173 61 Junkessho A little bit of a relationship! (1/2)

I sat down on the cobblestone floor.

As she sat there with her soft body, I could see the winner clearly when I looked up.

The lower you look up, the better the spectacle.

The walls surrounding the world were filled with spectators.

The cheers were loud.

They were praising the winner, Futa.

Finally, I realize my defeat.

It's not the first time I've faced Futa like this and lost.

That's normal.

I've lost many times before, which is why I was looking forward to this day.

So why...

”.......

My vision is slowly distorting.

I don't know why this one loss is so heavy.

There were many things I wanted to say.

The feeling of not wanting to admit defeat honestly.

I wanted to try again.

I don't want it to end like this.

The feeling that this arena that I hosted is no longer my own.

In my heart, I knew.

The spectacle I worked so hard to create. The fight I've been waiting for with you.

I didn't expect to get it this time like I said I would.

I did the best I could. I played all the cards I could think of.

And then I lost. I had no reason to feel like I was being overwhelmed by frustration, even if I admired it.

”......... .........

My mind is out of control.

The calm part of my brain kept repeating to me to calm down.

The cooler part of my brain kept telling me to calm down, but my fevered heart wouldn't respond to a simple ice pack.

--If we don't do something, she'll take the Spectacle.

--Richter already has a new pawn in his hand.

--It's getting out of my control.

But all of them can be quickly recovered later.

That's how I've made my arrangements.

So for now, I should congratulate Futa on his good fight and smile at him.

Just act like you always do.

Even though I know that.

”......

I can't speak.

I can't see.

So much.

So much.

”Is defeat so bitter?

My head hurts like a crack from the first time I've felt it.

Why?

Why?

I don't know. It's hard. I wipe my eyes.

My vision is distorted again by the sight that jumps into my clear vision.

I wipe the new wound over and over until the blood stops.

My ridiculous tear glands overflowed no matter how hard I tried to suppress them.

Every time the world becomes clearer.

In the venue of victory, you don't respond to the audience.

You were smiling at someone, as if you had won a victory together.

I couldn't help but miss that.

...... ”Huh.

It was a good fight.

My throat was so constricted that I couldn't even formulate the word.

The lower half of my body was so weak that I felt as if I had lost my back.

Shameful, shameful, shameful.

I can't forgive myself for exposing myself like this in front of the public.

And yet...

”Lilac-sama!

A shadow appeared in front of me as I sobbed like a child.

I didn't want to simply take the hand that was gently extended to me.

I didn't want to ask her to take my hand and stand up at the end of this abomination.

And to the last person I wanted to be seen with.

Oh. Then I wish you hadn't seen me.

You think about it, and then you realize. I realize...

If it's me you're looking at then...

Just like at the handfasting.

If you'd been watching me the whole time.

I wouldn't have felt this way.

”...... Why?

The words I managed to squeeze out were incomprehensible.

The young man in front of me tilted his head as if in trouble, but still reached out his hand.

Why ...... are you in so much pain?

”That's...

Futa was at a loss for words as he thought for a moment.

Then he shook his head loosely.

...... I don't know.

I'm not sure what to say.

She saw his usual gentle expression in his eyes.

He looked around at the still enthusiastic crowd and said.

I've rarely lost a game. And I've never been cheered so loudly. It would be arrogant of me to say that I understand Lilac's feelings.

”......

But I could tell that Mr. Lilac was very committed to ...... this match. It's frustrating that it didn't work out. I think I understand that feeling.

”...... frustrating.

Yes.

He nodded, narrowed his eyes and muttered.

He nodded, narrowed his eyes and muttered, ”I know it's a bit presumptuous of me to compare. I'm not sure if it's fair to compare me to you, but I've seen the frustration and sadness when something you thought might work out doesn't work out. Sadness. The feeling of being disgusted with yourself. I think I understand those feelings very well.

I thought it was going to work.

I thought it wasn't supposed to be like this.

I was sad.

I hated myself.

One by one, Lilac thought back and closed her eyes.

She wiped a drop from her eye and exhaled.

The sword you and I will make together.

That's how today's excitement was supposed to be made.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. Lilac knows how this cheer was made.

It was sad. Things had been going according to plan. I didn't think Futa would turn it around.

Oh, I see. I hate myself.

As a warrior, I want to beat you.

But I'm looking for something else.

”Even going into the fight, those two feelings were mixed up.

--So I was the one who was not prepared for the game.

...... You wanted to win.

Yes.

...... And...

I wanted to have a fun game with you.

In the end, that's all I wanted.

Takehito's desire to take the championship from Futa.

And I wanted to make the world a better place with you.

I wanted to take them both in my hands.

”I knew this would happen, so I did everything I could.

But... But nothing.

I wanted to make my ...... dream come true.

I know. That's why I'm .......

Yes. You put him there.

I wish I could say to myself at the time that it was all a mistake.

We opened each other up more than I thought we would.

Oh, so stupid.

There's only one thing I didn't expect.

”I never thought she'd be this open to people. ”

You have every right to be disgusted.

Because this is the card you've been playing to set her up.

It was only because I cared for Futa more than she did that things went smoothly at that time.

And now I find myself in an unexpected situation in the exact same way.

That's my blood sister.

It's so bad, it makes me want to throw up.

”...... didn't work, did it?

What?

Futa rolled his eyes as he muttered to himself.

Lilac wiped away her tears for the umpteenth time and continued.

I should never have given you that girl.

”Haha!

Laughing, Futa shook his head.

”Indeed. He's been a really good partner in winning.

I wanted to tell him that wasn't true. But I couldn't say it.

Lilac smiled weakly, but she didn't have the energy to do anything about it.

...... Yes, Master Lilac.

So I looked up defenselessly at Futa's words, which I suddenly remembered .

”Because I won. Can I ask you one thing?

If Futa loses, I'll 'get rid' of her.

Futa took the offer. And he won. Completely and utterly.

So, the proposal.

Lilac gulped as he continued.

One way or another.

The First Martial Arts Tournament in commemoration of the construction of the Eisenhart arena Spectacula.

Today is the second day of the finals.

Today, the second day of the finals, ended in a climax of excitement.

--The spectacle hall was bathed in the setting sun.

The sun was shining on the spectacle.

The spectacle club was quiet once the game was over and the crowd had cleared out.

After all the people have gone home by the staff's guidance.

The battlefield is empty, and the spectator seats are bare like mortar.

Without the filter of people, the venue would be so inorganic.

That's what the girl was thinking.