Chapter 49 (1/2)
After I came to live with my grandparents, luyuanyuan was awakened for the first time.
When she opened her eyes and saw grandma patting her face beside the bed, she was very confused.
“…… Yuanyuan is up. It's ten o'clock. If you don't eat, you'll be hungry. ”
Lu Yuanyuan blinked his sour eyes and subconsciously agreed, ”well Grandma, I'll start now
As soon as I spoke, I felt a little sore in my throat.
Grandma had already left her room, and luyuanyuan slowly sat up from the bed, only to find something wrong with her head.
It's heavy, and it's a little stuffy inside.
As she got out of bed, she recalled what happened before she went to bed last night. Until she went to the bathroom and picked up her toothbrush to brush her teeth, her memory was still blank.
She squeezed toothpaste to brush her teeth and habitually looked up into the mirror.
The hand who wanted to pass the toothbrush to his mouth was in mid air.
She got close to the mirror, pulled her hair out of her forehead and looked carefully.
The eyes are a little swollen. One eye's double eyelids are gone. The dark circles under the eyes can't be seen. The skin is white, so it appears that the dark blue on the forehead is particularly obvious.
…… black and blue?
She is What are you doing?
Luyuanyuan used the fastest speed in history to wash her face and brush her teeth in one go, then went back to the bed to get her mobile phone, and found that there were dozens of unread messages on wechat.
Most of them are in the dormitory group.
Wang Yihan: [Yuanyuan comes home and says @ Lu OO in the crowd]
Wang Yihan sends another message at midnight: ”I fucked you and Linxi. How much did you blow? Lindsey is now climbing on my bed and reciting Maomao with me. She can't write a word in the class test. How can she recite so smoothly now??? 】
and a live video.
Lin Qian was on Wang Yihan's bed, wrapped in a quilt, her hair was like a chicken nest, and she roared: ”seek truth from facts! That is to start from reality! Combine theory with practice! What about the mass line! It's all for the masses! Everything depends on the masses! From the masses... ”
After reading it, luyuanyuan couldn't help laughing. She replied that she had just got up, so she quit the group chat and opened the dialog with Sulin.
Ten minutes ago, three messages.
Su Lin: [wake up. 】
Su Lin: [when I first took a bath, I found that my shoulder was blue. 】Su Lin: How's your forehead? 】
Lu Yuanyuan was stunned
His shoulder is blue. How about her forehead?
This is what do you mean?
After thinking about it for a while, she didn't understand. She told me the truth. 】
she remembers that yesterday was a basketball match, and then several people went to a dinner party. After the dinner party She has no memory at all. But look at what Wang Yihan said in the group last night, she and Linxi had drunk too much.
So he added: ”senior Did I get drunk yesterday? 】
Su linsechui: [well, do you remember? 】
drunk.
And then Blue forehead and shoulders
Lu Yuanyuan guessed carefully: ”we are going to talk to people There was a fight Is that right? 】
Su Lin 】
grandma called her once again in the living room outside. Luyuanyuan went out of the room with her mobile phone. When she got to the living room, she found that her grandfather was there.
She went to the table, looked at the time, some novel: ”grandfather, why didn't you go to play chess?”
“……” Grandfather didn't speak.
Instead, grandma sat beside her, sighed and pointed to the things on the table, ”you eat first.”
Luyuanyuan noticed that it was not only his grandfather who was abnormal, but also his grandmother, who was keen on watching the morning theater TV series, didn't turn on the TV at all.
She was a little afraid of them.
But she still obediently hum, and then lowered her head to drink porridge. The temperature was just hot. She should have been heated many times by grandma. It was thick and tasted good, but her hand holding the spoon was shaking uncontrollably.
After drinking, the two old people were still silent.
She has lived here for quite a long time. She knows that her grandparents are usually relaxed and happy. Sometimes it's more fun to watch them bicker than to watch variety shows.
Their old life, if not happy, may be only one.
”Luzhi, I was hospitalized last night.”
“……”
It took luyuanyuan ten seconds to remember that Luzhi in grandfather's mouth was her father.
Hospitalization means -
She pinches the spoon and looks at the old man and says, ”drink too much Stomach bleeding, still alive. ”
Luyuanyuan was suddenly relieved, and her heart was relaxed.
The atmosphere before, she thought
”It was his neighbor who found it. He called us in the address book and said that he was smashing things at home in the evening. It was very loud. They knocked on the door early the next morning and found that there was no response and they couldn't open the door, so they called the police He was sent to the hospital“……”
Grandma asked: ”Yuanyuan, tell us the truth, before He always does the same? ”
”Drinking Yes, he always drank alcohol when I was in high school. I would buy him medicine, take it or not I don't know
In fact, for a moment, she thought that her grandparents were going to tell her that your father was hospitalized and was not saved.
She didn't know why she was so worried.
Maybe it's because that man's life style has always been imprinted in the memory. She doesn't care about anything. Like a walking corpse, she can't find a person like that The reason why he lived, as if one day it would disappear in the world, is also possible.
”Well,” grandma suddenly raised her hand and touched her hair, ”I really hurt you At that time, we asked about the status of students in s city. There was no hard relationship. We couldn't transfer at all. Your grandfather and I couldn't help you transfer. We also wanted to let you borrow it. But when you were a sophomore in high school, they said that the examination questions and teaching materials were completely different. When you came, you had to learn from scratch Alas It happened that your grandfather wanted to retire at that time and sold his place to see a doctor. The people who bought the house had problems again... ”
Grandma said, has some choking, luyuanyuan Leng for a moment, reflected that their abnormal today is not because of her father's hospitalization.
It's because of her.
It's because I regret that I didn't pick her up at that time.
”Oh, grandma,” she took the old man's hand, rough and warm, ”I've always been very good. He drinks and drinks from him. I'm still so good at my study. You can't transfer me to another school. I'll pass the exam.”
At that time, he didn't ask why he had the money to pay the tuition every year.
In fact, now think about it My grandparents gave me all the tuition.
Cost of living She doesn't want to ask, even if he takes the money from her grandparents to buy wine or something, she has her own way to make money.
She's really stupid. She can't figure out the reason why her father did this, why her mother made a mistake, and why he just wasted the rest of his life.
“…… In fact, I have three years of junior high school and senior high school. I always hope my father can get better, but later I I don't think about it any more. ”
”Maybe it's my mother's business that makes him completely lose the motivation of life. Even my daughter doesn't care.”
”If you were to pull me away at that time, I might be too stupid to want to,” she helped grandma wipe off the water mark on her face. ”I don't want to die. I think I'm his daughter. I don't care who cares about him. Maybe he will return to the way he used to one day? ”
She is not without expectations, she hopes that the father's simplest love for her daughter, I hope he can ask how many she got in the exam, it seems that learning is more motivated.
It's not that every time you look at your number one, you can only hold a parents' meeting for yourself, stand on the platform to share your learning experience, and accept praise from other parents. When you go home, you still have to clean up his empty wine bottle.
One of her two parents didn't contact her again after reorganizing her family. The other lived with her every day and didn't even know when she would take the exam.
Every time after the loss, the heart is at a loss.
Again and again, no matter how small or big, no matter how sad she was, the man didn't care. He didn't even notice her emotion.
Luyuanyuan thinks that learning is much easier than these things.
She is so stupid that she can't figure out these. She thinks, forget it.
I'll recognize this reality.
He gave birth to you and raised you, but he didn't love you.
What can I do? Can I ask him to love you, even if I ask Does it work?
I've worked hard for so many years, but I can't change him at all.
I don't want to be sad, and I don't want to hate anyone.
I can only paralyze myself and tell myself.
You don't want me, and I don't love you.
“…… At that time, I was stupid, now I don't care about him so much, ”luyuanyuan went to hold grandma with a smile, but suddenly felt sour,” really, I live with you and grandfather now, you treat me so well, my university is also very good, I know a lot of, very warm people. ”
She quickly went through the faces of many people, roommates, classmates, and many people who had given her kindness.
The last one is Sulin's.
It's his smile many times. It's so beautiful.
How nice.
She put her chin on Grandma's shoulder and blinked. A tear fell down quickly and disappeared in the cloth on Grandma's back.
Only a small round spot of water is left.