Chapter 190: Fight with Oneself (2) (1/2)

Chapter 190: Fight with Oneself (2)

As the number of attempts increased, the fights started to vary.

Little by little, I started to understand the existence of ‘I.’

‘As the fight goes on, he starts to resemble me more. On the contrary, I am...’

At first, it was different. As the fights were repeated, it started becoming more equal.

No, I was moving further away. That guy was now chasing after me.

'I am becoming like him.’

I clicked my tongue.

Then I received a little enlightenment. I realized that it didn’t just apply to the clone.

And finally, it was the 100th try.

I went back to the beginning.

Who was whose clone?

Now I couldn’t differentiate myself from him.

I was become more complete, while he was becoming incomplete.

And...I was becoming increasingly apathetic. Or was I becoming dried out?

I had cold eyes. I showed off neat movements.

It was like a machine.

That guy was no longer my opponent. He was becoming increasingly weaker while I was getting stronger.

However, there was an emptiness inside me.

In this situation, even my blood was cold as I fought.

I suddenly had the thought that ‘this isn’t the type of completion that I want.’

I was getting stronger, but I didn’t want to be complete if I wasn’t myself.

'I am going to laugh loudly when I become the devil.’

That was my wish. My dream. It was my wish to sit there and laugh loudly, not just sit down.

That laugh would mock everyone who tried to take it away from me. But...if I was apathetic then I wouldn’t be able to feel anything when I became the devil.

‘It can’t be.’

In order to be complete, did I have to discard the incomplete parts?

If so, I wouldn’t become complete. I had gone through many trials and errors even when incomplete. However...this sudden change was like laughing at my efforts.

It was like I was denying my dream.

I was very satisfied with my arrogance and high self-esteem. Yet it was dismissed as a weakness.

I’ll accept it.

It wasn’t funny.

‘I don’t like this.’

A small change.

I would turn it backwards.

It was literally a fight with myself.

It took a great deal of mental effort to recover my original mindset.

-Agility has dropped by one

My stats dropped. After replenishing the missing parts, my stats returned to their original state. But I didn’t mind. This type of completion wasn’t the direction that I wanted.

It might be slow but I would succeed in my own way...

Then the eyes of the clone changed.

“Stupid person. You can’t throw it away. Did you come all this way to completion only to kick it away?”

His words were rough but his eyes were different.

Surprise. He was surprised by me.

His eyes were asking how this was possible.

I already understood him because I was being assimilated with him.

“Throwing this away?”

I laughed. The things I gained from reaching completion. I was abandoning them now.

Then the clone grinded his teeth together.

”Choosing imperfection! Foolish and stupid!”

“Don't make me laugh. Aren’t you the one who wants this foolishness?”

I laughed as I stared at him.

He was different every time we fought and changed little by little. And those changes were sometimes familiar. I couldn’t help noticing because they were elements taken from me.

At first it was nothing, however that changed once dozens of things were taken.

I could see it just by looking at his various expressions.

”Don’t you want completion? Completeness begins with discarding the imperfections! Don’t you want to become stronger?”

He asked with a distressed expression.

”I want to become stronger. However, I don’t think of myself as incomplete.”

The things he took from me. I didn’t think of them as my weaknesses. My clone had other thoughts... so I was different from him.

Then he started running wild.

”Incomplete! You won’t win over me!”

”I don’t think of myself as incomplete.”

Right now I was a little bit relaxed. Once I saw how wild he was, it seemed like I was going in the right direction.

”Incompleteness, what if you aren’t incomplete? You won’t be able to become the devil!”

”It is a stalemate. Our standards are different.”

I raised Wrath and the Emperor’s Sword.

That person yelled out.

“Never! You can never beat me unless you are complete!”

”You are my weakness.”

Unlike my clone, I was confident.

I took a deep breath.

And I put down Wrath and the Emperor’s Sword.

”What are you doing?”

”I won’t sell my soul to become stronger. And...”

There was a mocking smile on my face.

“I won’t tolerate anything of mine existing somewhere else. Come back.”

He and I were different. We would never be the same. However, there were similarities. I finally realized the reason. He was a part of me that had been split off.

Deep into the mind, the part that I thought was ‘weak’ had become independent. I didn’t understand myself so it showed my narrow-mindedness.

The eyes of that guy with the same face shook violently.

“Drop it. This is the fastest route to completion. Don’t you know it yourself? Haven’t you realized the truth after facing the gods and going back in time? You clearly knew. There was such detail in the truth they told you. Then why...?”

”Why am I doing this?”

“Yes. Why? You heart is being cleansed. Yet you are still hesitating?”

My hidden side. That’s what I called my clone. I shook my head.

“The gods didn’t ask me to become complete. After all, they admitted that they were incomplete. Of course, even without such complicated content, there is no way that I will follow the path someone else took.”

I would carve out my own path.

The memories of my past life were only the foundation and I would walk a new path. It wasn’t always right but I would somehow run towards the end.

Perhaps I might have hesitated if my path was wrong.

But now it was different.

“You will surely regret this. I was barely able to separate from you...once you acknowledge it, this can no longer be reversed.

”Even if you are a part of me that I didn’t care for, I will become more complete by acknowledging you.”