Chapter 322 - I Would Trade Them for Him (1/2)
Xin Lan lowered his head at Jin Ling's outburst. Yes. If he could turn back time, then he would certainly go back and change that part of the past. If he could just save that one person, then even dying in the process was worth it. His life had long been his master's. He certainly would have liked to give it to him. Unfortunately …
”His Majesty wouldn't have wanted me to do so.”
Jin Ling was pulled out of his thoughts and gave a snort. ”Wouldn't have wanted to? Did you ask? Maybe you should have done that instead of trying to guess what he might have thought.”
Xin Lan didn't respond. Naturally, he had done so. He had told him he would go and fight in his stead. He had asked him to send him out to fight in his stead. He had even knelt down and begged him when nothing else had worked. But his master hadn't budged until the end. He had gone to war himself and then … he had only been able to watch as he grew weaker and weaker in the following months.
Xin Lan closed his eyes. He had known from the beginning that this would be the result. Maybe if his master had had something worth living for, he would have decided differently. Maybe if the people he loved had still been at his side, he wouldn't have killed Jian Heng at the expense of his own life. Maybe he could still be alive.
But it was futile thinking like that. He couldn't turn back time. And even if he had managed to keep his master away from the fight back then, what would the result have been? He was sure he could have killed that damnable Jian Heng but just preserving his master's life probably wouldn't have been enough. Maybe it would have been worse.
As a man who had already lost everything, forcing him to live on for another year, another century, another millennium … wasn't that pure torture? He just wished he could have saved his soul so that he could be reincarnated.
Wouldn't it have been wonderful if he could start anew without anything from his tragic past life weighing him down? Maybe he could find his destined person again and hold onto him this time. They could marry and spend their whole life together. Who knew? They might even be able to have a child together.
He was sure his master would have liked that very much. But it was already too late. The only thing he could do was following through with what he had asked him to do. Fulfilling these last three wishes … He was already honored that he was the one who had been asked for that.
Xin Lan shook his head and looked up at Jin Ling again. ”Maybe I should have done that. But it's already too late now. As much as you regret, as much as I regret, nothing can be done about that, Your Highness. He is dead and his soul has dissipated. He won't come back ever again, he won't be reincarnated either. We have to accept that.”
”I won't.”
Xin Lan knitted his brows. ”You're still as obstinate as ever. You've seen how your father cut him with the soul-devouring dagger. You know what will happen after that. What more do you want?”