Part 15 (1/2)

And now he lay, like Nicanor, ”dead in his harness.”

Mrs Macmichel was seated directly in front of the enlarged photograph.

Its eyes looked straight into hers as she lifted them, with, it seemed to her, an infinite sadness.

”Is it not strange that we should both be mothers of only sons?”

It was not, in fact, a very remarkable coincidence, but the visitor conceded that it was strange.

”It ought to be a bond of sympathy between us.”

”Yes.”

Mrs Macmichel's eyes were turned uneasily upon the door at which the servant had suddenly appeared.

”Mrs Pyman is afraid she can't wait any longer now, ma'am. She wouldn't keep you more'n a minute, if you could speak to her, she says.”

Mrs Macmichel put out a hand and gripped the arm of her hostess as she rose from her seat--”Don't--” she said imploringly, ”don't go! We are so--so comfortable.”

She could not but be flattered, although she could not help being surprised. ”Tell Anne Pyman, I am sorry,” Mrs Jones said to the maid, who, however, stood her ground.

”And cook say, the butcher have been, and can she speak to you for a minute, ma'am?” she asked.

The butcher! He who had brought the terrible news. In her eagerness Mrs Macmichel turned to the servant standing at the door.

”No,” she said, ”certainly not! Your mistress cannot come.”

The miserable, not to be repressed chuckle of laughter took her again as the girl withdrew. ”You must think me strange,” she said to the lady, gazing at her with astonished eyes. ”But I _am_ strange. We are getting on so well. I don't like to be interrupted. Go on. You were saying----?”

”About the bond of sympathy: our only children. I'm afraid the bread-and-b.u.t.ter is too substantial; will you try a bun instead?”

”It is delicious!” Flora Macmichel said, and put the slice again to her lips, and again placed it unbitten in the saucer.

”There is,” said the clergyman's wife in a lowered tone, ”something awful--I mean in the sense of being full of awe--in being entrusted by G.o.d with only one child. Don't you think that much more will be required of us, and of them--our dear children?”

Mrs Macmichel had not thought of it in that light.

”You see, we have no others to share our devotion, to distract our attention. Our only one should be, as near as a mother can make him so, perfect.”

”Wouldn't that make him a little--well--uninteresting?”

Mrs Jones's eyes blazed reproof as she answered: ”Freddy is not uninteresting,” she said.

Presently her voice dropped to a hushed whisper. ”Then, there is the thought”--she said--”the haunting thought--should he die--should it please G.o.d to take him from us, we lose our all. All!” she repeated; and the word, spoken in that tone of heavy solemnity, dropped like lead upon Flora Macmichel's heart.

If she lost Connell there was still, in her case, her husband; but she thought of the husband of Mrs Jones, and was silent.

”I have a friend,” she said, suddenly rousing herself to make one effort suitable to the occasion, ”whose only little girl died last year. They thought her heart would break, but it did not. She--in a marvellous way she bore it. Never once did she seem to me to sorrow--painfully. The child, for long and long after she was dead, seemed with her, she told me.” She leant forward in her chair; her voice, which was a rather harsh-speaking voice, grew low and earnest.

Was it possible that she--she, Flora Macmichel--had joined the company of the preachers! ”Don't you think that alleviations undreamed of are always sent?” she asked, smarting tears in her eyes, her voice breaking.

”Perhaps I ought not to say it,” the other woman said, ”it is my want of faith, of which I should be ashamed; but it seems to me that nothing--nothing--in this world, of course--could atone.”