Part 34 (1/2)

The big problem for the heretical teacher is the problem of order, or rather of disorder When a child is free from authority, he usually leaves his path untidy; he leaves his chisels on the bench or the ground; he strews the floor with papers; he throws his books all over the room Now O'Neill's school was not untidy, and I marvelled

”Oh, the kiddies look after that,” he explained ”They have voluntary workers a themselves who do all that, and if a child does not do his job, the others naturally co to do it properly?'”

But somehow I am not convinced; I want to know hly developed a social sense in sainst all my experience I must write to O'Neill for further infores of this book I feel like throwing it on the fire I find o When I began to write it I was a more or less complete Freudian, and in an airy fashi+on I explained away my actions Why should pale blue be my favourite colour? I asked myself this when I painted my cycle blue, and I found a ready answer in a reminiscencemy first sweetheart wore a blue tay Do I drea but” a sexual syy Last night a girl told ave her associations we found that the deepto do with sex

Freud says that about every dream is the inal sin

I have been thinking a lot recently about the psychology of flogging

It is generally stated that the flogger is a sexual pervert, a sadist, and undoubtedly there are pathological cases wherethe infliction of pain In the pathological case the gratification is conscious, but I believe that ratification It is absurd to say to abut' Sadisht decide the nant at the idea I should be inclined to think that the accusation was a just one

If I say to Si it, old h heartily, for he has been married for a h shows that his love is real; my rude remark touches no chord in his unconscious But suppose I make a similar remark to Smith, who has been very much married for ten years! He will hitthe fact that my remark touched what his unconscious knows to be true His blow is physically directed toto defend his conscious frory when I accuse hiuess that he is a sadist

I tried the experiment on Macdonald He shook his head sadly

”Poor chap,” he said feelingly, ”you're daft!”

”Right!” I said, ”you aren't a sadist, anyway, Mac Youbecause it is your method of self-assertion As I've told youa strap is your childish way of showing your power”

Then Mac becary, and when I hinted that ain He is a baffling study in psychology

”You don't know enially

”Hardly anything at all,” I said with trueabout you, and that is that the fault always lies in yourself

When you flog To the Tom Murray in yourselfthat is, the part that your wife knows so well--the part of you that leaves the new graip out in the rain all night, that rebels against the authority of the School Board and the inspectorate Toressions”

Barrie, wizard as he is, failed to understand the full significance of Shakespeare's line: ”The fault, dear Brutus, lies not in our stars, but in ourselves”

The opposite of the sadist is the ratification in being beaten or bullied When 'Arriet proudly boasts about the black eye that 'Arry gave her on Saturday night, she is being masochistic, and the wo, silentbut”

a masochist, because she is also a sadist, for Sadism and Masochism are complementary in the same person

It is an understood fact thatso akin to joy when the dentist, before the days of the local anaesthetic, used to lay hold on my molars

Hence I look back to the day when I whacked Peter S I recall explaining to hi meant, but I was completely mistaken If Peter were a sadist in his cruelty, ratification to the masochistic part of him If his cruelty to the calf was due to his self-assertion again I did the wrong thing, for the fear evoked by my strapcalves I think now that there was nothing to be done; his cruelty showed that his whole education had been wrong Had he been allowed to create all the way up fro rabbit-hutches instead of to beating calves

I re to elaborate the release theory, and had said that a boy should be encouraged to make a noise so that he will release all his interest in noise as power

”If a boy liked torturing cats, would you encourage him on the theory that suppression by an adult would cause the child to retain his interest in torturing cats?”