Part 3 (1/2)

The boy could not speak above a whisper. He was ga.s.sed horribly, and in addition to his lungs being burned out and his throat, his face and neck were scarred.

”I have as many scars on my lungs as I have on my face,” he said quite simply. I had to bend close to hear him. He could not talk loud enough to have awakened a sleeping child.

He said to me: ”I used to be leader of the choir at home. At college I was in the glee-club, and whenever we had any singin' at the fraternity house they always expected me to lead it. Since I came into the army the boys in my outfit have depended upon me for all the music. In camp back home I led the singing. Even the Y. M. C. A. always counted on me to lead the singing in the religious meetings. Many's the time I have cheered the boys comin' over on the transport and in camp by singin'

when they were blue. But I can't sing any more. Sometimes I get pretty blue over that. But I'll be at your meeting this evening, anyway, and I'll be right down on the front seat as near the piano as I can get. Watch for me.”

And sure enough that night, when the vesper service started, he was right there. I smiled at him and he smiled back.

I announced the first hymn. The crowd started to sing. Suddenly I looked toward him. We were singing ”Softly Now the Light of Day Fades Upon My Sight Away.” His book was up, his lips were moving, but no sound was coming. That sight nearly broke my heart. To see that boy, whose whole pa.s.sion in the past had been to sing, whose voice the cruel gas had burned out, started emotions throbbing in me that blurred my eyes. I couldn't sing another note myself. My voice was choked at the sight. A lump came every time I looked at him there with that book up in front of him, a lump that I could not get out of my throat. I dared not look in his direction.

After the service was over I went up to him. I knew that he needed a bit of laughter now. I knew that I did, too. So I said to him: ”Lad, I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't helped us out on the singing this evening.”

He looked at me with infinite pathos and sorrow in his eyes. Then a look of triumph came into them, and he looked up and whispered through his rasped voice: ”I may not be able to make much noise any more, and I may never be able to lead the choir again, but I'll always have singing in my soul, sir! I'll always have singing in my soul!”

And so it is with the whole American army in France--it always has singing in its soul, and courage, and manliness, and daring, and hope.

That kind of an army can never be defeated. And no army in the world, and no power, can stand long before that kind of an army.

That kind of an army doesn't have to be sent into battle with a barrage of sh.e.l.ls in front of it and a barrage of sh.e.l.ls back of it to force it in, as the Germans have been doing during the last big offensive, according to stories that boys at Chateau-Thierry have been telling me.

The kind of an army that, in spite of wounds and gas, ”still has singing in its soul” will conquer all h.e.l.l on earth before it gets through.

Then there is the memory of the boys in the sh.e.l.l-shock ward at this same hospital. I had a long visit with them. They were not permitted to come to the vesper service for fear something would happen to upset their nerves. But they made a special request that I come to visit them in their ward. After the service I went. I reached their ward about nine, and they arose to greet me. The nurse told me that they were more at ease on their feet than lying down, and so for two hours we stood and talked on our feet.

”How did you get yours?” I asked a little black-eyed New Yorker.

”I was in a front-line trench with my 'outfit,' down near Amiens,” he said. ”We were having a pretty warm sc.r.a.p. I was firing a machine-gun so fast that it was red-hot. I was afraid it would melt down, and I would be up against it. They were coming over in droves, and we were mowing them down so fast that out in front of our company they looked like stacks of hay, the dead Germans piled up everywhere. I was so busy firing my gun, and watching it so carefully because it was so hot, that I didn't hear the sh.e.l.l that suddenly burst behind me. If I had heard it coming it would never have shocked me.”

”If you hear them coming you're all right?” I asked.

”Yes. It's the ones that surprise you that give you sh.e.l.l-shock. If you hear the whine you're ready for them; but if your mind is on something else, as mine was that day, and the thing bursts close, it either kills you or gives you sh.e.l.l-shock, so it gets you both going and coming.” He laughed at this.

”I was all right for a while after the thing fell, for I was unconscious for a half-hour. When I came to I began to shake, and I've been shaking ever since.”

”How did you get yours?” I asked another lad, from Kansas, for I saw at once that it eased them to talk about it.

”I was in a trench when a big Jack Johnson burst right behind me. It killed six of the boys, all my friends, and buried me under the dirt that fell from the parapet back of me. I had sense and strength enough to dig myself out. When I got out I was kind of dazed. The captain told me to go back to the rear. I started back through the communication-trench and got lost. The next thing I knew I was wandering around in the darkness shakin' like a leaf.”

Then there was the California boy. I had known him before. It was he who almost gave me a case of sh.e.l.l-shock. The last time I saw him he was standing on a platform addressing a crowd of young church people in California. And there he was, his six foot three shaking from head to foot like an old man with palsy, and stuttering every word he spoke.

He had been sent to the hospital at Amiens with a case of acute appendicitis. The first night he was in the hospital the Germans bombed it and destroyed it. They took him out and put him on a train for Paris. This train had only gotten a few miles out of Amiens when the Germans sh.e.l.led it and destroyed two cars.

”After that I began to shake,” he said simply.

”No wonder, man; who wouldn't shake after that?” I said. Then I asked him if he had had his operation yet.

”It can't be done until I quit shaking.”

”When will you quit?” I asked, with a smile.

”Oh, we're all getting better, much better; we'll be out of here in a few months; they all get better; 90 per cent of us get back in the trenches.”

And that is the silver lining to this Silhouette Spiritual. The doctors say that a very large percentage of them get back.