Chapter 159 - Doing Good Deeds (1/2)

Back in the Yun Zou sect, Zhong Jing Yi was pacing up and down in his room. He didn't feel much better than Qiu Ling. Somehow, he didn't feel good about being with him but he also didn't feel good about rejecting him. He felt like he was being torn apart and as if every decision he might make would be wrong.

If the god of love didn't tie the red thread for someone, it meant that this person wouldn't find true love for his whole mortal lifetime. When crown prince Jing He had asked him to do so he had thought that Qiu Ling would stay in the nine heavens with him, guarding his immortal body instead of following his soul into the human world to take part in his trial. Thus, he had thought that this step would enable him to save all those things one might encounter in a relationship for Qiu Ling and the time after his trial. He had wanted to save himself for the man he truly loved while also making sure that Qiu Ling wouldn't have to suffer.

In fact, asking the god of love for help had only been one of the steps he took to ensure that this would work. After all, just because he wouldn't end up with someone permanently in the mortal world it wasn't said that he wouldn't get together with someone temporarily.

Back then, he had fretted what to do about that. When his trial ended it would take some days but in the end, he would remember everything. He wouldn't have experienced it with his real body but he would still remember it. Wasn't that just the same? He didn't want that. He had wanted Qiu Ling to be the man he experienced all these things with regardless of which body it concerned. But he certainly never would have thought that the things he did for the man he loved would finally end up hurting exactly that person.

In the end, Jing He had made too sure that nothing would happen and thus, his mortal reincarnation Jing Yi was now fretting over what to do. On the one hand, his soul recognized Qiu Ling which made him feel attracted. He couldn't remember anything, though, so he couldn't understand those feelings. On the other hand, he subconsciously felt like he shouldn't get into a relationship. Marrying? That was out of the question.

He was like a moth that was drawn to the flame but, as soon as it came closer to the brilliant light it desired, it would also feel the burning heat and recoil. He wanted to get close but he couldn't.

Haunted by these feelings, Jing Yi couldn't find any peace. He really didn't know what to do. How much would he have loved to have someone to discuss this with! But who could he ask? Shao Hai didn't like Senior martial brother Qiu and Xiao Dong looked up to him. None of them would be able to give him good advice. He'd have to ask someone that was impartial and —

A knock sounded from the door and a voice Jing Yi had heard just two days prior came from the other side. ”Junior martial brother Zhong, I came to see you.”

Jing Yi stood up and hurriedly opened the door with a smile. ”Senior martial brother Qiguan, how nice of you to come by.” He really was happy to see this person. It wasn't just that Qiguan Cheng Da was from the same part of the empire as him, he also felt like this man was sensible. He would know what to do in such a situation! ”Please, come in!” He motioned into the room.

Qiguan Cheng Da smiled and entered. ”Junior martial brother, Zhong. It's been two days. How are you feeling?” He took a seat on Jing Yi's cue and smiled amicably.

Jing Yi sat down opposite him and sighed. ”I told him today.”

”Already?” Qiguan Cheng Da's eyes widened. Why was this damned boy this decisive? Couldn't he have waited a while more?! He hadn't managed to see that Grandmaster's disciple even once! How was he supposed to establish a relationship with him like that?

Jing Yi nodded. ”He came by this morning. I felt like … I shouldn't wait any longer. If he knows, then he can move on. That should be better.” He lowered his head and silently put a hand to his chest. Somehow, he missed him now. But hadn't he felt revolted when he was with him? He couldn't understand himself anymore!

Jing Yi looked up again, his gaze troubled. ”Senior martial brother Qiguan, I … I feel like I did the wrong thing. But then I … I also feel like I did not. What should I do?”

Qiguan Cheng Da nearly snorted. What, having second thoughts now? Or was that your plan all along? Rejecting him to make you look better in front of him? As if you weren't that easily available just because he has power? Don't make me laugh! Everyone would be able to figure that out!

”Well, it's natural to feel a little conflicted in such a situation. Why don't you tell me what exactly happened?”

Jing Yi nodded and recounted what had happened. Qiguan Cheng Da seemed thoughtful. ”Mn, I understand. Well, a big part of your problem should be that you actually took that Amethyst Lightning pill. It is something extremely valuable. If you want it, you definitely have to marry him.”

”No, I don't need it.”