Part 17 (1/2)

Freedom, he thought, the tyranny of our age the tyranny of our age. The betrayal of our simple medieval way of life, where everyone knew their place in society. People who set the salvation of the soul above all else: economic gain, personal freedom, the questioning of social structures The betrayal of our simple medieval way of life, where everyone knew their place in society. People who set the salvation of the soul above all else: economic gain, personal freedom, the questioning of social structures.

He turned his back on the room. The developments during the Renaissance made him want to weep with rage Eve's betrayal of Adam, the wh.o.r.e who tricked humanity into biting into the fruit of the tree of knowledge, its innocence raped. The rise of greed that went on and on for centuries, poisoning people's relations.h.i.+ps with ambitions of profit and glory. He hurried out of the heavy academic atmosphere and the burned colour scheme, turning right outside the door and finding himself facing a strangely familiar building, and all of a sudden he was back again, back when the building was new, he had never seen such a modern building, the student union hall.

That was where he belonged, his spiritual home, where he had discovered all that was inadequate and evasive in the great tented meetings and grinding services of Laestadianism. This was where he encountered the Master's words for the first time: People of the world, unite and defeat the American aggressors and all their lackeys. People of the world, be courageous, and dare to fight, defy difficulties and advance wave upon wave. Then the whole world will belong to the people. Monsters of all kinds shall be destroyed People of the world, unite and defeat the American aggressors and all their lackeys. People of the world, be courageous, and dare to fight, defy difficulties and advance wave upon wave. Then the whole world will belong to the people. Monsters of all kinds shall be destroyed.

He shut his eyes and it was suddenly dark around him and within him. It was late at night again, as it had been before, windswept and cold, he was a lone island in the night sea, standing between ecstasy and the applause rolling out through one of the modern building's misted windows. Mao's words were like fireflies in the darkness, recited by trembling young voices and received euphorically, without any trace of doubt: The Chinese and j.a.panese peoples should unite, the people of various Asian nations should unite, all oppressed people and nations of the world should unite, all peace-loving countries should unite, all countries and individuals subject to US imperial aggression, control, intervention or bullying should unite and form a broad united front against US imperialism to frustrate its plans for aggression and war and to defend world peace The Chinese and j.a.panese peoples should unite, the people of various Asian nations should unite, all oppressed people and nations of the world should unite, all peace-loving countries should unite, all countries and individuals subject to US imperial aggression, control, intervention or bullying should unite and form a broad united front against US imperialism to frustrate its plans for aggression and war and to defend world peace.

Soon afterwards they came out sweaty, pumped up, happy, satisfied, and he went up to them and they saw him. People saw him, they asked him if he was a true revolutionary and he said yes, people of the world, unite and defeat the American aggressors and all their lackeys. And they slapped him on the back and said, tomorrow, comrade, Laboremus, seven o'clock, and he nodded and was left standing there with a new fire in his soul. The landing strip of life suddenly lit up beneath him and he knew it was time to go down.

He opened his eyes with a sigh. It had got dark, and he was tired. He would soon have to take his medicine again. It was quite a way to the motel he had booked into, and he had to find the right bus again. Anonymous rooms in a large establishment, never taxis.

He walked back towards the central station, one hand on his stomach and the other hanging by his side.

Aware that he was an almost invisible man.

Monday 16 November

21.

The clouds had gathered overnight. Annika stepped out of the door holding her children's hands, cowering beneath a sky that lay heavy as lead above the rooftops. She shuddered, hunching her shoulders against the cold.

'Do we have to walk, Mummy? Can't we get the bus? We always get the bus with Daddy.'

They took bus number forty the two stops from Scheelegatan to Fleminggatan. After a painless dropoff she re-emerged onto the street, her heart and mind empty. She had planned to walk to the paper but she was tired and couldn't be bothered to splash through the miserable slush all the way to Marieberg, so she boarded another bus. She got her usual two cups of coffee before going into her room, closing the door carefully behind, then discovered that the machine must be broken: the drinks were no more than lukewarm.

Without any fuss she wrote a focused and straightforward article about the attack on F21, using previously known facts and the new information from the police about the suspects: the potential terrorist who went under the name Ragnwald and his little comrade.

She read the text grumpily, the lack of caffeine throbbing dully in her head. It was thin, but that couldn't be helped. Schyman wanted hard facts, not a poetic description of a time that had once existed and a man who may well have done the same.

With heavy limbs she got up to see if she could find any coffee anywhere when her phone rang. The screen told her it was Thomas. She stopped where she was, hesitating as it buzzed at her.

'I'm going to be late tonight,' he said. The words were familiar, expected, but this time they sounded strained, not as nonchalant as they usually did.

'Why?' she asked, looking blindly out at the newsroom.

'A meeting of the working group,' he said, following the familiar track. 'I know it's my turn to pick up the kids, but could you?'

She sat down and put her feet up on the desk, peering out at the dull floor of the newsroom, the endless day rolling ahead of her, until her eyes reached the caretaker's booth.

'Fine,' she said, 'I'll get them. Has anything happened?'

His reply came a bit too late and a bit too loud. 'No, nothing,' he said. 'What made you think that?'

She listened to the silence after his words.

'Tell me what's happened,' she said quietly.

When he spoke his voice sounded hara.s.sed. 'A woman rang about an hour ago,' he said. 'She and her husband filled in my questionnaire back in the spring. They were both councillors for the Centre Party, and now her husband has died. I've been on the phone ever since, trying to get the group together . . .'

Annika listened quietly, hearing her husband's slightly strained breathing forming pulses on the line.

'Why did she phone to tell you that?'

'The project,' he said. 'They'd kept the papers we sent out about threats to politicians, and I was listed as the contact. She thinks her husband was murdered.'

Annika's feet dropped to the floor.

'Why does she think that?'

Thomas gave a deep sigh. 'Annika, I don't know if I can do this.'

'Just tell me what happened.' She spoke in the voice she used when the children were hysterical.

Another sigh. 'Okay. Her husband was shot in the head with his civil defence rifle, sitting in an armchair. And that's the problem, according to his wife, because it was her armchair. He never sat in it. If he was going to shoot himself, he would have done it in his own chair.'

Annika searched for a pen.

'Where does she live?'

'Do you think he could have been murdered? What do you think they'll do to the project? Are they likely to shut us down? If they think we contributed in any way-'

'Where does the woman live?'

He fell silent; a surprised sullenness. .h.i.t her ear.

'Huh?'

She bit her pen, hesitated and rattled it against her teeth.

'That sounds a bit shallow,' she said. 'A man is dead and you're worrying about your job.'

His reply came quick as a flash. 'And what do you do whenever there's a murder? All you do is moan about your bosses and your miserable colleagues.'

She held the pen still, then put it down on the desk, and there was a faint click in her left ear. She wondered if he had hung up on her.

'Outside osthammar,' he said; 'a little village in northern Uppland. They're farmers. I don't know how late I'm going to be it depends on what we decide, and naturally on what the police say.'

She left his sense of grievance well alone.

'Have you spoken to the police?'

'To begin with they thought it was suicide, but as the wife objected they're looking into it more closely.'