Part 24 (1/2)

The Book of Sand (1975).

The Other

The incident occurred in February, 1969, in Cambridge, north of Boston. I didn't write about it then because my foremost objective at the time was to put it out of my mind, so as not to go insane. Now, in 1972, it strikes me that if I do write about what happened, people will read it as a story and in time I, too, may be able to see it as one.

I know that it was almost horrific while it lasted-and it grew worse yet through the sleepless nights that followed. That does not mean that anyone else will be stirred by my telling of it.

It was about ten o'clock in the morning. I was sitting comfortably on a bench beside the Charles River.

Some five hundred yards to my right there was a tall building whose name I never learned. Large chunks of ice were floating down the gray current. Inevitably, the river made me think of time ... Herac.l.i.tus'

ancient image. I had slept well; the cla.s.s I'd given the previous evening had, I think, managed to interest my students. There was not a soul in sight.

Suddenly, I had the sense (which psychologists tell us is a.s.sociated with states of fatigue) that I had lived this moment before. Someone had sat down on the other end of my bench. I'd have preferred to be alone, but I didn't want to get up immediately for fear of seeming rude. The other man had started whistling. At that moment there occurred the first of the many shocks that morning was to bring me.

What the man was whistling-ortry- ing to whistle (I have never been able to carry a tune)-was the popular Ar- gentinemilongaLa tapera,byElias Regules.The tune carried me back to a patio that no longer exists and to the memory ofAlvaro Melian Lafinur,who died so many years ago. Then there came the words. They were thewords of thedecimathat begins the song. The voice was not Alvaro's but it tried to imitate Alvaro's. I recognized it with horror.

I turned to the man and spoke.

”Are you Uruguayan or Argentine?”

”Argentine, but I've been living in Geneva since '14,” came the reply.

There was a long silence. Then I asked a second question.

”At number seventeen Malagnou, across the street from the Russian Orthodox Church?”

He nodded.

”In that case” I resolutely said to him, ”your name is Jorge LuisBorges.I too am Jorge LuisBorges.We are in 1969, in the city of Cambridge.”

”No,” he answered in my own, slightly distant, voice, ”I am here in Geneva, on a bench, a few steps from theRhone.”

Then, after a moment, he went on: ”It is odd that we look so much alike, but you are much older than I, and you have gray hair.”

”I can prove to you that I speak the truth,” I answered. ”I'll tell you things that a stranger couldn't know.

In our house there's a silvermate cup with a base of serpents that our great-grandfather brought from Peru. There's also a silver washbasin that was hung from the saddle. In the wardrobe closet in your room, there are two rows of books: the three volumes of Lane's transla- tion of theThousand and One Nights -which Lane calledThe Arabian Nights Entertainment -with steel engravings and notes in fine print between the chapters, Quicherat's Latin dictionary, Tacitus'GermaniainLatin and in Gor- don's English version, aQuixote in the Gamier edition, a copy of Rivera In-darte'sTablasde sangresigned by the author, Carlyle'sSartor Resartus, a biography of Amiel, and, hidden behind the others, a paperbound volume detailing the s.e.xual customs of the Balkans. Nor have I forgotten a certain afternoon in a second-floor apartment on the Plaza Dubourg.””Dufour” he corrected me.

”All right, Dufour,” I said. ”Is that enough for you?”

”No,” he replied. ”Those 'proofs' of yours prove nothing. If I'm dream- ing you, it's only natural that you would know what I know. That long-winded catalog of yours is perfectly unavailing.”

His objection was a fair one.

”If this morning and this encounter are dreams,” I replied, ”then each of us does have to think that he alone is the dreamer. Perhaps our dream will end, perhaps it won't. Meanwhile, our clear obligation is to accept thedream, as we have accepted the universe and our having been brought into it and the fact that we see with our eyes and that we breathe.”

”But what if the dream should last?” he asked anxiously.

In order to calm him-and calm myself, as well-I feigned a self-a.s.surance I was far from truly feeling.

”My dream,” I told him, ”has already lasted for seventy years. And besides-when one wakes up, the person one meets is always oneself. That is what's happening to us now, except that we are two.

Wouldn't you like to know something about my past, which is now the future that awaits you?”

He nodded wordlessly. I went on, a bit hesitatingly: ”Mother is well, living happily in her house in Buenos Aires, on the cor- ner ofCharcasandMaipu,but Father died some thirty years ago. It was his heart. He had had a stroke-that was what finally killed him. When he laid his left hand over his right, it was like a child's hand resting atop a giant's. He died impatient for death, but without a word of complaint. Our grand- mother had died in the same house.

Several days before the end, she called us all in and told us, 'I am an old, old woman, dying very slowly.

I won't have anyone making a fuss over such a common, ordinary thing as that.' Norah, your sister, is married and has two children. By the way-at home, how is everyone?”

”Fine. Father still always making his jokes against religion. Last night he said Jesus was like thegauchos,who'll never commit themselves, which is why He spoke in parables.”

He thought for a moment, and then asked: ”What about you?”

”I'm not sure exactly how many books you'll write, but I know there are too many. You'll write poetry that will give you a pleasure that others will not fully share, and stories of a fantastic turn. You will be a teacher-like your father, and like so many others of our blood.”

I was glad he didn't ask me about the success or failure of the books. I then changed my tack.

”As for history ... There was another war, with virtually the same an- tagonists. France soon capitulated; England and America battled a German dictator named Hitler-the cyclical Battle of Waterloo. Buenos Aires engen- dered another Rosas in 1946, much like our kinsman in the first one.* In '55, the province ofCordobasaved us, asEntre Rioshad before. Things are bad now. Russia is taking over the planet; America, hobbled by the superst.i.tion of democracy, can't make up its mind to be an empire. Our own country is more provincial with every pa.s.sing day-more provincial and moreself-important, as though it had shut its eyes. I shouldn't be surprised if the teaching of Latin were replaced by the teaching ofGuarani.”

I realized that he was barely listening. The elemental fear of the impos- sible yet true had come over him, and he was daunted. I, who have never been a father, felt a wave of love for that poor young man who was dearer to me than a child of my own flesh and blood. I saw that his hands were clutching a book. I asked what he was reading.

”The Possessed-or, as I think would be better,The Devils, by Fyodor Dostoievsky,” he answered without vanity.

”It's a bit hazy to me now. Is it any good?”

The words were hardly out of my mouth when I sensed that the ques- tion was blasphemous.

”The great Russian writer,” he affirmed sententiously, ”has penetrated more deeply than any other man into the labyrinths of the Slavic soul.”

I took that rhetorical p.r.o.nouncement as evidence that he had grown calmer.

I asked him what other works by Dostoievsky he had read.

He ticked off two or three, among themThe Double.

I asked him whether he could tell the difference between the characters when he read, as one could with Joseph Conrad, and whether he planned to read on through Dostoievsky's entire corpus.

”The truth is, I don't,” he answered with a slight note of surprise.

I asked him what he himself was writing, and he told me he was work- ing on a book of poetry to be calledRed Anthems.

He'd also thought about calling itRed Rhythms orRed Songs.