Chapter 1201 - He Wouldn’t Be Able to Forgive Himself (1/2)

Tears gathered in Hua Lin Yu's eyes as soon as he heard those words. ”Xin Lan!” He sat up and then wrapped his arms around his neck, sobbing silently. Even if he could love this man how he loved Bai Mu, he still felt fondly for him. If he could, he would've liked to split his heart in two, giving one part to Bai Mu and the other half to Xin Lan. That way, he wouldn't leave this person that had treated him so well with nothing. Unfortunately, he couldn't do that. Even if he wanted to, he would only destroy himself.

Xin Lan wasn't quite sure what to make of that reaction but he hugged Hua Lin Yu back, taking a deep breath before slowly exhaling. ”It's alright. No need to cry. You're still young. I can't expect you to know exactly what you want even if you were sure before.

”In any case, didn't I tell you before that you could always change your mind? If you do, it's alright. Just tell me when it happens.” He turned his head and kissed his cheek, his lips lingering on Hua Lin Yu's skin for a moment longer. ”I still believe that, in the end, the two of us will be together. But it's up to you. So take the time that you need.”

Hua Lin Yu nodded even though he didn't think that he would be able to change his feelings. In any case, he felt that this was fate at work. He didn't know why but it seemed like this between Bai Mu and him was something more. How could he just ignore that feeling? Even if it couldn't lead anywhere, he couldn't pretend that it wasn't there. He just couldn't.

Xin Lan just held him for a while, gently stroking his back to soothe him. It was only after quite some time that he finally spoke up again. ”I spoke to your brother and he suggested we should probably still return to the human realm. It's not that I want to force you to marry me. Don't worry about that.” He pulled back slightly so he could look into Hua Lin Yu's face and then cupped his cheek. ”It's more that … he felt that maybe you would feel like you're too dependent on me if we stay here.

”I will leave it up to you. If you say that you would like to stay in the dragon realm, then I won't say no. You can also rest assured that I won't demand anything just because of that. I invited you here. Why would I take advantage of that? It definitely wouldn't help our relationship if I did that. So you don't have to worry.

”But if you would feel better in the human realm then I will definitely be there to support that as well and follow you there. So, what do you think? If you can't answer right now, that is also alright. You can take a few days to think it over.”

Hua Lin Yu felt a bit of panic rising in him when returning to the mortal realm was brought up again. If he went back, he wouldn't be able to see Bai Mu again. Naturally, that pained him. But on the other hand, if he didn't see Bai Mu any longer, maybe he could regain the feelings he had originally had for Xin Lan. If there was no comparison, then it wouldn't be so bad, right?

He reached up and clung to Xin Lan's robe, giving a faint smile. ”Actually, I think that might be a good idea. Yes, let's return. We don't have to go back to my family immediately. Maybe … maybe let's just visit them for a bit and then go and travel around for a bit. In any case, wasn't that what we originally wanted to do? Just travel around a bit? We've been at the same place for so long. I guess we missed our objective a bit.”

Xin Lan nodded. ”Very well. That is what we'll be doing then.” He leaned forward and kissed his cheek, brushing back his hair. ”When do you want to leave?”

Hua Lin Yu bit his lower lip. Needless to say, he would like to push it off for as long as possible. But then, what would the use be in that? It wouldn't change anything about his situation. So, it was better to take care of it as soon as possible.