Chapter 54 - Alex Li (2/2)
”That's right,” Ashley told her. ”I was so scared to hear something I didn't like so I didn't want to talk to him about anything important at all.”
”I see…”
”In the three years we've been together, he had mȧturėd and became a real man,” Ashley said, her voice rang with nostalgia. ”It was me who got stuck because of my fears.”
Yanee was quiet for a while as if weighing her words. ”But isn't it normal to be scared when you are in a relationship? After all, it's with someone you are considering to be with for the rest of your life.”
Oh well, there's divorce and annulment, but a marriage was still a marriage. Even if Yanee was a bit jaded, she still believed that people still got married with spending together until they were old and gray in their minds.
”True,” Ash agreed without hesitation. ”But still, if you only have fear in your heart, then what's the point of being with someone? Look at me; in those three years, before we got married, I was actually not happy. I was always scared things would be taken away – and it nearly did.”
”You mean Alex would leave you if you didn't change?” Yanee asked in disbelief and Ash shook her head.
”No. But he would have given up asking for my love,” Ash explained. ”We wouldn't be so happy now if we still had that barrier between us.”
True.
”Do you know what the hardest part is when it comes to trust?” Ash asked, and when Yanee didn't say anything she continued. ”The hardest part is not trusting someone or trusting someone again if he does something bad before. It's trusting yourself.”
Huh?
Ashley let out a chuckle at Yanee's confused expression. ”Yanee, if you don't trust yourself, how can you believe that what you do is right and what you deserve?”
Yanee remained quiet, but her expression told Ash that she was thinking about it and agreed.
”It's basically the same as not loving yourself. If you don't love yourself, how can you expect someone else to love you?”
Finally, Yanee smiled. There was nothing she could say to rebut that idea. It was totally correct.
”Your eyes are beautiful. Why are you wearing brown contacts? Wouldn't colorless be better?” Yanee asked out of curiosity. If she had beautiful eyes like Ash, she'd definitely flaunt them.
”It's bothersome. People always look at me as if I'm an alien, I dislike that,” Ashley confessed.
Ah…
Well, the reason why Ash became the target of silly people's bet was due to her eyes. It must have been exhausting fending off weird people. Yanee was not jealous of her eyes anymore.
”What are you ladies talking about?”
An amused voice suddenly sounded from the doorway and the two turned around in time to see Alex Li walk in. He was not alone, though. In his arms was a smiling little boy – the cutest one Yanee had ever seen.
”Ira, come to mama,” Ashley crooned as she held out her hands.
Alex placed the boy down and Ira quickly ran towards his mother's embrace. ”Say hello to Tatie Yanee,” Ash told the boy who cutely obeyed.
As Yanee understood, ”tatie” meant ”auntie” in French. It was obvious that the boy had foreign blood like his mom, Ashley. But the most unique part of his face was his pair of blue-grey eyes. It looked like he inherited much of his mom's genes.
Seeing Yanee's amazed expression as she looked at Ira, Alex laughed.
”Yeah, Ira got her mom's eyes,” he said before turning to Ash. ”Are you done with your interview?”
”Ah – yes,” Yanee answered nervously upon remembering her murderous thoughts on Alex. ”We already finished talking.”
The man seemed to understand what she was thinking and let out another round of laughter. Yanee couldn't help but feel guilty for thinking badly of him. ”I'm sorry,” she said sheepishly.
”Did Ash tell you what she did to my former friends?” he asked.
”Former?”Yanee was surprised.
”Yeah. I don't hang out with them anymore. They're idiots,” Alex said with a grin. ”Did she?”
Yanee shook her head. Ash ended her story after revealing that she was Amethyst Eyes.
”Do you want to know?” Alex asked and Yanee finally grinned.
”Sure…”