159 Sadis (1/2)

Immediately after they collected their marriage certificate, the couple drove home. It was still too early to go on a date and since they lived in the same house, it felt a little awkward.

They went to their rooms just to avoid the air of awkwardness. Carl especially was a nervous wreck. He was not sure how he was supposed to act since he was now married.

Should he continue to be like he has always been or… how should he approach her?

Married couples acted different from friends. He was sure of that. His position in her life moved from friend to husband in one move. Now, he did not know how to even walk properly.

He was lying on his bed when she walked in and said, ”Let's talk.”

”Sure…”

There was silence after he said that. Kim wanted to talk to him but did not know what to say or how to go about it.

While she was contemplating, he spoke up, ”I–I wanted to say that because we weren't dating, I let you go each time. I endured everything you put me through simply because I felt I had no right to complain or ask for more and I patiently waited because I was the one who wanted us to be together.

However, now it's different. I don't mean that I won't continue to be patient with you. As long as we're married, I can endure whatever hardship.

It's just that, I really hate divorce and now that we're together, I won't let you go, never.”

Kim raised an eyebrow, ”What if I hate you?”

He moved closer to her and held her hand before saying, ”I won't let that happen, I'll make sure to occupy your heart. So, no matter what happens, you can't run away from me, you can't up and leave, just like you did previously. If you're scared or unsure along the way, I can, and will always assure you.

But I hope you let me in completely. I don't want you keeping things to yourself anymore. Your past, your secrets… we are one now, whatever affects you, also affects me, so I hope you'll share everything with me, burden inclusive.”

Kim nodded, ”I understand.”

She hesitated before she continued, ”Same goes to you. You keep worrying about me, what about you? Won't you share these things with me. You're always so positive, it's hard to imagine, given the abuse you've faced. I feel you aren't totally honest with me.”

Carl paused for a while. Whenever the topic of his abuse came up, he was not particularly sure of what to say because he could not recall things clearly. He was not sure why…