Chapter 195 - It’s A Promise (1/2)

Qiu Ling was of half a mind to go over and sweep that person up into his arms. But before he could take a single step, he felt some wetness on his hand. He looked down and his mind went blank.

This … What was happening?

Somehow, he was greeted by his beloved's crying face. It really looked extremely pitiful. Big tears were rolling down his cheeks, his eyelashes trembled and his lower lip had actually started bleeding. He had obviously bitten down on it so as to not make a sound.

”My love!” Qiu Ling instantly let go of every notion of going over there. He wasn't dumb. That there might look like his beloved Jing He but it was still only an apparition his mind had conjured up based on the countless memories he had of him. It wasn't real. On the other hand, the boy next to him might not look like his Jing He but he still carried his soul. It was obvious what should have priority in this case!

Qiu Ling encircled Jing Yi in his arms but was unexpectedly met with resistance. Uh … What now?

”My love!”, he cooed once again and grabbed the back of Jing Yi's head. Ignoring that the boy obviously wanted to escape from his arms he bent down and lightly kissed his cheeks, taking those tears away. ”What are you crying for?”, he asked gently while trying to peer into Jing Yi's eyes.

Jing Yi averted his face, though. ”Why are you asking? Didn't you want to go over there?” He took a peek at Qiu Ling to see if he was looking over to that person again. Instead, he was met with the sight of Qiu Ling's eyes lighting up.

”Eh, my love, it couldn't be that you're jealous, could it?” Qiu Ling who had been panicking before because his beloved was crying in front of him suddenly experienced a mood swing. Ah, this was a great day! His beloved was actually jealous! This had to mean that he was very, very deeply in love with him! ”My love!” He hugged Jing Yi closer, laughing happily.

Jing Yi didn't know what to think anymore. His tears stopped, too, and he only trembled a bit. It couldn't be that … he had misunderstood? He looked over there. That person was still there talking with the person in front of him, smiling gently. He was still the only one that could really be seen.

Jing Yi hugged Qiu Ling back and burrowed his head into his shoulder. ”Who is he?”

Qiu Ling kissed his cheek. ”You don't have to worry about that.”

Jing Yi took his hands back at once and tried to shove Qiu Ling off. Naturally, he didn't budge. ”Qiu Ling!”

Qiu Ling sighed and cupped Jing Yi's cheeks. ”I'm sorry. I didn't want to make you cry. But … you really don't have to. I love you. I've said so before and I'll repeat it as long as you want to hear it and … maybe even a bit longer. I will always love you. From the moment I first saw you I knew that.” He gripped Jing Yi's hand and put it over his heart once again. It was beating madly. Of course, that had also to do with seeing Jing He again.

Honestly, he couldn't deny that he missed him. That seemingly perfect person that had only recently started to show cracks in front of him. Thinking back to it now, that was probably what had attracted him to Jing He in the first place. The two of them … they were equally fake.

They both put on that artificial smile when they left their rooms in the morning and only stopped with that when they were sure they were alone again. Jing He even managed to spew some niceties when people talked to him. But nobody knew just how much they were hurting inside. It probably needed someone like them to recognize it. And maybe it also needed someone like them to finally let go of that mask.

Not that he had managed to do that.