Chapter 1152 (1/2)
”After only one night's thinking, you are ready to lose me. If I have only such a little weight in your heart, should I beat you to death?”
I don't know whether sister tiger's words are right or wrong, whether I should cheat her or confess to her, whether I just didn't cheat or confess, whether I was afraid of losing her, I just know, now, I'm afraid I will lose her! ... cm
my head is now a pool of muddy water, full of big whirlpools, I think a lot of things, but all the thinking has no direction, chaotic mess, but I just don't want to let myself even have a little calm, but just want to think more, disperse the Jing power that may be put into thinking about something, as a result, I don't know me What on earth I am thinking about...
I have never been so flustered as I am now. I am the kind of person who can cope with the falling of the sky. This is really a great compliment to me. My feeling now is that the sky is falling. However, I am not even an ant on a hot pot. I am more like an ostrich eager to plunge its head into the earth and think about everything I hate my ass, but I hate my head even more, because it can't be as thoughtless as my ass...
I hold the hope that I all think is slim and ask: ”now? Will I lose you? ”
If I don't answer in the winter night, my heart will fall to the ground like a shock. It seems that I've cracked like ice. My hands and feet are cold and almost unconscious. They spread to my whole body. I don't know what took away my strength. But I know that I'm like a paralyzed person, leaning on the bed and falling under the bed at any time. I can't move, and I don't want to move , almost naked at the door of the bathroom in winter night, with arms in both hands, looking at me disappointed, it seems that I feel the same cold.
Yes, she is colder than me. I make her feel cold.
Look at how ridiculous my question is, it's 100 times more ridiculous than I want my ass to know how to think. I smile, maybe I smile. I can't feel my expression at all. I'm going to lose the fact of winter night. It makes all the parts inside and outside my body freeze. I'm dead. Only my heart is still beating. It's too fast. It's too painful I feel that I have reached the edge of suffocation and fainting, but I can't get rid of it all the time. It feels like a punishment...
I haven't lost my love. I just think I've lost my love. Now I understand that no matter what happened in Ziyuan in those years, or what happened after Murphy cheated me, it can't be regarded as a loss of love. It's over before it started, even love Can not be called, have not owned, talk about how to lose? That's why I understand what it's like to lose love...
pain - it's the expression on the face and the lines hanging in the mouth that are often painted by the leading men and women in love soap operas. The opposite angle se of love field frustration always likes to use this word as an excuse for their love, hate, jealousy, face killing, unscrupulous means, or even killing people. It's not for that My excuse is to show my sadness. I used to be so disdainful that I thought those stories were just for the plot, without love and hatred. Where did they come from? And the story is nothing more than a glorification or a vilification of reality, which is exaggerated to be divorced from the reality, that is the product of the real fantasy... I know that lovelorn will be painful, and I know that some of the pain will be unbearable, but lovelorn is not in this category, it is the so-called where there is no grass, why single love a flower, without this tree, and the whole forest Lin... I think that the man who becomes that virtue because of a lovelorn is only in the story. I didn't expect that he really exists in the reality. Instead, I thought that after breaking up, I should send blessings and turn around with a smile and leave a back free and easy. It's more like a fictional story. At least I know that I'm not such a handsome man, the original dog blood The emotional drama in the play is not all bullshit, and the naive is not sitting in front of the TV with a snivel and a tear, but I don't understand why she was moved. I think I know love very well, so I don't know anything...
pain is pain, pain is feeling, pain is taste, lovelorn people, only this feeling, this taste.