Part 24 (1/2)

”She has been gone these five weeks,” she said. ”Never mind that now. Are you thirsty? I have made you a cool drink with fresh limes, sent down from London.” I drank, and it tasted good after the bitter medicine she had given me.

”I think I must have been ill,” I said to her.

”You nearly died,” she answered.

She moved, as though to go, but I would not have it.

”Tell me about it,” I said. I had all the curiosity of someone who has been asleep for years, like Rip van Winkle, to find the world had gone along without him.

”If you want to revive in me all those weeks of anxiety I will tell you,” she answered, ”not otherwise. You have been very ill. Let that be enough.”

”What was the matter with me?”

”I have small regard for your English doctors,” she replied. ”On the continent we call that illness meningite, which here no one knew anything about. That you are alive today is little short of a miracle.”

”What pulled me through?”

She smiled, and held my hand the tighter. ”I think your own horse strength,” she answered me, ”and certain things I bade them do. Making a puncture on your spine to take the fluid was but one. Also letting into your blood stream a serum made from the juice of herbs. They called it poison. But you have survived.”

I remembered the cordials that she had made for some of the tenants who had been sick during the winter, and how I had teased her about it, calling her midwife and apothecary.

”How do you know about these things?” I said to her.

”I learned them from my mother,” she said. ”We are very old, and very wise, who come from Florence.”

The words struck some chord in memory, but I could not recollect just what it was. To think was still an effort. And I was content to lie there in my bed, her hand in mine.

”Why is the tree in leaf outside my window?” I asked.

”It should be, in the second week of May,” she said.

That I had lain there knowing nothing all those weeks was hard to understand. Nor could I remember the events that had brought me to my bed. Rachel had been angry with me, for some reason that escaped me, and had invited Mary Pascoe to the house, I knew not why. That we had been married the day before my birthday was very certain, though I had no clear vision of the church, or of the ceremony; except that I believed my G.o.dfather and Louise had been the only witnesses, with little Alice Tabb, the church cleaner. I remembered being very happy. And suddenly, for no reason, in despair. Then falling ill. No matter, all was well again. I had not died, and it was the month of May.

”I think I am strong enough to get up,” I said to her.

”You are no such thing,” she answered. ”In a week, perhaps, you shall sit in a chair, by the window there, to feel your feet. And later, walk as far as the boudoir. By the end of the month we may get you below, and sitting out-of-doors. But we shall see.”

Indeed, my rate of progress was much as she had said. I have never in my life felt such a ninny as the first time I sat sideways on the bed, and put my feet upon the floor. The whole room rocked. Seecombe was one side of me, and John the other, and I as weak as a baby newly born.

”Great heavens, madam, he has grown again,” said Seecombe, with the consternation on his face so great I had to sit down again for laughter.

”You can show me for a freak at Bodmin Fair after all,” I said, and then saw myself in the mirror, gaunt and pale, with the brown beard on my chin, for all the world like an apostle.

”I've half a mind,” I said, ”to go preaching about the countryside. Thousands would follow me. What do you think?” I turned to Rachel.

”I prefer you shaved,” she said gravely.

”Bring me a razor, John,” I said; but when the work was done, and my face bare again, I felt I had lost some sort of dignity and was reduced again to schoolboy status.

Those days of convalescence were pleasant indeed. Rachel was always with me. We did not talk much, because I found conversation tired me sooner than anything else, and brought back some shadow of that aching head. I liked, more than anything, to sit by my open window, and to make diversion Wellington would bring the horses and exercise them round and round the gravel sweep in front of me, like show beasts in a ring. Then, when my legs were stronger, I walked to the boudoir and our meals were taken there, Rachel waiting upon me and caring for me like a nurse with a child; indeed, I said to her on one occasion, if she was doomed to a sick husband for the rest of her life, she had no one to blame but herself. She looked at me strangely when I said this, and was about to speak, then paused, and pa.s.sed onto something else.

I remembered that for some reason or other our marriage had been kept secret from the servants, I think to allow the full twelve months to lapse since Ambrose died before announcing it; perhaps she was afraid I might be indiscreet in front of Seecombe, so I held my tongue. In two months' time we could declare it to the world; until then, I would be patient. Each day I think I loved her more; and she, more gentle and more tender than ever in the past months of winter.

I was amazed, when I came downstairs for the first time and went out into the grounds, to see how much had been achieved about the place during my sickness. The terrace walk was now completed, and the sunken garden beside it had now been hollowed away to a great depth, and was ready to be paved with stone and the banks faced. At the moment it yawned, dark and ominous, a deep wide chasm, and the fellows digging there looked up at me, grinning, as I stared down at them from the terrace above.

Tamlyn escorted me with pride to the plantation-Rachel had called in to see his wife, at the nearby cottage-and though the camellias were over, the rhododendrons were still in bloom, and the orange berberis, and leaning to the field below the soft yellow flowers of the laburnum trees hung in cl.u.s.ters, scattering their petals.

”We'll have to s.h.i.+ft them though, another year,” said Tamlyn. ”At the rate they're growing the branches lean down too far to the field, and the seeds will kill the cattle.” He reached up to a branch, and where the flowers had fallen the pods were already forming, with the little seeds within. ”There was a fellow the other side of St. Austell who died eating these,” said Tamlyn, and he threw the pod away, over his shoulder.

I had forgotten how brief was their flowering time, like every other blossom, also how beautiful; and suddenly I remembered the drooping tree in the little courtyard in the Italian villa, and the woman from the lodge taking her broom, sweeping the pods away.

”There was a fine tree of this kind,” I said, ”in Florence, where Mrs. Ashley had her villa.”

”Yes, sir?” he said. ”Well, they grow most things in that climate, I understand. It must be a wonderful place. I can understand the mistress wis.h.i.+ng to return.”

”I don't think she has any intention of returning,” I replied.

”I'm glad of that, sir,” he said, ”but we heard different. That she was only waiting to see you restored to health before she went.”

It was incredible what stories were made up from sc.r.a.ps of gossip, and I thought how the announcement of our marriage would be the only means to stop it. Yet I was hesitant to broach the matter to her. It seemed to me that once before there had been discussion on that point, which had made her angry, before I was taken ill.

That evening, when we were sitting in the boudoir and I was drinking my tisana, as had become my custom before going to bed, I said to her, ”There is fresh gossip round the countryside.”

”What now?” she asked, lifting her head to look at me.

”Why, that you are going back to Florence,” I replied.

She did not answer me at once, but bent her head again to her embroidery.

”There is plenty of time to decide about these things,” she said. ”First, you must get well and strong.”

I looked at her, puzzled. Then Tamlyn had not been entirely in error. The idea of going to Florence was there, somewhere in her mind.

”Have you not sold the villa yet?” I asked.

”Not yet,” she answered, ”nor do I intend to sell it after all, or even let it. Now things are changed and I can afford to keep it.”

I was silent. I did not want to hurt her, but the thought of having the two homes was not one that pleased me very well. In fact, I hated the very image of that villa which I held still in my mind, and which I thought by now she hated too.

”Do you mean you would want to spend the winter there?” I asked.

”Possibly,” she said, ”or the late summer; but there is no necessity to talk of it.”

”I have been idle too long,” I said. ”I don't think I should leave this place without attention for the winter, or, in fact, be absent from it at all.”

”Probably not,” she said, ”in fact, I would not care to leave the property unless you were in charge. You might like to pay me a visit in the spring, and I could show you Florence.”

The illness I had suffered had left me very slow of understanding; nothing of what she said made any sense.

”Pay you a visit?” I said. ”Is that how you propose that we should live? Absent from one another for long months at a time?”