just don't want to see you sink deeper and deeper. Ji Ge treats people sincerely, which may give you some illusions. Please forget them. You will meet better people in the future. ”
Xiao Jiashu took a few coconuts and left a low and inaudible ”I will stay away from him”. He is very glad that he learned to control his feelings when shooting Zerg. He is also glad that Ji Ge didn't see anything, otherwise he would be more embarrassed. Think of oneself often to Ji Ge text message call, think of oneself in order to catch up with him to tropical island, shame is gradually abandoned.
He detested himself like that. He had no sense of shame or morality. He wandered in front of other people like a clown. Others may be rejecting, disdaining and even hating him. How ridiculous is it that he not only has no consciousness, but also has the idea to pursue boldly? How sad is it?
Along the way, he gathered up his surging emotions, clearly wanted to throw them all away, but in the end he kept them in his heart. It turns out that the reason why a person becomes strong is that there are too many things in his heart. They become the cornerstone, making his fragile heart strong and hard to open. When the camp was far away, there was no fluctuation in his eyes.
Lin LeYang didn't smile until he was far away. He didn't want to do it, but he watched the relationship between Ji Ge and Xiao Jiashu become more and more ambiguous. He was anxious and just wanted to stop them.
That day, he heard Ji Ge's monologue. He was in great pain, but he realized it. It's strange that brother Ji shouldn't add the last sentence. What's the meaning of ”in my heart, the little tree is like my brother”? If he was really with Xiao Jiashu, he would never say such words. He is cautious in his words and deeds and cherishes his feathers. If it is not convenient for him to disclose something to the outside world, he will only keep silent, but he does not disdain to lie or mislead.
So you see, Lin LeYang knows Ji Ge very well. In order to cater to him and get his approval, he has observed him so carefully. If you play the game of ”observing words and colors” again, where will he lose to Xiao Jiashu? Ha, it's a pity that his mind is all used in the wrong direction. Do you need to observe the words and colors between lovers? No, they need care, understanding, giving and tolerance. He has been using a humble attitude in the face of Ji Ge, but he turned around to scold Ji Ge for looking down on him, his cognition has long been hoodwinked by himself.
But it's not too late to realize these mistakes. As long as there is a vacancy left by Ji Ge, he will stick to it forever and drive away all those who try to get close to Ji Ge.
Xiao Jiashu is the first, and things are much more smooth than he imagined, thanks to Xiao Jiashu's good family education. Lin LeYang has to admit that Xiao Jiashu's three outlooks are very good, and his cultivation is also good. He immediately decided to quit. He didn't get to the bottom of the matter, and he didn't have to be dogged. If he is a person with a weak sense of morality and knows that he is a third party and is unwilling to let go, then Lin LeYang has nothing to do with him.
It's true that honest people are always easy to be bullied.
They walked in the mountains one after the other, without a word of communication. They felt very boring, but they didn't force the guests to speak. Even if it's a company, there are some cases where they don't like each other and even have black hands. Isn't Lin LeYang secretly blacking Xiao Jiashu? They didn't deal with each other, pretending to be good friends.
Meanwhile, the corona is sitting on the rocks by the sea in a daze. He really didn't know how to deal with his relationship with Xiao Jiashu. His age and family background could be ignored. The only thing that made him worry about was his ability to read people's hearts.
He can easily feel the psychological activities of the people he likes or dislikes, so he avoids many pitfalls, learns a lot of secrets, and even goes well in business. But at the same time, he is also drifting away from his relatives and friends. The human heart is the most complex and uncontrollable thing in the world. The more in-depth exploration, the more shivering. But Xiao Jiashu is different from everyone else. If other people's hearts are mazes, then his heart is a garden, which can let Ji Mian see through at a glance, but he feels beautiful.
He is the only one who can make Jimian actively listen to his heart, and also the only one who can make Jimian completely relax and even feel happy. His heart is too simple and pure, but because of this, Ji Mian dare not touch easily.
If they are together, he worries that he will use mind reading to control Xiao Jiashu and make himself a devil, or arouse Xiao Jiashu's resistance in the process and make him a devil. Love and injury are often just a line apart, and his special ability makes it easier to cross the bottom line. Sooner or later, the beautiful garden will turn into a ruin, because there is no unchanging heart, only unchanging spirit.He can see through everything about Xiao Jiashu, but Xiao Jiashu knows nothing about it, which is obviously unfair. So he would rather look at the garden far away than destroy it by himself. He was ready to die alone.
When he was distracted, PD had to remind him in a low voice, ”Mr. Ji, the bait is all hung up, why don't you throw it into the water?”
Ji Mian just regained consciousness and threw the fishhook made of sewing needle into the water. He knew that he couldn't catch any fish, but it was just an excuse to kill Xiao Jiashu. His feelings come so fierce, even if separated from the distance, it can burn the heart of Ji Mian like fire.
With him, Ji Mian doesn't know how long he can hold on, so he has to find a quiet place to stay alone for a while. He had to admit that Xiao Jiashu was his favorite image from the inside out. It was difficult enough to resist his silly and lovely ideas, not to mention the hot and sincere love.
In his wishful thinking, half an hour later, because few people came to the island, the vigilance of the fish was not high, but two of them were hooked, but the volume was small, so they were used to stew. When he brought the fish back to the camp, the other members of the team came back, drinking coconut milk.
”Captain, sit down and have a rest. Wow, you really caught a fish! We have fish to eat Huang Yingxue called, bouncing and jumping.
Ji Mian gives her the cleaned fish and subconsciously looks at Xiao Jiashu. He originally thought that the other party would be the first to meet him. As usual, he would walk around him foolishly with a simple and happy smile. But now he is squatting on the ground, cutting a pair of bamboo chopsticks with a dagger, never looking up.
This makes already ready season crown a little surprised, and a little inexplicable palpitation. He went out of control to listen to Xiao Jiashu's heart, but he didn't hear anything. He was sitting there with no thought, like an empty skin.
Ji Mian's heart trembled slightly. After sitting down, he asked anxiously, ”little tree, are your feet better?”
Xiao Jiashu raised his head and said with a smile, ”much better. Just now Yu Baixiu helped me re wrap the gauze.”
With a sincere smile and a gentle tone, he seemed to be doing as usual, but it was totally different. But what's the difference, the season crown for a while was not clear. He calmed down and said, ”let me have a look. Today is a long way to go. I'm afraid you can't hold on.”
Xiao Jiashu immediately put his legs up, waved his hands and said, ”it's really OK. You're not afraid of losing your appetite when you eat breakfast.”
This is also as usual, so intimate, let the season crown heartstrings slightly loose. ”Put on your socks a little thicker and don't be afraid of the heat,” he warned
Xiao Jiashu nodded and agreed. Finally, he continued to cut the chopsticks.
Lin LeYang pulled off five bananas and distributed them to his teammates one by one. ”Come on, let's taste the taste of wild bananas.”
Yu Baixiu took a bite excitedly, then twisted his features into a ball. Huang Yingxue vomited on the spot and said, ”my God, is this banana? Is this pepper? Why so astringent! ”
Ji Mian frowned, but in the end, he still swallowed the banana, astringent to astringent, can fill the stomach on the line. He looked at Xiao Jiashu sitting opposite, but found that his expression was very calm. He was nibbling at Xiao Jiashu, as if he had no sense of taste. His every move is so familiar, it seems that he has returned to the state of shooting ”Zerg”, from the inside out into a cold machine.
Ji Mian frowned hard, but it was difficult for the camera to ask. I haven't seen you for half an hour. Why did the little tree become like this? He has completely got rid of the shadow of the role, there is no reason to attack after more than two months.
After a simple breakfast, they cleaned the pots and pans, and then set out to look for water. Xiao Jiashu walked at the end of the team. He didn't have a crutch. He looked very relaxed. From time to time, he would chat with his teammates for a few days and smile, which seemed very normal.
But the season crown is not at ease. He could not hear what Xiao Jiashu was thinking. If he closed his eyes, he could hardly feel his existence. So he had to go back to see him again and again, and had to ask him every few minutes if he was OK and if he could insist.
Without hearing Xiao Jiashu's voice, he felt as if he was missing something, and always felt insecure. He completely forgot the original intention of alienating Xiao Jiashu. When he can see through the other side, he has a lot of worries. When he can't feel it at all, he is nervous and anxious.
”Little tree...” As soon as he looked back, Huang Yingxue had no choice but to say, ”how about you, little tree? Can you still insist? I said, Captain, how many times do you have to ask? I'm a pretty girl. You don't care. Why do you always care about Xiao Jiashu? ”
Ji Mian's expression was slightly stiff. He said simply, ”everyone sit down and have a rest.”
”Ah, I can rest at last.” Huang Yingxue and Yu Baixiu immediately collapsed on the ground.
Ji Mian went to Xiao Jiashu. Xiao Jiashu immediately stood up and said with a smile, ”brother Ji, I'm ok. You don't have to worry. I'll go and be back in a moment. ”
”Don't go far, pay attention to poisonous insects and snakes!” Ji Mian stares at his back, suddenly wants to smoke a cigarette. He worries too much, but he worries even more if he can't see through. What's the matter?
Lin LeYang handed the kettle to him and interrupted his thought, ”Captain, would you like to drink coconut juice?” Before he set out, he chiseled all the coconuts and poured the coconut juice into the kettle so that everyone would not be thirsty on the way. It's cruel of the program group to say that if they don't provide mineral water, they won't!”No, thank you.” Ji Mian gave him a light glance.
Five minutes later, Xiao Jiashu came back and everyone continued on the road. Following the footprints of the animals, they took the lead in finding a pool of water. Several monkeys were lying on the edge of the pool, looking very alert. The staff here immediately came up to congratulate them on completing the task and told them that they could choose to set up camp first.