111 CHAPTER XIX: A SAD END ② (2/2)

The useless vision of the Lord said that the cause of the pain was that the curse was weaker in lower level vampires than in vampires.

In other words - I should break free from the lower level and become a full vampire. Then the curse on me would be able to defeat Sable's curse - or at least compete with it.

Until a few days ago, I didn't know why I couldn't mutate or how to mutate for any length of time. But now I know both.

The reason I couldn't mutate was the safety the Lord put on me.

And the way to unlock it is through words.

If it's too complicated, it won't be able to mutate quickly enough when it takes over, and if it's too easy, it might be deactivated before it can take over.

When I dove into my inner self and faced the Lord of Bones, the last piece of information he sent me was the deactivation key.

It was also proof that Lord's will had given a certain value to my existence.

A single word. Just by reciting it, I could probably mutate.

A true demon of the night, powerful and abhorrent to all mankind.

And it's Senri who's holding it back.

Let's be honest. I've always been a little afraid of changing.

Partly because it would increase my weaknesses, but most of all because I was afraid of how Senri would react to me becoming a complete monster. If possible, I hoped I could live like this forever.

Because, in this body, there was still a chance that I would be able to enjoy the sunrise with Senri.

Senri was very kind to me now, but there was no guarantee that he would be the same to the changed me.

Sable was defeated. But I couldn't kill him. Next time he'll be sure to take precautions and come at me full force.

I'm growing up, and the sucking spell is undeniably a powerful ability, but I don't know how much longer I can fight like this. My opponent is a true demon group that has been fighting against the dreaded Knights of the End for a long time.

I rolled myself up, closed my eyes, and took a deep breath. I can feel the curse I sucked out of Sable raging inside my body, tormenting my soul.

But I can still endure. I must endure.

So far, I've put it off, telling myself I'll wait until I'm ready. To mutate just to run away from the pain is too shameful.

Even if the conclusion I've come to is to mutate, it should be because of my firm will.

It's just will. But I've lived by my will this far.

I'm okay. I can still fight. I can get up. Sharpen your mind, embrace the pain.

This body will not die. It survived being decapitated, burned by the sun. It's no laughing matter that a vampire got a stomach ache from sucking blood.

Then I slowly stretched out my curled body. As I tried to stand up, my fingers sunk into the wall of the closet. I choke on the pain as it rakes through my guts, but there's no need for me to breathe.

”Sable, that's no big deal. I just feel like all my guts are going to come out of my mouth, that's all.

That's right. I don't need my guts. I can live without them. But it's not the body the curse is tormenting. It is clear that the pain will not disappear even if the stomach is emptied. ...... I'm dying.

But I can't let Senri act alone any longer.

You'll be able to find a lot of people who are willing to help you out. The only one who can touch Senri is me.

I force myself to think stupid things to boost my morale. I tell myself.

”Okay, okay, okay, okay, no big deal. I'm just dying. I'm just a little bit dying. And if you think about it, I'm already dead, so what?

”............ end. You look pretty good.

What?

Apparently, more time had passed than I thought. Through the closet, Senri's purple eyes looked at me in disgust.

It must have been daytime just a few minutes ago, but it was now completely dark outside. It was my time.

Pushing the door open, I step out of the closet. My face is tight from the pain, but my limbs aren't shaking. It would still be difficult to fight properly, and I wasn't used to the pain, but I could at least move.

The gentle Senri stepped forward in a natural motion and carried me by the shoulders. Silvery hair. The sweet smell of blood on her white skin makes me forget about the pain for a moment.

”Are you sure you're okay, ..................?

”Yeah, ...... I'm fine. I'm fine now. Let me tell you something.

I'm entirely responsible for the sable's blood being sucked out of me. Senri had warned me from the start not to suck the curse too much. I had gotten a little carried away with Albatross and the cannibal curse.

I held my stomach and said to Senri, who was watching my expression closely.

”Oh, it hurts. My stomach hurts a lot. So be gentle with me if you can. Tell me a story gently. Tell me a joke, but preferably a hug and a story in my ear. The pain won't go away for a long time, there's nothing I can do if I just stand here.