Chapter 500 - Dragons Can Be Simple-Minded (1/2)
Jinde sighed when the door fell shut and let go of Leng Jin Yu's arm.
”You're still mad at me?”
Jinde chuckled. ”Of course not. How old do you think I am?” He smiled but it was still a little strained.
Leng Jin Yu reached over and cupped his cheek. ”I'm sorry. Even though I can explain, that wasn't something that should have happened in the first place. You already told me that there were such problems in the past and I … still let it happen just like that.”
Jinde reached up and covered Leng Jin Yu's hand with his own. ”It's alright. Actually, it might have been a good thing. What you just said made me realize that I shouldn't take things for granted.”
”What are you even saying?” Leng Jin Yu slid closer and wrapped Jinde up in his arms. ”You can take me for granted.”
Jinde chuckled again and snuggled up against his chest. ”You know … That's something very nice you said there. Unfortunately, it's not true. I … should probably tell you what exactly happened back then.”
”You don't have to.”
”But that is what you meant, right? You can't just plunge into this relationship if you don't know what happened back then. You'll upset me with things you can't understand and I'll be angry even though I don't have the right to. Because it's my fault. If I don't tell you, how can I expect you to know?”
”It's your life. And … I guess it's a part of your life that will hurt you very much when you remember it. I don't want to force you to tell me.”
Jinde looked up and gently stroked Leng Jin Yu's cheek. ”It does hurt. Every moment I remember of it hurts me. Especially since I know that Chun Yin will never come back. But I knew that long ago and it's not like I wouldn't remember it if I don't tell you about it. Quite the contrary. I just can't help but think of the time back then. So rather than keeping silent about it, I think it's better to tell you outright. If I do, we can take a step forward too. Isn't that enough of a compensation? And maybe starting over with you will make the things from back then hurt less.”
”Mn. Maybe you're right. And I would like to hear about it. I can't deny that.”
”Then I'll tell you.” Jinde took a deep breath and turned to look out of the window. We were still children when we met for the first time. You were about to become the disciple of our king. In fact, the ceremony had already been held so I guess it would be more accurate to say you already were his disciple. My mother had heard that he was taking somebody in and even though she knew that you were supposed to be his only disciple, she still dragged me over there and knelt down to beg him to take me in.”
”I hope I didn't make trouble.”
Jinde laughed and turned back to him. ”No. Quite the contrary. The king wasn't sure if he should really take me in. On the one hand, he had only wanted to take one disciple. On the other hand, it hadn't been long since my father died while protecting him. I guess he felt a little guilty. His decision depended on you to a large degree.”