Part 30 (1/2)

I live alone, in a fifth-floor apartment onCalle Belgrano.One evening a few months ago, I heard a knock at my door. I opened it, and a stranger stepped in. He was a tall man, with blurred, vague features, or perhaps my nearsightedness made me see him that way. Everything about him spoke of honest poverty: he was dressed in gray, and carried a gray valise. I immedi- ately sensed that he was a foreigner. At first I thought he was old; then I no- ticed that I had been misled by his spa.r.s.e hair, which was blond, almost white, like the Scandinavians'. In the course of our conversation, which I doubt lasted more than an hour, I learned that he hailed from the Orkneys.I pointed the man to a chair. He took some time to begin talking. He gave off an air of melancholy, as I myself do now.

”I sell Bibles,” he said at last.

”In this house,” I replied, not without a somewhat stiff, pedantic note, ”there are several English Bibles, including the first one, Wyclif's.I also haveCipriano de Valera's,Luther's (which is, in literary terms, the worst of the lot), and a Latin copy of the Vulgate. As you see, it isn't exactly Bibles I might be needing.”

After a brief silence he replied.

”It's not only Bibles I sell. I can show you a sacred book that might in- terest a man such as yourself. I came by it in northern India, in Bikaner.”

He opened his valise and brought out the book. He laid it on the table.

It was a clothbound octavo volume that had clearly pa.s.sed through many hands. I examined it; the unusual heft of it surprised me. On the spine was printedHoly Writ, and thenBombay.

”Nineteenth century, I'd say,” I observed.

”I don't know,” was the reply. ”Never did know.”

I opened it at random. The characters were unfamiliar to me. The pages, which seemed worn and badly set, were printed in double columns, like a Bible. The text was cramped, and composed into versicles.

At the upper cor- ner of each page were Arabic numerals. I was struck by an odd fact: the even-numbered page would carry the number 40,514, let us say, while the odd-numbered page that followed it would be 999.1 turned the page; the next page bore an eight-digit number. It also bore a small ill.u.s.tration, like those one sees in dictionaries: an anchor drawn in pen and ink, as though by the unskilled hand of a child.

It was at that point that the stranger spoke again.

”Look at it well. You will never see it again.”

There was a threat in the words, but not in the voice.

I took note of the page, and then closed the book. Immediately I opened it again. In vain I searched for the figure of the anchor, page after page. To hide my discomfiture, I tried another tack.

”This is a version of Scripture in some Hindu language, isn't that right?”

”No,” he replied.

Then he lowered his voice, as though entrusting me with a secret.

”I came across this book in a village on the plain, and I traded a few ru- pees and a Bible for it. The man who owned it didn't know how to read. I suspect he saw the Book of Books as an amulet. He was of the lowest caste; people could not so much as step on his shadow without being defiled. He told me his book was called the Book of Sand because neither sand nor this book has a beginning or an end.”

He suggested I try to find the first page.

I took the cover in my left hand and opened the book, my thumb and forefinger almost touching. It was impossible: several pages always lay be- tween the cover and my hand. It was as though they grew from the very book.

”Now try to find the end.”

I failed there as well.

”This can't be,” I stammered, my voice hardly recognizable as my own.

”It can't be, yet itis,” the Bible peddler said, his voice little more than awhisper. ”The number of pages in this book is literally infinite. No page is the first page; no page is the last. I don't know why they're numbered in this arbitrary way, but perhaps it's to give one to understand that the terms of an infinite series can be numbered any way whatever.”

Then, as though thinking out loud, he went on.

”If s.p.a.ce is infinite, we are anywhere, at any point in s.p.a.ce. If time is in- finite, we are at any point in time.”

His musings irritated me.

”You,” I said, ”are a religious man, are you not?”

”Yes, I'm Presbyterian. My conscience is clear. I am certain I didn't cheat that native when I gave him the Lord's Word in exchange for his diabolic book.”

I a.s.sured him he had nothing to reproach himself for, and asked whether he was just pa.s.sing through thecountry. He replied that he planned to re- turn to his own country within a few days. It was then that I learned he was a Scot, and that his home was in the Orkneys. I told him I had great per- sonal fondness for Scotland because of my love for Stevenson and Hume.

”And Robbie Burns,” he corrected.

As we talked I continued to explore the infinite book.

”Had you intended to offer this curious specimen to the British Mu- seum, then?” I asked with feigned indifference.

”No,” he replied, ”I am offering it to you,” and he mentioned a great sum of money.

I told him, with perfect honesty, that such an amount of money was not within my ability to pay. But my mind was working; in a few moments I had devised my plan.

”I propose a trade,” I said. ”You purchased the volume with a few ru- pees and the Holy Scripture; I will offer you the full sum of my pension, which I have just received, and Wyclif'sblack-letter Bible. It was left to me by my parents.”

”A black-letter Wyclif!” he murmured.

I went to my bedroom and brought back the money and the book. With a bibliophile's zeal he turned the pages and studied the binding.

”Done,” he said.

I was astonished that he did not haggle. Only later was I to realize that he had entered my house already determined to sell the book. He did not count the money, but merely put the bills into his pocket.

We chatted about India, the Orkneys, and the Norwegian jarls that hadonce ruled those islands. Night was falling when the man left. I have never seen him since, nor do I know his name.

I thought of putting the Book of Sand in the s.p.a.ce left by the Wyclif, but I chose at last to hide it behind some imperfect volumes of theThou- sand and One Nights.

I went to bed but could not sleep. At three or four in the morning I turned on the light. I took out the impossible book and turned its pages. On one, I saw an engraving of a mask. There was a number in the corner of the page-I don't remember now what it was-raised to the ninth power.

I showed no one my treasure. To the joy of possession was added the fear that it would be stolen from me, and to that, the suspicion that it might not be truly infinite. Those two points of anxiety aggravated my already ha- bitual misanthropy. I had but few friends left, and those, I stopped seeing. A prisoner of the Book, I hardly left my house. I examined the worn binding and the covers with a magnifying gla.s.s, and rejected the possibility of some artifice. I found that the small ill.u.s.trations were s.p.a.ced at two-thousand-page intervals. I began noting them down in an alphabetized notebook, which was very soon filled. They never repeated themselves. At night, during the rare intervals spared me by insomnia, I dreamed of the book.

Summer was drawing to a close, and I realized that the book was mon- strous. It was cold consolation to think that I, who looked upon it with my eyes and fondled it with my ten flesh-and-bone fingers, was no less mon-strous than the book. I felt it was a nightmare thing, an obscene thing, and that it defiled and corrupted reality.

I considered fire, but I feared that the burning of an infinite book might be similarly infinite, and suffocate the planet in smoke.