Chapter 1212 - Was It Worth Something? (1/2)
Chun Yin looked at Qiu Ling, his mood complicated. This was his son. But just like with Jinde before, he didn't really know what to say after the first few remarks. He would've liked to ask more about his life but he was afraid that there wasn't enough time. In the end, he could only sigh. ”Is there something you want to know?”
Qiu Ling raised his brows at him, not quite sure what he meant. ”About what?”
Chun Yin shrugged his shoulders. ”Anything. The time back then, my family, whatever else you want to know. There isn't much time but I'll try to answer whatever I can.”
Qiu Ling put on a pensive expression but finally shook his head. ”I think I have actually understood more or less what happened back then. Now that I'm with Jing He, I think I can also understand a lot. As for your family … I admit I would've been curious back then but it doesn't matter, does it? I'm pretty sure everyone is already dead. I am the only one that is still alive.”
Chun Yin stared at him but finally couldn't help but nod. ”That's true. I'm pretty sure my family would have loved being able to meet you. You were exactly the type of child that my mothers liked.”
Qiu Ling scoffed at that. ”You know, you could be telling me anything. It's not like I can go and verify it. In any case, it's alright. Even if you feel regretful, you don't have to try and make it up to me. I'm not a child anymore.
”Back then, I probably would've given a lot to hear this kind of thing. Especially in the time immediately after your death. It would have given me a lot. But now … everything has changed already. I'm not that youth anymore that is hiding away or traveling around aimlessly to evade others and find some place where I belong.
”I am the dragon king. I have a lover now and a place I can call my own. Not everything is great even with that but I'm not the same anymore. And I think especially after the ten years that I spent with Jing He, I really am different. Jing He's trial is actually helping as well. Nothing you are able to say to me in a few hours will change more than that has.”
Chun Yin could only smile wryly. ”I guess there's nothing I can do as a father.”
Qiu Ling stared at him, feeling that while Chun Yin definitely wanted to help him, this was at least in part also about helping himself. He had probably died with a lot of regrets. Now, he wished to make up for that. Giving him the opportunity to do so would probably help him to make this second passing easier for him.
Pondering for a moment, Qiu Ling felt a sense of determination. While he had to admit that his favorite parent probably had been the one who wasn't actually related to him, namely Jinde, his relationship with his father hadn't been that bad. In fact, even in the time after they left the capital city, he knew that his father had always tried hard.