Chapter 514 - You Deserve Such a Person (1/2)

Qiu Ling held Jing Yi and continued to stroke his head. Ah, he had just wanted to let him realize that he and that so-called 'Tian' were one and the same person. He hadn't wanted to make him miserable! Maybe he should just tell him, after all?

”Jing'er …”

”I'm sorry.” Jing Yi once again said the words he himself felt to be lacking and pulled back. ”You don't have to follow me for this mission. I can do it alone.”

Qiu Ling shook his head. ”I might not need to but I want to. Jing'er … You said to that senior martial brother Yu that you would continue to love him even though you knew you couldn't be with him. I'm the same. Even though you already love somebody else, that won't change the fact that I love you. I won't stop loving you. And for the person I love … I should do whatever I can to make them happy.”

”But —”

”No.” Qiu Ling put a finger up against Jing Yi's lips. ”You expect him to accept that you love him but won't go after him so you also have to accept that I love you if I don't bother you because of that. And following you, helping you … That is because I love you but I believe that it isn't asking too much. So please just let me do this.”

Jing Yi didn't know what to say in front of such a Qiu Ling. If he had still sounded as shameless as always, he wouldn't have minded too much. But this kind of serious person couldn't be rejected as easily. ”You shouldn't force yourself.”

”I'm not. I want to do this. You know if I returned to the dragon realm, I would always wonder how you are. I would torment myself with all kind of ideas what could happen to you while you're out here alone. That would be way worse. Like this, I can stay with you and make sure that you're alright. I prefer that. So please.”

Jing Yi finally nodded. ”Then … Then, of course, you can.” He had to lower his head while he said so though. He couldn't look into his eyes. Deep down he was happy that Qiu Ling would be with him but that little bit of happiness was overlaid with a deep feeling of shame.

Why did he still cling to Qiu Ling? Why couldn't he let him go? He already knew about Tian now. He shouldn't be so shameless as to still desire the company of one man while he had already decided on the other. That wasn't right. No, it was utterly wrong.

Qiu Ling could see that Jing Yi wasn't feeling too well but he didn't know what to do. ”Would you … like to take a break? You're a little pale.”

Jing Yi looked up and smiled another teary smile. He was still so good to him … ”Qiu Ling.”

”Mn?”