Part 7 (1/2)
”I'm here with the Valera team.”
It seemed only partly a lie, and the part that was a lie was quickly replaced by truth, because an hour later I was propped on pillows in the Valera mess trailer, and one of the team technicians had gone off to gather my knapsack from the timing officials' shack.
”You can feel this?” Tonino, their team doctor, was tapping the pads of my toes with his fingers in soft Morse code. He held an ice pack to my ankle, gently moving my foot this way and that. The Valera mechanics had already claimed the motorcycle and the pile of destroyed bodywork that went with it, as if picking up the pieces of my accident were part of their job, or some kind of instinctual chivalry I'd triggered. La ragazza, they kept saying. Me, la ragazza.
”I need to go back to the crash,” I told Tonino as I pulled my camera from the retrieved knapsack.
”Don't be stupid. You're injured. You have a bad sprain,” he said. ”You need to keep it elevated.”
I explained I was here to take photographs. I stressed this with Tonino, and afterward with all the other Valera people. Not only because without their help, I wouldn't be able to make it over there to take photographs, but because it made me feel like less of an impostor. The truth was I didn't know all that much about land speed trials, and cras.h.i.+ng proved this. I had owned one motorcycle, and I always needed Scott and Andy's help to maintain it, unless the task was to change a simple spark plug. There was a whole range of knowledge and experience I lacked, and to these people whose life was motorcycles, I said I wasn't really a motorcyclist, but an artist. I'd come to photograph my tracks as an art project. Which was the opposite of how I'd presented myself to Stretch, as a girl into motorcycles and nothing more.
Tonino felt sorry for me and convinced one of the team technicians to ride me over to the inspection area on a little put-put bike they had for running errands in the pits. With my camera over my shoulder, I rode sidesaddle to the racecourse. Because of my crash the long course was still closed. I took photos at the start, hobbling on my sprain. I was ashamed to see the timing a.s.sociation people, remembering how calm and kind they'd been, imparting crucial information about gusts to someone who could not, it turned out, use their warning to prevent a mishap. But I faced them to get my photographs. I could not go home empty-handed. The Valera tech rode me along the side of the course's oil line. A truck was just ahead of us, dragging a metal grader, probably to repair the surface where I went down. When we arrived at the crash site, I saw that I'd broken through. What seemed like endless perfect white on white was only a very thin crust of salt. Where the crust had been broken by the force of impact, mud seeped up. I photographed all this, a Rorschach of my crash.
For five nights I slept in the Valera trailer, on a daybed in the lounge area next to the kitchen. I was visited by Tonino, ate the spaghetti their team cook brought to me on a paper plate, and practiced the Italian I'd learned on my year abroad, studying in Florence, and had been too embarra.s.sed to use with Sandro (in any case, Sandro was so disinterested in Italy that my competence would not have impressed him). Tonino was amused by the way I spoke, the idioms I'd picked up. He wanted to know how I'd learned to speak such Florentine Italian. Telling him about Florence brought everything back. The biker crowd I had hung around with, who rode Triumphs and emulated a kind of London rocker look, unwashed denim and pompadours, the girls with liquid eyeliner and nests of teased hair. I had managed to meet Italians who weren't all that different from the people I'd grown up with in Reno. I didn't blend well with the other Americans who were there to study art history. They were mostly from the East Coast, from a culture I didn't understand, wealthy girls who seemed to be in Florence to shop for leather goods. We were all housed with local families, and somehow the others were put in rambling homes with maids and had the s.p.a.cious rooms of children who were away at college. I was put in a walk-in closet with a family who owned a fruit stand near the train station. Every morning when I went to use the bathroom it was opaque with the husband's rank cigarette smoke. At dinner, the wife served tiny portions of fried rabbit and eyed me suspiciously to be sure I didn't serve myself seconds. When the wife had gone to bed, the husband got drunk and tried to engage me in conversation about the beauty of women's a.s.ses. I began avoiding dinner with them and instead ate french fries and drank tap beer at a pool hall near the train station called the Blue Angel, which often had British motorcycles parked in front. I started hanging around with the bikers and their girlfriends instead of going to my cla.s.ses at the exchange program in which I was enrolled. We'd stroll the flea market at Le Cascine, drink at bars that seemed identical to the Blue Angel, or I'd go to their apartments, where we smoked hash and listened to records, Faces and Mott the Hoople. I wasn't learning much about Masaccio and Fra Angelico, but my Italian was good by the time I left.
Tonino corralled everyone around to witness this fact that seemed incredible to him, that I spoke Italian. I was something of an instant mascot, although mostly to Tonino, the mechanics, and the team manager, and not Didi Bombonato himself, who had opposed taking me in. Didi Bombonato came across as vain and irritable, but who knows how Flip Farmer would have come across had he answered the door that day in his prefab on the bluffs above Las Vegas.
”Girlfriend of who?” I had heard Didi ask when they first brought me back to their encampment. ”One of the brothers,” the team manager said. ”He lives in New York City.”
”Never heard of him,” Didi said. ”We're not an orphanage.” But the team manager made his own decision that I could stay.
Didi and I avoided each other, which was fine. Maybe I didn't like him all that much, either. The main problem being that he was not Flip Farmer. No open American smile, no bright white teeth, no fancy purple script, nothing of whatever it was about Flip Farmer that had moved me when I was young.
Almost as bad as not being Flip, Didi was short, and short men so seldom liked me. I'm relatively tall, which seemed to count against me, and I was once even told by a short man that I was retriggering his youthful nightmares of being ridiculed by tall girls in school, and I sensed he wanted me to apologize for this, for his adolescent trauma, and I didn't, and moreover, I gave up on short men partially if not totally, sometimes even preemptively disliking them, though seldom admitting this to myself.
Each morning, I watched Didi out the window of the trailer as he put on his driving gloves and stretched his fingers, open and fisted, open and fisted, as if he were communicating some kind of cryptic message in units of ten. After his hand stretches, a crew member brought him a little thimble of espresso, which he took between deerskin-gloved finger and thumb, tilted his head back, and drank. He had pocked, sunken cheeks, thin bluish lips, and eyes like raisins, which made him seem angry and also a little dimwitted. Not everyone can be a great beauty, and I'm not exactly a conventional beauty myself. But there was a special tragedy to Didi's looks: his hair, which was l.u.s.trous and full, feathered into elaborate croissant layers. Somehow the glamorous hair brought his homeliness into relief, like those dogs with hair like a woman's. There was that advertis.e.m.e.nt on television where you saw a man and a woman from behind, racing along in an open car. The driver and his companion, her blond hair flying on the wind, the American freedom of a big convertible on the open highway, and so forth. The camera moves up alongside. The pa.s.senger, it turns out, is not a woman. It's one of those dogs with long feathery hair, whatever breed that is. Didi's breed. After drinking his espresso, Didi would flip his hair forward and then resettle it with his fingers, never mind that he was about to mash it under a helmet. It would have been better to skip the vanity and primping and instead use his face as a kind of dare, or weapon: I'm ugly and famous and I drive a rocket-fueled cycle. I'm Didi Bombonato.
For two long days Didi and the crew did test runs in their rocket-engine vehicle, the Spirit of Italy. There was a steering issue, which they solved by relenting to a curious handling feature: under two hundred miles an hour, the steering wheel of the Spirit was turned right in order to go right. Over two hundred miles an hour, it had to be turned left to go right. And over three hundred miles an hour, once again, the wheel was turned right to make it go right.
The moment had finally arrived for Didi to make his run. I was under the Valera awning, my foot propped up. Beyond, spectators packed against a rope. Many of those who had been around for the weekend of various cla.s.ses of machine had stayed at the salt flats to see this. It was both a private affair, the flats officially closed, and the main event, because Didi Bombonato was favored to beat his own time and set a new world record for land speed. It was late morning, a pleasant day, clouds wind-pushed toward Floating Mountain, their shadows like big weightless vehicles. Soon, heavy rains were expected to arrive-by the middle of next week. The season would end, the salt soaked and mushy and unusable for land speed trials.
Didi put on his deerskin gloves. He performed his hand signals and then waved at the people who pressed in behind the rope to watch him make his run. He drank his single espresso. Flipped his hair. Put on his helmet and bent low to get into the Spirit of Italy, a chrome, white, and teal canister-the same silvery teal as the motorcycle I'd crashed.
His techs were about to attach the bubble canopy when the team manager came running out of his trailer, its door slapping closed behind him, waving his arms over his head in an X. ”Stop!” he yelled. ”Stop! Hold it!”
Didi turned around in the tight little compartment of the Spirit and scrunched his raisin eyes in the direction of the manager, who came toward him with a walkie-talkie to his ear, listening.
”We have a problem,” the manager said.
”What is the problem?” Didi called back.
”A strike,” the manager said. ”In Milan.”
The manager called everyone under the awning, around the workbenches. Didi hunched over the steering wheel in the Spirit of Italy, scowling, as if impatience alone could get his vehicle powered up and motoring along the flats, while his team decided that as loyal members of the union, which was in contract negotiations and had voted to strike, they were obligated to strike as well.
The mechanics in Milan were conducting something called a work-to-rule strike, so the mechanics on the salt flats conducted their own work-to-rule strike. It was a way of striking without striking, as Tonino explained it to me. They were still getting paid, and not at risk of being fired and replaced. They simply went absolutely by union and company code on every single procedural element of their jobs, and their unions and procedures being Italian and deeply bureaucratic, each task, if accomplished according to code, took much longer than it normally would.
Didi, not in the union, not a company employee, but a celebrity racer with an independent contract, was furious.
”You'll do your run,” the manager a.s.sured him. ”But there are a few procedures we have overlooked in the interest of time and efficiency. But really, we should not have skipped them.”
For starters, there was meant to be a fully stocked first aid box or no work could commence. Someone was sent into town to buy iodine and tweezers, which were absent from the first aid box. While this errand was run, the crew waited under an awning on the white salt, in absolutely no hurry, certainly not any hurry that would tempt them to disregard official company procedures or compromise safety. They sat and smoked cigarettes. Someone put the Moka on a butane burner.
With the first aid box finally restocked, they were ready to do a safety check on the Spirit. But then it was discovered that another procedural rule had been ignored: each screw from the Spirit of Italy was to be labeled upon removal, but not by hand; labels were to be printed on tags in lowercase Garamond with an Olivetti typewriter, which they did not possess, nor did they have any tags, so no screws could be removed from the Spirit of Italy. Long discussions commenced on what was to be done in light of this problem. The team manager said he felt they could hand-print the labels, but tidily, ”As if our hands are machines,” he said. Just make the letters very uniform, he said. But they didn't have tags, and so someone had to figure out how to make tags.
Didi sat under the awning of his trailer, his deerskin gloves drooping from his pocket, his hair losing its feathery loft, his race suit unzipped to the waist, the sleeves tied around his middle. His eyes seemed to be getting smaller, dimmer, more raisinlike, his lips more bloodless and thin, like the edges of a cooked crepe, as if he were becoming uglier as the day stretched toward dusk and he was not allowed to make his run, set his record, be the famous and glorious (if short and ugly) Didi Bombonato.
The next day was similar, time stretching full with long discussions of how to interpret the employee codes and rules, talk that was punctuated by many cigarette and Moka breaks. Hours waiting under their Valera awning while the team manager filled out a series of forms they usually ignored, and then one man was sent into town to notarize the forms, and having forgotten to collect pa.s.sports, had to return, and then go again, and suddenly it was time for their company-allotted break, and they would all quit working as one of them prepared the afternoon espresso. Didi was indignant. He fumed. Performed stretches and hand exercises and glared at the others with his opaque raisin eyes.
Morning and evening, Tonino helped me to ice my ankle and dress my road rash, broad lakes of which were drying into big itchy scabs. He asked about Sandro, and said he hadn't been aware there was another brother.
”Do you know Roberto?” I asked.
”We don't know him,” Tonino said, laughing. ”Roberto is the face of the company. The president.”
Outside the trailer window, the techs were discussing some new problem.
I'd tried to relay a message to Sandro through one of the mechanics who'd gone into town, to tell him what had happened. The mechanic had called the loft and said a woman answered and told him Sandro was out. A woman? I figured there was a language barrier, or that he'd dialed the wrong number. Or maybe someone from Sandro's gallery had come over, not unusual, to photograph artworks or prepare them for s.h.i.+pment.
”Does Sandro Valera tell you about the company situation?” Tonino asked.
”Not really,” I said. ”He's an artist, he's not involved.”
”Lucky for him, perhaps,” Tonino said. ”The company is at war with its factory workers.”
I knew only a little about this war that Tonino referred to. Sandro did not call it that. It wasn't something he talked about often. The previous spring, an Italian artist he knew from Milan had a gallery show on West Broadway that was about factory actions and the Red Brigades. The show was called S.p.A.-a play on words, Sandro explained. In Italy, the acronym meant joint stock company, but literally, ”society for actions.” The artist had made huge pencil tracings from newspaper photographs of three Red Brigades victims and one Red Brigades member, Margherita Cagol, killed in a shoot-out with police, slumped on the ground in tight jeans, a purse strewn at her side, blood leaking from her mouth. Sandro seemed unhappy to confront the material. The press release mentioned that the Red Brigades were Italian militants who got their start in the Valera factories on the industrial outskirts of Milan. Sandro put the sheet down. ”Sensationalist c.r.a.p,” he said.
When I asked Tonino about the Red Brigades he said, ”That's just one group. The most visible one. There are so many groups at this point. Many of them come together only after an action, to give those who committed the action a name, and then they disband, disappear. You can't know who is part of what. They don't know, either. They might not know they are in a group until the action is done and the group claims it.”
Late on the evening of the second day of the work-to-rule strike, word arrived that the mechanics in Italy had declared theirs over.
The next morning, Didi emerged bright and early from his trailer, fully suited and ready to go. He lifted a leg and did a few sets of athletic lunges, then switched legs and lunged again in taut sets. He flicked his hands into open tens, shut fists, open tens. He jumped up and down in a controlled dribble like a prizefighter.
He was ready to claim his empire, be Didi Bombonato, world land speed champion, break his own record, and- Wait. What was happening?
The six technicians and their team manager emerged from the tool and equipment trailer with extreme slowness, as if the baking white salt were a kind of thick gel that offered great resistance, as they moved toward the workbench onto which the Spirit had been wheeled for a maintenance check. The team manager picked up a drill in curious slow motion.
Didi yelled at them. ”What are you doing? What is this? Come on!”
The team manager turned toward Didi and lifted his hand to his face. He removed his sungla.s.ses, brought them downward with sustained slowness, and cleaned each lens thoroughly with a handkerchief. Then he put his sungla.s.ses back on.
”I'm preparing for your run,” the team manager said. He spoke these words very, very slowly.
He and the others moved around underneath the awning, picking up tools and gauges in slow motion. They spoke with big swaths of silence between words.