Chapter 98 - Missing You (1/2)
Though time moved faster in the mortal realm compared to the nine heavens, it hadn't been a long time in either realm since Qiu Ling entered the crown prince's palace. After returning to the nine heavens, he had taken one deep look at the familiar walls and entered irrespective of the protests from the heavenly guards.
And then, seeing Yi Zan and Xiang Yong there beside Jing He's bed, he had grown angry and kicked them out. No, he didn't want anyone but himself to be by his beloved's side.
Qiu Ling stood there next to the folding-screen behind the door. He wanted to go over but at the same time, he was afraid of taking the next step. He could see his beloved lying there on the bed, his white robe shimmering in the sunlight filtering through the windows, his ink-black hair spilling over the sheets.
He looked as lovely as always. It was just … He was lying too still. There was no motion, not even the slight rising and falling of his chest to indicate that he was still breathing and alive. If one didn't know that his soul was only temporarily in the mortal world and would return soon, one would certainly think he had passed on.
Even Qiu Ling who had been there when Jing He's soul left and had stayed at his mortal reincarnation's side couldn't help but worry, seeing him like this.
”Jing He …” He called out to him, his voice hoarse and nearly breaking at the last syllable.
Qiu Ling closed his eyes and gulped. Yes, he was afraid. Afraid of Jing He never coming back, afraid of losing the person he had irreversibly fallen in love with. He would never have admitted to that in front of Jing He but this fear had accompanied him since the day Jing He told him about the impending trial.
Qiu Ling opened his eyes and slowly took a step forward. It felt like his body was coated in lead, weighed down by a thousand worries. He only had one, though. He took the last steps and slowly sat down at Jing He's bedside.
”You know, I wouldn't mind giving up on my throne as long as it would enable me to be with you forever. Whatever it is I have to do to have you by my side, I'll do it. No questions asked. Since I met you, you've always been the most precious person to me, so first thing on my mind in any situation. I … I just love you so much. Jing He … Please come back soon. I can't take this much longer.” He took his lover's hand in his and caressed its back with his thumb.
”When you told me you would descend to the mortal world for one whole lifetime I was devastated. Being without you … Even one day is agonizing. A whole lifetime … Seriously, what were you thinking? Did you want to torture me? Did I do something wrong? Is that it?” He smiled at Jing He.
”I know, it is dumb to think like that. You're not that kind of person. You wouldn't want to see me like this. You just wanted to fulfill your father's expectations, I guess? Maybe I should have begged him to let you stay here. Or maybe not just that. Had I … Had I asked him … Do you think he would have agreed to let us marry?”
Qiu Ling sighed. ”You said to wait until you come back. But what if …” He closed his eyes again, bent down and laid his head on Jing He's body.