Chapter 62 - 62 (1/2)

I didn't get to her in time. Aura and the rest of her children had left. Straight after the meeting I ignored Xavier and went in search for her. I was informed by one of the werwolves from her pack, Lacy, that she had left with the group of non fighters, children and elders.

She had buried Jacob straight after the fight. I can't even begin to imagine the pain she must be going through right now. I rubbed my chest when memories of my parents flashed before my eyes.

All these later and their memory was still fresh in my mind. I could picture their faces perfectly. My dads laughing lines and his slightly crooked nose. My mother's gentle eyes and her beautiful face. They say you forget the sound of your loved ones voices as time goes on but I can remember my dads throaty laugh and my mothers awful singing as if it were yesterday.

I wiped the tear that slipped from my eye and quickly moved away from the cluster of tents I was standing amongst. The harsh reality of everything in my life came rushing back.

Cadmer.

Just mentioning his name made me so blindingly furious. All of this was his fault. I hadn't in the slithers forgotten about that sadist.

I clenched my fists. I'm sure he was delighting in our suffering right now. He probably thinks he is going to win this war and successfully kill Xavier and I.

Ha, he has another thing coming.

I made my way through the melting snow. My head down, my fists clenched. My murderous thoughts were cut short when I bumped into a large chest. I rubbed my forehead and glared looked up and glared at Killian.

He stood in front of me and crossed his arms.

”Luna, I thought our lessons would at least prepare you to be able to see where you're going.” He said sarcastically.

”Killian, I am not in the mood right now.” I said and moved to walk passed him. He gripped my arm before I could storm away and pulled me back in front of him.

”Luna, walk with me.” He said sounding actually genuine for once. I thought about it for a second and realised I didn't actually want to go back to the castle and see Xavier so why not delay it for as long as I can.

I huffed and gestured for him to lead the way. We fell into a some what comfortable silence as we walked side by side. Killian was leading the way so I followed him. We walked away from the tents and we seemed to be going around the castle.

The snow was melting so it was far easier to walk. In some places you could see the dark brown of the earth peeking out. It was still freezing however and I watched as clouds of air blew from my mouth.

”You didn't use your power on the battlefield, did you.” Killian remained facing forward as we continued walking. He said it so calmly.

”No,” I sighed.

”Why.”

I closed my eyes and knew I couldn't lie to him. After all the weeks we have spent together I did respect Killian. I regarded him as my teacher and a friend. Yes, he was as hard as nails and a miserable, sarcastic little shit half the time but that's just how he was.

”Because-because I was scared.” He looked down at me from the side of his head then and raised an eyebrow.

”From what I heard, you were nothing but fearless.”

I shook my head. He didn't know about the Moon Goddesses warning. Could I tell him?

”I don't have any problems with physically fighting but I'm scared. I'm scared of my power. I'm scared I could hurt people.”

Killian stopped then and looked at me. He gestured behind me and I turned and saw a bench under a large naked tree that I'm sure must be beautiful in the summertime.

I went towards it and sat down and he did the same.

”Luna, I thought we were making progress and that you at least were not afraid of it. I thought we were passed that.”

We were I wanted to shout but Xavier just had to go and ruin all of that. I leaned forward and held my head between my hands.

”I know, I thought so to.”

”I had a mate.”

I sat straight up at his words. My shock quickly turned into sadness as his words registered, ”had”.

Killian remained looking ahead as I turned my body around to look at his side profile. He clenched his jaw.

”What happened,” I asked gently.