Chapter 779 - A Different Kind of Beauty (1/2)

Qiu Ling didn't answer immediately. Even if he wanted to blurt out an answer to reassure Jing Yi, he didn't know how. He couldn't say that he didn't want Jing He back. After all, Jing He would remember everything after he woke up. Even though it would be a long time until then, he couldn't risk making him miserable by then. At the same time, he couldn't say that he wanted him back either. Because if he did, that would be the same as telling Jing Yi to go and die.

It was the same problem that had already troubled him since the day he found out what Jing Yi's ascension would mean for Jing He. Just that now, it was even more troublesome because one of the two people was in front of him.

Jing Yi sighed when he didn't get an answer. ”It's alright. I understand. He is … the real 'me'. It's understandable that you'd rather have him back.”

Qiu Ling pressed his eyes shut and shook his head. ”That's not it.”

Jing Yi looked at his expression and forced himself to smile. ”It's really alright, Qiu Ling. You don't have to explain. I … I can take it.”

Qiu Ling once again shook his head and then opened his eyes to look into the distance. ”That's really not it. I … I don't know myself. That's the problem. I don't know what to do.”

Jing Yi also turned away. What was he supposed to say to this? ”Is there anything I can do?” Like making you fall in love with only me? He smiled self-deprecatingly at that thought. He had made so much trouble for Qiu Ling since the day they had met. What gave him the right to try and monopolize his feelings now? Especially … since the person he wanted to win against was himself. Ah, this situation was a mess.

Qiu Ling sighed. ”No, you … You shouldn't do anything. This is your life. Regardless of what happens to Jing He, you should live it the way you want it to be.”

”And you're alright with that? You wouldn't regret it? I mean … I'm not just a normal human anymore. I've cultivated to the third stage so I … won't age and die. That essentially means that Jing He …”

Qiu Ling sighed again. ”I know. But what do you want me to do? I couldn't kill you. I couldn't watch how anybody else does either. I just …” He took a shaky breath. ”You might not believe me but I love you. More than anything else.”

”Because of Jing He?”

Qiu Ling looked over and his gaze flickered. ”I don't know how to answer that. Without Jing He … there wouldn't be you. And even if he had reincarnated before I met him … I almost never went to the human realm. It's unlikely we would have even met if not for me falling in love with him.”

”So I guess without him there wouldn't be us?”

”Yes. Also …” Qiu Ling's expression turned even more complex. ”As much as I want to keep these things separate, the two of you are the same person to me. Dragons … are different in that regard. We are bound to the other person's soul. Jing He … he already carried a part of my soul and when his soul descended for the trial, that part of my soul was also taken with it. So you as well …”