Chapter 62 (1/2)
Luyuanyuan was actually the most boring person in his student days.
Without a smartphone, she didn't know what to do. She had a computer at home, but she didn't like playing.
There was always someone in the class to collect the contact information of the students. At that time, there was no wechat, and they all used QQ. Every time the paper was sent to her, she wrote ”no”.
Without these, naturally there is no condition to listen to music.
But she likes to listen.
Every day after the second class in the morning, we have to do recess exercises. Before and after the exercises, the school radio station will play songs, generally three songs a day.
Luyuanyuan was in a good mood during the period of daily exercise.
So now Su Lin sings to her, some of them are familiar to her, some of them seem to have been heard in a shopping mall, and some of them are completely strange.
But, without exception, from his voice to sing out, are too good to hear.
And there was a strange, calming feeling.
He told her to close her eyes. She didn't.
Just look at his face, look at the way he can't remember the lyrics, casually smile and hum in the past, my heart is warm.
I don't know what song it is. Lu Yuanyuan thought his voice was a little hoarse, so he called to stop.
After a moment's silence, he said, ”why don't you sleep?”
Luyuanyuan shook his head and rubbed his face against the pillow: ”I can't sleep.”
Looking at Su Lin's frowning, she added, ”it's not because of anything else. It's too early. I have to go to bed at ten o'clock.”
”Senior,” she said softly, wrapping up the quilt, ”do you want to stay here all the time?”
”Well My parents, they should be over for a while He said, ”it's OK. I can play all the time when I finish eating.”
”Oh, let me tell you something about my parents Although... ” After a pause, Luyuan said, ”it's not very nice.”
”When my mother just left, my father was in a special state for a long time...” After thinking about it, luyuanyuan could only think of one word: ”terrible.”
”Even if I eat, I have to be forced. Every day it's like walking dead. My grandfather is almost angry. My grandmother has been crying. I dare not speak to him, but I've been watching and watching his reaction.”
”He just, no response, as if everything outside had nothing to do with him.”
“…… After a while, my grandfather first thought that there might be something wrong with him, so he took him to see a psychologist Her voice unconsciously lowered: ”and then There is a problem. ”
”What's the problem?” Su Lin asked.
”Although I was in junior high school at that time, I always remember what the doctor said to me and my grandparents. The doctor said that my father actually had a certain degree of mental cleanliness, or emotional cleanliness. But the degree is not heavy, and it's not obvious in life. It's just that the desire for control is a little stronger than that of normal people. There will be no major events, and there will be no psychological hidden danger. ”
”But Listen to the name, you also know that this kind of recessive psychosis can develop into a disease only by inducement, inducement... ”
Lu Yuanyuan pursed her lips, and suddenly felt a little ashamed, but she still went on with it It's my mother's infidelity. ”
”The doctor said that since he realized this, his psychological pressure has been increasing and he has begun to collapse. But at that time, he was already an adult in his forties and had a certain ability to accept it, which was not directly reflected.”
”His final diagnosis was mild affective deficiency, personality disorder, affective apathy, and a little bit of depression.”
Lu Yuanyuan read the diagnosis book, but she didn't understand it at that time, but she firmly remembered these words until she went to the computer room to have a computer class. For the first time, she didn't follow the teacher's instructions to check what is apathy on the Internet.
Actually Almost literally.
No response to the outside world, no emotional fluctuations to relatives and friends, no communication, no expression, indifference to everything.
No one knows what he is thinking.
”Have you ever been treated?” His voice sounded.
”Ah,” Lu Yuanyuan said, ”for treatment, my grandfather found the doctor in S City, because there is no reliable psychologist in my family. The doctor said that treatment is OK, but because my father is old, all values and psychological concepts have been formed for many years, so the treatment cycle will be very long.”
”My grandfather asked him to move to s City, but he refused. He must go back to this house and asked him why, but he didn't say.”
Luyuanyuan didn't want to lie down. He turned over on the bed and put his mobile phone on the pillow to talk to him. ”I'm still at school. I only know that my grandparents were completely disappointed with my dad at that time. My grandfather was still opening a store to see people. It had been a long time. One day they had a big fight and went back to s city.”
Su Lin didn't speak for a moment.
His black eyes fixed across the screen looking at her, rolling some emotion, thin lips pursed into a line.
Since he finished singing, luyuanyuan has been much calmer.
She even laughed and reached out to touch his face on the screen. ”You're so serious. Don't do that. I'm not sad anymore...””I'm angry.” He said.
Luyuanyuan was stunned Well
”I'm angry. Your mother has done something wrong and your father has a problem. What about you?”
“……”
”What the hell did you do wrong? Why do they do this to you? ”
“……”
I don't know whether it's anger or some other emotion. Under the light, his white eyes turned red, his chest fluctuated slightly, and then he said, ”last time, when you were crying because of your father, I wanted to say it.”
”Just now you cried again. After listening to this, I almost wanted to buy a ticket to your house, scold him and ask him for help.”
Lu Yuanyuan's hand trembled a little. His words were not very loud, but the words clearly hit her heart.
”It's not enough for me to spoil such a nice little girl.” She looked at Su Lin, and the redness in the corner of her eyes became more and more obvious. In the last sentence, he almost gnashed his teeth like: ”why is he hanging for so many years?”
After listening to him.
Choked in her throat, her tears burst out of her eyes again.
The ticket back to s city has been bought for a long time. After that night, the atmosphere at home became more and more light, and the new year passed in a muddle. Luyuanyuan paid new year's respects to her grandparents and roommates
except for eating in the living room, she would not go out of the room, so it can be said that she would return to the pre liberation one night.
But in fact, she has been used to it for a long time. To be honest, the past half a month is not used to and true to her.
Luyuanyuan didn't expect to receive a message from her high school deskmate the day before she left. She called her home phone and said she wanted to ask her out to meet and have a meal.
After all, she was one of the few friends in high school. She agreed without much hesitation.
When I got to the appointed store, there was a wind chime on the door, jingling. A man turned around and waved to her with a smile.
Luyuanyuan was in a trance for a moment, and walked over with a smile, ”long time no see...” When she called her name, she hesitated for a moment and called her name Qi Yan
When they went to university, they didn't contact each other any more. Luyuanyuan sent her a text message, and all of them went to sea.
She thought, maybe their relationship is not good enough to call a nickname, and after more than half a year, she also I can't say it in a strange way.
”Long time no see,” Qi Yan pushed her a menu. ”Let's see what you want to eat.”
Ten minutes, two people order good food.
After a while, luyuanyuan said, ”you How are you doing after graduation? ”
”Well, how to say it,” said Qiyan after a pause, ”I can't say good or bad. I didn't go to college.”
“…… Well
”I didn't get the second grade, and the third one was a waste of money. You know what's going on in my family.”
So Is she already working?
With that, luyuanyuan felt that she didn't want to talk about it, so she answered two times and passed away.
In the middle of a meal, they recalled their next high school. At the end, Qi Yan suddenly mentioned something.
”Some time ago, I met my high school classmate, who was in the same university with you. She told me that you are very famous in university now, because... ” She pauses for a second, looks at her with a smile, ”made a handsome boyfriend?”
Lu Yuanyuan was stunned and nodded, ”I It's love. ”
”I went to your school forum several times, and it was very handsome.”
”Luyuanyuan,” Qi Yan suddenly called her, ”before I broke up with that person, I also believe in these feelings. I believe what he said. Let's go to university together and get married after graduation.”
”As a result,” she said, ”I failed in the college entrance examination, so we broke up. We didn't accept long-distance love or family.”
”Three years is gone.”