Chapter 1204 - Nothing I Can Change (1/2)

Chun Yin nodded as well, picked up Leng Jin Yu's robe, and put it on. ”Alright. What do you want to know first?”

”Why her? Why did you decide on her in the end even though you knew that I would have taken you back?”

Chun Yin's lips twitched. ”You really like to go for the difficult ones first, don't you?”

Jinde couldn't help but laugh. This was such a typical thing to say for Chun Yin. ”Is it really that much more difficult to answer than the others?”

Chun Yin gazed at him and finally shook his head. ”I guess everything is right now. As for the answer to this question …” He fell quiet for a moment and then sighed. ”I guess I felt like I had to because of Qiu Ling. If not for him …”

Jinde closed his eyes again, his brows drawing together in obvious pain. ”You're basically repeating what you told me back then. It's even starting to be the same words.”

”I'm sorry.” He kept quiet for a moment, trying to think of something else to say. ”I mean it. I'm sorry. For what I said just now, for what I said back then, for … what I did. For everything. I was wrong.”

”Of course, you were wrong! You should have known that I would have raised that child with you without complaining, without loving him any less than if he had been my own son. So why?”

”It seemed wrong of me to get a woman pregnant and then take her child from her. It … might have reminded me of my own parents.”

Jinde looked up at the ceiling. To be honest, he hadn't known Chun Yin's parents well. Well, he hadn't even known his own parents well. From the bit that he remembered though … he had liked both of them. One was a strong general that led the dragons into battle, never shying back no matter how strong the other side was and the other had been much more gentle, a caring person who could soothe anyone with just a few words. ”I'm afraid I don't understand.” He could see no connection at all. It actually made him wonder if Chun Yin was saying the truth. Then again, what reason would he have to lie at this point in time? In fact, even if he lied now, Leng Jin Yu would just tell him the truth later on. Pretending made no sense at all.

Chun Yin didn't seem to mind to explain further. ”You don't know about this but Lin Cai was not my actual mother.”