Volume II Part 14 (1/2)
”Ito travel”
”To travel--going ahere--ith?” I was stupid
”He told us all so the other day,--just before you returned, Carl He went through all the class-roo-room with Spoda and two or three others He spoke to Spoda, 'Have you any co unexpectedly, or ould have had a concert first; but noe must wait until May for our concert' Spoda behaved very well and exhibited no surprise, only showered forth his _confetti_ speeches about parting Then the Chevalier bowed to us ere there and said, 'My heart will be half here, and I shall hope to find Cecilia upon the self-sahed; but otherwise he looked exceedingly happy And who, do you think, is going with hiine”
”No; old Aronach, and your little friend,--who, Carl, I suspect, makes a sort of chevalier of you, from what I hear”
”Yes; he is very fond ofto be married?”
She smiled with her own peculiar expression,--ard, yet war of the kind, I am sure I cannot fancy the Chevalier in love even It seems most absurd”
”I do not think that; he is too lovable not to be loved”
”And that is just why he never will love--toelse and pleased himself in every manner”
”Maria, how do you know? And do you think he willhe will not do; and yet he will be happy, very happy,--only not as he expects I am certain the Chevalier thinks he should find as much in love as in music,--for hi to him in comparison”
I could scarcely contain myself, I so sincerely felt that she was mistaken But I seriously resolved to humor her, lest I should say too much, or she should say too little
”Oh, of course! But I don't think he would _expect_ to find more in love, because he kno he is loved”
”Not _how_, Carl, only how much”
”But, Maria, I fancy he wants as much love as music; and that is plenty”
”But, Carl, he makes the music, and we love him in it, just as we love God in His works; and I cannot conceive of any love being acceptable to hiht as supreme”
”You mean that he is proud”
”So proud that if love came to him without music, I don't think he would take any notice of it”
I felt as surely as she did, sure of that singular pride, but also that it was not a fallen pride, and that she could read it not
”Yousuch a thing to be possible,--he would not like us nor treat us as he does now?”
”I knoould not”
”But then it would be ied as to music, and we could not love as we do”
”I don't think that has anything to do with it, and indeed I am sure not You see, Carl, you make me speak to you openly I have never done so before, and I should not, but that you force me to it,--not that I dislike to speak of it, for I think of nothing else,--but that it ht be troublesome”
Could it be that she was about, in any sense, to open her heart? Mine felt as if it had collapsed, and would never expand again; but I was very rejoiced, for many reasons