Chapter 159 - I Forgive You But... (1/2)

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Eleanor has to say that despite his anger he was still the same foolish man, who does things foolishly when coming to love. She wanted to laugh out loud but she held back by holding her narrowed gaze at him. She could see him gulp once in a while. For the first time, she saw him being nervous. Even when he opposed her, he was not this nervous. What happened now?

Maybe it's the fear of losing. Even she couldn't bear to lose him.

The worst thing in life was losing someone we hold dear. Loving him is a boon to her and losing him is a bane to her. The moment she saw the flowers she forgave him. But she wanted to play hard with him. He made her suffer from the stupid fever. Because of it, she has to eat those yucky medicines which she loathes.

”I got a vaginal tear, got bedridden for a day due to fever. And you…. Shouted at me!” She said as she raised her voice at him.

Cedric didn't expect her to point out his mistakes. He thought she would give him the silent treatment. He knew that whenever she was truly angry she would give others silent treatment.  Listening to her speak, he smiled. He understood she forgave him. If she wanted to play hard… then he would let her.

”I will not shout at you ever again,” he said to her. Not only to her but also to him. This woman was, is, and would be his woman. His only woman. He would treat her better than now.

”But you did. You left that day being angry. If I didn't come after you, would you return to me? I doubt that. I compromised my self-respect and came to you. I let my dignity down and offered myself to you despite how unwilling I was. I did that just so that you would stay with me.

”But what did you do? You let Myna get hurt. And where were you when I was sleeping in the hospital? You left to do some business.

”I know I shouldn't be angry at you. After all, the company doesn't belong to you but your employees. It is about the future of your employees and the families that depended on you.

”But I hoped to see you the moment I saw you. But Valene was there for me,” she said. Eleanor just wanted to make it hard for him but as seconds passed she wanted to tell him what kind of pain she went through because of him.

The fire in her chest is coming out. Without her knowledge, she started venting out. Indeed, she wasn't lying here. She let down her dignity and self-respect for him but what did she get in return? She got his ignorance, anger, and warnings.

Cedric bowed his head down in shame. Indeed, she let down many things. She was a proud person. She always put herself ahead in everything but here she put him at the top of everything just because she loved him. He wronged her and let her suffer injustice.

”I don't know how to make it right. But I will kneel till I get your forgiveness. Because I deserve that,” he said.

”Again! Again! You are doing the same thing! Have I ever asked you to kneel? What made you think that I would forgive you when you kneel? Cedric… you know what… What I need is an explanation. But I never asked. I thought you would explain it to me when you are good.

”I gave you time. So that you can open up. All I needed was some time to digest the things.

”Cedric, please tell me. If a man comes into my life after our marriage date is fixed saying that he is my fiance to you. Will you take it? What will you do? You won't leave me like this. You will force yourself on me for the whole night. You would either force me to say something or you would use your connections to know it. Don't you?” she yelled at him.

Cedric knew what she said was true. He suffered too much when she dated Jacob. Now… if some other man comes into her life then he couldn't stay still. He would do something to him.

”What do you want me to do?” he asked.

”I forgive you. But…” she stopped.

He was glad to get her forgiveness. Indeed he couldn't ignore the but. That 'but' can change his life right now.

”But?” he repeated.

”Let's take a break from each other,” she said.