Chapter 401 (1/2)
”What are you going to do?” Mo Nianchen raises eyebrows to look at her.
”Drink.” Li shengxia said.
”You can't drink.”
”I can learn.”
”Li shengxia, you can directly say that you want to escape. To escape the night alone with me. ”
Li shengxia didn't expect that he said so directly, and suddenly he said: ”I......”
He said with a cold face, ”am I so terrible? Can I eat people? Didn't we spend the night together? ”
“……” She was stunned and didn't know how to answer.
”I'm sleepy. I'll sleep first. You'll have to drink alone and drink slowly.” Mo Nianchen finished and turned back to her, lying on the sofa.
Li shengxia looks at his back in a daze and can't help but think of what he said to her in ”ten li Hongzhuang”
He's afraid. She's not I'm afraid that if I'm not careful, I'll do something wrong. And then, all the time, always regret
Mo Nianchen did not speak again, nor turned around, as if he were asleep.
Li shengxia can't help but think of a lot of things in the past. Slowly, he fell asleep beside the tea table
In the middle of the night, Mo Nianchen turned to see her, found her sleeping position, and walked slowly past. Squat down and look at her.
”Fool, is it hard for you to be with me?”
”I admit it was intentional I touched your lips on purpose It was almost out of control, but I managed. Because you said you wanted me to respect you, because you said you wanted equal relations. ”
”Because you said it, I tried to restrain myself.”
”You don't know how challenging it is for me every time you appear. How difficult it is for me to pretend to be indifferent to you. ”
”I've been learning to play all kinds of roles, please you, or cool you off. But the result is still unable to ignore you, can't ignore, can't pretend that nothing happened. ”
”Watching you make physical contact with other men, even if you just want to slap Ouyang in the face, I find it unbearable...”
”I must be crazy...”
”That's what happens when you're crazy...”
”Even if you want to hit people, I'd rather that you only fight me...”
”What kind of illness did I become. I can't remember. ”
”I just remember, too much, too much. Too much, too much I can't let go of your memory. ”
”From my eight years old, to my nineteen years old, to my twenty-five years old, to my thirty years old...”
”I never imagined other women, never imagined losing you...”
”I've been pretending that you're alive. Yes, you've been alive. Even if people think you're dead, I still think you must be alive.”
”I can't let you die, because if you die, I don't know what I have to live for...”
”I am so attached to you...”
”I feel so sorry for myself that I can only love you.”
”Do you think I haven't tried? Didn't you try to leave you? ”
”But...”
”How can I do it?”
”Twenty two years.”
”Do you know how long 22 years are?”
”It's 264 months.”