Chapter 1159 - I Can’t Change Who I Am (1/2)

Xin Lan kept quiet for a moment, picked up the flask of wine, and took another sip. ”There's something you don't know. Something that … will change your perspective on things I'm afraid.”

Hua Lin Yu looked at him with curiosity, not really feeling any unease. He was sure that no matter what Xin Lan said, it wouldn't change his feelings for him. He had loved this man for so long, naturally, it would stay like this. Thus, he wasn't worried at all.

Xin Lan put the flask down again, quietly turning it between his fingers. ”This is something that no one of the dragon race will tell you about lightly. Maybe I shouldn't either but I guess if I don't, there won't be a chance to make you understand.”

He looked down, his brows furrowing tightly. He hadn't really talked about this. Even with Jinde, it had never really come up. Maybe it was that he didn't want to seem vulnerable in front of the person he loved. But anyway, it was strange to finally give voice to these thoughts. ”I told you and your family that the dragons are a monogamous race. It's the truth. They really are. It isn't quite a choice of their own though.”

Hua Lin Yu gave him a confused look. He didn't dare to say anything though in fear of disturbing Xin Lan. The expression he currently wore … it suggested that this was something very important.

Xin Lan narrowed his eyes and looked out of the pavilion, glancing toward the sky. ”Once upon a time, the dragon race did something they shouldn't have. They managed to upset the one that rules over all realms. In fact, they managed to piss him off so much that he decided to curse all of them.”

Hua Lin Yu's eyes widened when he realized where this was going. He had to bight down on his lower lip to keep himself from saying anything.

Xin Lan let go of the jar of wine and instead folded his hands in his lap, shaking his head. ”They were cursed to be able to only fall in love once in their life. It didn't matter what the circ.u.mstances were.

”If the person you loved died, then you would be left with a lifetime of regret. If you fell in love with somebody but they didn't love you back, then, well, that sucked for you but it wouldn't change a thing. If two people fell in love with the same person, they could only try to fight it out and hope that the winner would actually manage to gain the other person's heart in turn.

”There's never a guarantee. There were a lot of tragic love stories in our race I guess. And even for those who found their matches, life wasn't always happy either. They normally never outlive each other for long. You could probably call that romantic but if you ask me, it's just sad.”

Hua Lin Yu looked at him, a faint feeling of dread in his heart. Something told him that Xin Lan was not part of this curse. The way he spoke about it … it was like telling the story about others, not himself.

He looked down, his own brows furrowing for a moment before he managed to smooth out his expression. He didn't want to give Xin Lan any pressure. He wanted to know the truth. So he could only let him talk freely.