Chapter 352 - Prevent Him from Repeating the Same Mistake (1/2)

Zhangsun Xun Yi frowned. Although Jinde laughed the hurt inside his voice couldn't be missed. Why had that person driven him so far? ”If dragons can't fall in love again, then wouldn't it be in vain? Doesn't he understand that? Why did he still …?”

Jinde sighed and took the painting back. ”He's probably just as hopeless as I. You know Chun Yin … I've loved him for so long. I would have done everything for him and I always thought that he loved me back. I did the whole time. But, in fact, he only told me once that he did. And the day he told me … was the day he decided to stay with Qiu Ling's mother.” Jinde looked up, his expression blank.

All tears that could be shed about that day had already been shed back on that very same day and on so many days in the years after, that he spent alone. He had been hurt and he had felt betrayed but …

”To this day I still love him. I still wait for him to come back to me. Isn't that … madness?”

The one he loved, the one he had only been able to call his lover for a few precious hours, that person had already died. Even he himself had nearly died and the only reason he held on, the only reason he injured his own soul to this extent had been because he didn't want to lose those memories they had made. He wanted to preserve them so that he could share them with Chun Yin when he came back.

All that without any insurance that this time would be different.

Granted, they probably would have been together if not for Jian Heng. If he hadn't schemed against them from the time they started to compete for the dragon realm's throne, then all this probably would have never happened. Now Jian Heng was dead.

Unfortunately, there was still Jin Ling around. With his feelings, he would never allow them to be happy with each other if he ever found out that he was still alive. The fact that he still tried to interfere with Qiu Ling's life made that obvious.

So … Why was he still sitting here and hoping? Wasn't it because he was just as madly in love as Jin Ling? He really was the last person who could fault him.

Zhangsun Xun Yi lowered his head. He really didn't know what to say anymore. He had known the gist of what happened that made Jinde come to the human realm but as for the details … He had stayed oblivious and if he could, he would want to keep it that way. Unfortunately, it was too late for that. He couldn't go back to knowing nothing.

”If dragons fall in love only once, then it isn't your fault. It's what your nature dictates.”

”Other dragons would kill their other half if he dared to betray them. Maybe I should have done that. Kill that woman who dared to bind him. Maybe kill him, too. And then I could have followed suit. All these things … would have never happened.

There wouldn't be any Qiu Ling who could cause chaos everywhere. Jin Ling … wouldn't have needed to suffer like that. I … I wouldn't need to wait for Chun Yin day after day. Everything … would have just ended.”

He reached up and touched his chest. Somehow it felt less bearable right now. The pain he had thought he had left behind long ago caught up with him and it seemed even worse. Why? Why had they been cursed like this? Why had fate played with them like that?

”I loved him. I always did. I still do. But there wasn't even a whole day for us. Sometimes I feel that we're even more pitiful than Jin Ling. At least he knew from the beginning that there was no chance it could ever come true.”