Chapter 742 - The Curse (17) (1/2)

Zhao Ming looked at Xie Ming who was sitting opposite her on the sofa and was looking down at her hands while avoiding eye contact with her. They were now in Xie Ming's bedroom as Zhao Ming had something to talk to Xie Ming.

Zhao Ming picked up the coffee mug from the small round table in front of her and took a sip of it before saying, ” So...we finally got some time to talk, huh. Xie Ming, do you feel uncomfortable around me? Because you look like you are on your edges around me.” She asked directly, seeing the hesitant expressions on Xie Ming's face.

Xie Ming looked up at her and pursed her lips as she was caught by Zhao Ming's blunt words. She took a deep breath and fidgeted with her fingers.

” I...do you have any difficulties staying here? I mean, it must not be easy for you since the weather and surroundings changed all of a sudden. There must be things that you need to buy. Also, did you sleep well last night? ” Xie Ming said while diverting the topic.

”Xie Ming, do you think that it's important right now? We aren't here to talk about what I need to buy, are we?” Zhao Ming asked, seeing how she was changing the topic and not answering her question.

Xie Ming sighed upon hearing her words and pursed her lips and took a deep breath before speaking, ” Yes. I was trying to not feel this way but...this situation is rather uncomfortable.”

She said, finally admitting her real thoughts.

Zhao Ming nodded, as she was feeling the same way. Meeting Xie Ming with Ji Cheng by her side is rather uncomfortable than she had imagined before. Ji Cheng and Xie Ming (Zhao Ming) were legally wedded in the past and even though their relationship was not that strong, they were still married. And the same goes for her and Liwei, they were married, although it was just a marriage of convenience, they still had some relationship.

So it's obvious to be uncomfortable for them to be living under the same roof.

” I don't know what to feel at this moment. Seeing Ji Cheng confused about his feelings and his coldness towards you makes me feel guilty for being happy with Liwei. After all, it's your body and supposed to be your life but I am living your life, it feels like I am stealing your happiness.” Xie Ming said in a low voice, avoiding Zhao Ming's gaze.

” However, seeing that you're not happy with Ji Cheng and has to face the cruel palace life, makes me feel guilty towards you. I wish this could just change everything and go back to whatever it was before.” Xie Ming pursed her lips and said guiltily.

Zhao Ming smiled mildly hearing her words and said, ” Why do you think I think the same as you? I don't want things to go back the same as before.” she said, making Xie Ming look at her in surprise.

” Would you have said the same thing if my relationship would have been harmonious just like you and Liwei? No, right. You're just feeling guilty for being happy since you're doing fine with Liwei. But is that your fault? What Ji Cheng is going through, it must be more difficult and confusing than we can imagine.” she said, thinking about his pained expressions when he found out the truth.

She let out a breath before continuing, ” Before going into your body, my life was boring and there was no excitement in it. I used to party and spent my time shopping all the time, there was no ambition or goal that I wanted to achieve at that moment. After Grandfather's death, I was acting like a teeth kid going through puberty and was being rebellious to everyone, even those who cared for me. However, upon swapping bodies with you and going to that world, I realized that there are many things that I am good at. I realized my worth, I am meant to change the world and bring certain changes to history.” she said proudly.

She feels a different kind of worth solving the cases at harem and making changes to the policies while sitting at the court with Ji Cheng.

” Also, I got to meet Ji Cheng as well. That man…he made my heart flutter for the very first time in my life. I never felt the emotions that he made me feel. Although he treated me as you and those actions were not meant for me, despite that I still fell for him. I might hate this feeling of not being loved by him, knowing that he loves me thinking it was you, but I feel that loving someone is also a feeling that I needed to experience once. And because of this confusion, I got to experience that feeling. I don't hate that.” she said, making Xie Ming stare at her in surprise.