76 I have to see her once and finally get her out of my life. (1/2)
Thursday, January 26, 2017
10:45 am I enter Emie's school which is also my old high school although I only spent a very short time there. Do I have to admit that I stopped the school or considered to be taking a break? No matter, I do not rely on my intelligence to succeed in life but on my physical assets. Those who criticizes me for that does not bother me any more. I have this advantage and I use it to the best of my ability and those who do not understand my choice can say what they want. After learning about how to get to my little sister's class, I go through the corridors and it brings me back to Japan. Forget Lisa. All will not happen as you wish and you will not satisfy everyone. That's Emie's class. I knock and enter when I am allowed.
I know, you are in a trance in front of my charisma childrens. Pff ”Forgive me, Mister, but I come to get my little sister.”
The teacher blushes? ”Miss Hanckok, we're in the middle of a lesson and I'm afraid I can not accept.”
But you will accept my little teacher. ”I'm sorry Mister but one of our family is dead and that's why I'm coming for my little sister.”
He keeps his mouth open and very embarrassed turns to Emie. ”Emie, you can go with your sister. You both have my deepest condolences. ”
This man seems very human. ”Thank you very much Mister, I'm sorry for interrupting your lesson. Emie, come on my baby. ”
We are soon out of High School and my car is parked in front, we go up and I start immediately. Sometimes I think we have to face our demons and plunge back into our past and this is the best time to do it. To go ahead and be at peace with oneself for to accept or at least relativize what one has lived is necessary. That's why I came looking for my sister because I want also her to go forward. Although she never talks about it, I think the scars in her heart are even deeper than mine and not to open them again, she has to face one of the person who caused them.
Seeing me in my thoughts, my sister has not spoken a word yet. I start my car much more aggressively than usual and go on the streets, bypassing as much as possible the other cars that today bother me. The advantage of a small car, very powerful and very handy, is that we can easily slalom between obstacles more or less immobile, what my pretty car easily allows me to do.
”Lisa, go slower. I'm afraid.”
Shit, I'm really stupid. I make my sister cry. She is terrified, very pale and clings to her seatbelt, tears streaming from her pretty eyes. ”Sorry my baby, I got carried away. I will drive normally now, I promise you. Dry your tears please, it makes me sad to see you like that.”
Emie is so cute. Immediately she smiles at me and with her sleeve dries her tears. ”Thank you, but why are you so nervous today and do you drive like crazy?”