30 Episode 2 Karolinas Notes (1/2)

The Emperor rarely laughs.

People who know the Emperor will tilt their heads when I say that.

Your father would probably tilt his head, and so would Sir Auguste. Maybe Patriarch Lucarius is aware of this. ......

Perhaps only I or ...... His Majesty's mother are aware of this.

His Majesty rarely laughs.

She is neither angry nor sad.

So what is that smile of His Majesty's?

You might wonder.

Well, it is true that His Majesty is often in a good mood, smiling and laughing.

I can easily picture it, too.

That's how often he smiles.

But ......

That's just a smile.

His Majesty's heart is not wavering in any way.

It's just a mask called a ”smile,” and in reality, it's no different from a blank expression.

His Majesty's facial expressions, words and actions often do not match his emotions.

For example, His Majesty was once angry with the mercenary captain Darios - General Darios.

That's when he told the general to become his subordinate.

His Majesty was certainly scared at that time.

But ...... you weren't actually angry or in a bad mood at that time in any way.

On the contrary, at that time, he was much happier to have a good subordinate.

That's the way His Majesty is.

He never divulges his emotions and expresses very different emotions in order to deceive those around him.

More ......

I have known him for a long time.

I've known him for a long time, so I can tell if he has a fake expression or a real one.

For example, ...... looks in a good mood when he is eating a delicious meal.

If I tell you that I love you ...... when we are skin to skin, you will still look happy.

When I ate a poisoned melon, ...... he was angry, though his expression did not show it.

But I can't help it if I'm told that even that was an act.

But I still love you, and I do love you.

Even if it was an ”act” that made you happy when I said ”I love you,” ......

I'm not going to say that I don't love you.

And even if you don't like me, even if you don't like me, I love you and I will continue to love you.

But ...... perhaps I am an odd one.

As I mentioned earlier, His Majesty's mother is probably aware of this.

That's why she's not happy with you. ......

She seems to think you are creepy and afraid of her.

But at the same time, like Hadrian IV, he is conscious of the fact that he gave birth to the child with pain in his belly.

Occasionally, there is a hint of guilt.

It's not my place to say (write?) this, as I have never had a child. It's a bit embarrassing for me to say (write?) this, but I think she may want to make peace with me.

But that doesn't mean I'm going to appeal to His Majesty to improve the relationship.

That is a matter between His Majesty and His Majesty's mother, not a matter that I should interfere with.

More importantly, His Majesty does not want to improve relations.

Her mother is probably not important to her.

I'm sure that she is only aware of the fact that I borrowed her womb for a while. ......

And I don't think it's a good idea to feel this way about her. ......

It seems to me that His Majesty is looking to me and my mother for the love that he did not get from your mother.

If that's the case, I've benefited from it.

Speaking of affection, Your Majesty was definitely not a virgin.

She was obviously very good at it.

I was a virgin. ...... Isn't that a little unfair?

But the question is, where did you lose your virginity?　I've always been with you.

I was always with him, but I never saw him with another woman. ...... Eunuchs and servants said they didn't know.

The eunuchs and maidservants say that I'm the first time His Majesty has ever been with a woman.

...... Is it true?

However, they have no reason to lie to you.