Part 38 (1/2)
”Go away,” she said, and shut the door on his face.
She wanted to press Pony for details about what Windwolf was doing, how Oilcan was coping with her supposed death, if work had continued on her research center...but Pony looked like h.e.l.l. She cleaned the blood from Pony's face, and nearly cried over the heel print bruised into the back of his right hand, his fingers swollen and broken.
”It is nothing,” he mumbled. ”I heal quickly. I will be better in no time.”
Unfortunately, until he was functioning better, there would be no escaping.
She fingered where the power beads had been worked into his hair; the oni had cut his braids off, leaving little tufts of hair. Spell-marked or not, without the stored magical power, Pony's s.h.i.+elds would quickly fail. The oni's ability to create ”permanent” constructs-like Riki's wings and the Foo dogs-outcla.s.sed the elves' magic that normally required a ley line or it exhausted local ambient magic.
Pony took the lack of weapons and s.h.i.+elds personally. ”I'm sorry that I have failed you.”
”Don't be an idiot. You haven't failed me.” And then, because he didn't seem to believe her, she added truthfully, ”I'm glad not to be all alone.”
”Ah. I see. Then I'm glad to be here.”
She couldn't bring herself to scorn him, despite it being silly for him to be happy to be stuck in such a situation. ”What are you doing?”
Pony had started to stretch cautiously out on the floor. ”I am going to sleep.”
”Oh, get in the bed.”
”You should sleep in the bed. I can sleep on the floor.”
”Don't make me hit you.” Tinker pushed him toward the bed. ”The bed is huge, and I'm quite small, as everyone keeps pointing out. We can both share it without even noticing the other is in it.”
”It wouldn't be proper.”
”Get in the bed or I'll sleep on the floor too.”
He actually agonized over it before giving in.
What the h.e.l.l had she been thinking?
Fully awake in the darkened room, Tinker listened to the whisper of Pony's breathing. He lay so close she could feel the warmth from his body. His well-defined, muscled body. If she put out her hand, she could touch his hard stomach. Run her hand down his lean flank.
Why had she thought sharing a bed would be a good idea?
She had been scared and angry and frustrated when she went to bed. Now, for some inexplicable reason, she wanted to be held. No, more than held. All too easily, she could imagine being cradled naked in Pony's arms, his mouth on the nape of her neck, his strong hands cupping her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, their bodies thrusting together as his...
That was a truly dangerous line of thought. You're a married woman, idiot! You're a married woman, idiot! She loved Windwolf, so why was she suddenly l.u.s.ting for Pony? She loved Windwolf, so why was she suddenly l.u.s.ting for Pony?
Even pretending to be asleep became impossible. She opened her eyes and found that she could make out Pony's face: the shape of his mouth, the line of his nose, and the soft curve of his brow. Among the elves, she had taken his good looks for granted. After being surrounded by the oni and their alien ideals of beauty, she saw him with new eyes. Looking at him shot something akin to a low-voltage current down through her body to her groin. What would it be like to kiss him? Would he taste like Windwolf? She turned over to resist the temptation to find out.
Why was she feeling this way? She loved Windwolf. Didn't she? Certainly, if she could choose, she would want Windwolf beside her. Did she desire Pony only as a stand in for her husband? Did she only want someone bigger and stronger to make her feel safe and protected? Or did she love Windwolf only because of the s.e.x? Would any s.e.xy elf male do?
What a stupid time to be worrying about it. Pony's honor would never allow anything to happen, and besides, she'd probably never see Windwolf again. The oni were going to kill both of them as soon as the gate was done. There was no point pretending that Tomtom wouldn't dispose of them in some cruel yet offhandedly casual method. The white of exposed bone flashed into her mind. She curled against the flare of fear and misery.
I got away once, she reminded herself. I can do it again.
What was the point of being a genius, if she couldn't outthink her enemies?
Pony was doing exercises when Tinker woke the next morning. Stripped to the waist, he worked through a series of lightning-fast moves that would end suddenly in a perfect pose. Movement. Stillness. An attack. A block. A kick. A parry. Fluid. Precise. Soundless. Muscles upon muscles s.h.i.+fting under sleek skin, he was beautiful to watch. She felt the ache of desire flare up again. She moaned, rolling over to bury her head under pillows. Could this get any more embarra.s.sing?
She realized then that she needed to pee.
She sat up and discovered that in that position, the need was greater.
”Good morning.” Pony pressed his fist against his palm and bowed.
”Morning.” She eyed the chamber pot in the corner. There was a real toilet off the workshop-could she reach that? No. She felt like she was about to burst. ”Could you, um, turn around?”
She tried to pee quietly, but failed due to the acoustic properties of ceramic and the amplifying curvature of the bowl. Horses p.i.s.sed quieter. Was it possible to die of humiliation? Mark up another difference between Pony and Windwolf-she hadn't been self-conscious the first time she used the toilet in front of Windwolf. She tried to act nonchalant, but she could feel the burn of embarra.s.sment on her face as she washed her hands.
”Do you train every morning like that?” she asked to distract both of them.
”Yes. The sekasha sekasha were made to be living weapons. We hone our bodies to perfection.” were made to be living weapons. We hone our bodies to perfection.”
”You embrace being a weapon?”
”I take joy in my strength.” He high-kicked and locked into place, balanced on one foot. ”And I like to fight.”
He grinned, and suddenly he didn't seem like the mild Pony she knew, but someone wilder, and fiercer, more aptly named Stormhorse. She tried to study him clinically, taking note only of his injuries. His bruises looked days old, mottled purple and faded yellow.
”How do you feel?”
”Whole, except for my hand.” He held it out for her inspection. The middle and ring fingers were still swollen and stiff. He flexed them carefully, wincing. ”It will be another day or two before I'll be able to hold a sword, perhaps as much as four before I can strike with this hand without fear of causing more pain to myself than my opponent.”
”Good. We have to get out of here.”
”Out?”
”We need to escape.”
Pony looked at her with utter surprise. ”But you gave your word.”
Tinker winced: She had suspected that this was how the conversation would go, but she hated to have her fears confirmed. ”Pony, these are bad, nasty people with not a fleck of honor among them.”
”In giving your word, it is only your honor that matters, not the receiver. If you think the person is not worth your honor, you don't extend it.”
She checked the impulse to stick her tongue out at him. ”Would you rather I break my word or let these monsters take over our world?”
”I would rather die than be the reason you broke your word.”
Elves! ”This is not about you, this is about them doing whatever they could to break me.”
”That's because you are the pivot.”