Chapter 381 - What Should Be His Will Be His (1/2)
The memory diffused as if he had reached the end. Jing Yi surfaced from the ruminant state he had been in and blinked his eyes. He had seen so many things, he didn't even know where to start with processing them.
The worst thing was that these memories didn't seem to follow the course of his previous life. The things he had seen earlier, outside of his inner self seemed to have happened long after the things he had witnessed just now. After all, they had already been lovers in those early memories while this just now had obviously been from a time when nothing was certain yet between them.
The only thing Jing Yi knew with certainty was: Jing He had loved that Tian very, very much. Not just seeing him, even thinking about him had made his heart beat faster. It really was a pity that their circumstances had been so bad. Well, if he was honest, he still didn't really understand what about them had been bad.
Sure, his father had been against it and they had been from different races but was that really so bad? He and Qiu Ling were also from different races but he hadn't really cared when he found out. In fact, the only thing that bothered him about Qiu Ling being a dragon was that Qiu Ling would lose someone important to him again if he didn't manage to become immortal. Everything else could certainly be overcome somehow.
Well, he didn't have to live with being cursed though, so maybe that was actually the main reason.
Speaking of that … He didn't really understand what that curse had been either. Was it having some kind of bad luck? Something where when he was careless he'd die? But how would he know that that was a curse and not things that just happened like that? After all, everyone had bad luck sometimes. Was it different for gods?
In the end, even though he had remembered quite a bit he still couldn't understand anything. There were just too many things he didn't know. He instead started to understand what Yu Jin had meant when he said that only half a Fractured Crystal Leaf wouldn't be useful to him. It was true that one couldn't find out everything from only half the memories. One would really need all memories to understand everything.
Jing Yi couldn't change anything about only having found a damaged Fractured Crystal Leaf though. He had to live with it even though he was actually curious about the life of his previous self by now. The only thing he could do was to continue searching for the other memories he'd be able to acquire.
Thus Jing Yi started to walk down the road. It seemed that with every memory he acquired, the places in his inner self would expand. He could see more of the roads and the buildings around him by now and even though they weren't as familiar as the places where he had lived in this life, he still felt that he knew them.
He just randomly walked around and finally found himself in front of another palace when a memory once again raised its head. Jing Yi withdrew into a ruminant state again and left the apparition of his body inside his inner self to the past Jing He.
The guards at the gates bowed in front of him. ”Your Highness.”
Jing He nodded, the same gentle smile on his lips that he always showed. ”Please inform the god of love, Yue Xia, that I've come to discuss some matters with him.”
”As you wish.” One of the guards hurried toward the palace while the other led Jing He into a hall. ”Is there anything else I might do for Your Highness?”
Jing He shook his head. ”Thank you very much for your effort but I'll just wait here for the God of Love. You can go back to your post.”
The guard bowed again and stepped outside, not turning his back until he had backed up a few steps.
Not long afterward, an old man appeared. He sported a head full of white hair, an equally white beard, and a wrinkled face but the smile on his lips was so genuine that Jing He instantly felt drawn to him. This God of Love was probably the person that came closest to representing what he imagined a kind grandparent to be like. Unfortunately, he wasn't close to him.