Chapter 490 - My Husband, I’ll Be Yours Forever (1/2)

Jinde pulled at his lapel to try and get some more air. He had really been along for too long to take that kind of gaze from his lover.

Leng Jin Yu hurriedly looked away when he saw Jinde move but he couldn't help but notice how dry his throat had gotten. He shouldn't only have put a cup of tea beside Jinde. He should have gotten one for himself too. If he went now to fetch one, it would really be too obvious.

He cleared his throat and tried to get back to the topic. ”Well, the humans are … I don't know how to describe it. A lot of them are very pragmatic about relationships. It is something expected of them and something that is beneficial to their families. Naturally, they would want to marry someone they love if possible but that depends on their ability to find that person and some unions might indeed be deemed impossible.”

Jinde's gaze clouded over and the heat cooled quite a bit. ”You wouldn't want to say that it is impossible between us, would you?”

Leng Jin Yu shook his head, his hands also stilling. ”No. Definitely not. I don't know, I was probably too indecisive in regard to you. I didn't make my feelings as obvious as I should have.”

”Then what are your feelings?” Jinde straightened up, his gaze never leaving Leng Jin Yu's face. The answer to this question might very well decide over how they would proceed. Or maybe if they would proceed at all.

Leng Jin Yu looked back at him. How could he clad those feelings in words? ”I desire you.”

Jinde smiled. Should he congratulate himself that his plan to seduce his lover had worked out or should he hate himself for failing to induce more than just desire? Before he could answer Leng Jin Yu already continued.

”I desire your body, your touch, your company. I crave to see you and to hear your voice. From the moment I saw you, I was hardly able to think of anything else. Sitting here and looking at you is more difficult than I could ever have imagined. My throat is dry and my eyes can't help to return to your body while my heart beats madly. I think … I think I'm in love with you.”

Jinde's lips curved into a sweet smile. ”I love you too.”

Leng Jin Yu smiled back. ”I think you've already confessed to that earlier than I did. Jinde, I can see what you're trying to do. It's not that I … don't want you. Or that I'm not willing to spend a night with you. It's just that among humans just spending a night would be frowned upon. I think in this case it would be expected to get to know each other better and then … marry.”

Jinde continued to smile. ”So you want to marry me?”

Leng Jin Yu didn't answer immediately. He looked at the scroll of paper and picked up the brush again, adding details to the lines depicting Jinde's legs. ”I think I do.”

Silence engulfed them for a while before Jinde sighed. ”Why do I always hear you say you think? Aren't you sure?”