Chapter 401 (2/2)
”There's another way. You don't want to go anywhere these days. I've changed your prescription. I'll send it to you tomorrow. I'll take some medicine according to the prescription. How can I know it's useless if I don't try it?”
Shan Ning held his shoulder. ”Sometimes I can look at you everywhere, but sometimes I just want to kill you. Can't I do anything like that? Why do you just refuse to accept the reality? Of course I'm happy that you save me, but I don't want to live like this any more. Knowing that my life will be over, I'm forced to prolong it against heaven. It's hard for you and me
”You don't know what it's like to wake up from a thousand needles when you sleep well every night. You don't know that every time you have hemoptysis, you feel like you're being chopped up with a knife. What's more, you don't know how warm your hands and feet are in winter. Even if there are two or three braziers around you, you still feel like you're in an ice cellar, You don't know that every day I live I suffer. ”
His medical skills, his methods, and his prescriptions may make him live longer, but they can't relieve his symptoms, which have changed from the attack from time to time before to the daily suffering now. No one can bear it. Living in this way is more painful than dying.
Zhu GuanLiang had a moment of aphasia. He seldom lost control of his emotions. But now he looked at Shan Ning with tears in his eyes. ”Have you ever thought about my sister-in-law, and the winter solstice, which is still so small, you can't say anything. You haven't heard him call you dad.”
Speaking of the winter solstice, Shan Ning laughs, ”Lao Wu, if I'm gone, my precious son will be taken care of by you. My brother believes you. After I leave, don't let their orphans and widows be wronged. I don't want anything else. As long as they can live a safe life, I'll be satisfied.”
In the middle of the night, the great imperial concubine was awakened by a nightmare. When she woke up, she found that she was empty and her bed was cold. She was surprised. She quickly lifted the quilt and sat up. She was about to open her mouth to call someone. Shan Ning came back, and with a smile, she leaned over and held her in her arms. ”What's the matter? Have you had a nightmare? ”
The big imperial concubine tears rub wet his chest, ”I just dreamt... Dreamt that you left, you told me you were going to a far place, I asked you where to go, you didn't answer me, even head also don't return, winter solstice cry you also with didn't hear the same, the result I wake up you really not in, I'm afraid... I'm afraid that you really leave me.”
”I just got out of bed thirsty and drank water. Don't worry. My dreams are all against me. Where can I go? Dare I go? My wife and children are all at home. It's not rare for me to be an immortal. ”
”If you don't go, how can I live when you go? I can't live either. Let's just say all three of us are dead. ”
Shan Ning's in the heart a clap Deng, ”pure say silly words, son is still so small, you have the heart to let him die?”? Sleep, I'll stay with you and have a dream. ” Zhu GuanLiang came back at dawn. Zhou Leping didn't sleep all night. He opened the door to see that he had red eyes, but he didn't ask what was the matter. He had already fallen down and buried his head in her shoulder socket. Without saying a word, he quietly enjoyed this moment of peace of mind. In order to cater to his height, Zhou Leping stood on tiptoe. Finally, his feet were so sour that he couldn't stand any more. He patted him on the back and said, ”how can I come back? Is it cold outside? ” He came back early, but he didn't want to show her how miserable he was. He had been sitting in the yard all the time, and came into the room just before dawn“ I'll take a day off at home today. I think you look very pale. ”“ I'll just stay for a while, and you'll let me lean on it for a while Zhou Leping wanted to make him laugh. He patted his shoulder with justice. ”As long as you want, as long as you want, you can always rely on it.” He was silent. After a while, when he spoke again, his voice choked, ”big brother... It's not going to work.” Last night, after hearing her words, he hurried out of the door. He didn't have to think that he was going to find Shan Ning. He thought that there might be a turning point, but the result was the same as her diagnosis. Zhou Le paused and said in a low voice, ”are you crying?”