Chapter 63 - Moonstruck (1/2)
Lei Xing narrowed her eyes at the Emperor in annoyance.
...You shouldn't sleep on the blanket, you should be in the blanket!... Well if you were in the blanket, I would have dragged it off of you...Okay, I am being so petty-minded right now -_-)'...It's his bed, his blanket and he's asleep, not doing at all to me and will not be doing anything apparently so let's be rational here and relax...
Lei Xing looked at the Emperor for a bit and then inwardly groaned.
...This is not a good picture at all...If he wanted to sleep, he should have woken me up and I would have happily moved myself elsewhere...Or he should have just had people move. Honestly, if someone tried to move me, I would have woken up...but I would have been incredibly pleased his choice...So next time, just wake me up!... Actually there shouldn't be a next time, and won't be a next time!...
Then she quietly sighed.
...Oh well, whatever trouble I was going get into for staying here or being in this position, I am already nose deep in it right now...Even if I ran out of here screaming like a mad person - which will be incredibly stupid to do, it wouldn't make a difference...The dowager already hates me...a lot, I don't think she could actually hate me any more honestly...and for the consorts, Chen You's just waiting for an opportunity to give me the middle finger, Zhao Lan hates my face, Li Ru's good...the concubines are inconsequential, for now...so screw it, everything's already very much out of control so yay -_-)..
Lei Xing rolled onto her back and stared at the ceiling.
...Honestly though, what can they do?... Try to poison me? I have my beautiful, wonderful, precious ring to handle that...Plus I don't have to take shit from them, they're not the dowager...Plot some stupid scheme? Well then I'd have to be dumb enough to fall into one...but then it's usually not about brains, now is it? Just have to convince the right people...
Lei Xing then cast a glance at the Emperor's face.
...I am not doing that! You know why I am not doing that? Because I don't want to do that!... Selling my brother off was enough...I mean, I didn't actually sell him off, I wasn't even here...My point is! Whatever they have going on should be enough for protection...Plus my family is not weak, so I'm not some ant you can just flick off ...
Lei Xing knit her brows and lightly sighed.
...Actually scratch all that, because while I'm thinking poisoning and scheming, they may be thinking martial combat because apparently this is Battle royale...I need to start training, kickboxing practice every morning now and situps, kickups - kickups? I don't know, whatever the hell else people do...because apparently I am weak as hell -_-)'...Maybe I should start carrying hidden knives or something? No, what if I accidentally hurt someone? Well better them than me, right?...
She then cast another glance at the Emperor.
...Well, I guess it depends on who I hurt too...Actually, let's just stop thinking about all this crap? It's depressing my soul...and my soul is already plenty depressed without all this, okay? So let's try thinking sunny thoughts...Life doesn't have to be so freaking depressing all the time... Well, when your life is - Happy thoughts!... Well, I'm alive, that's one...Good! Great! happy thoughts continue...Healthy? Okay, continue...Not dead? Same thing -_-)'...Continue...
Lei Xing knit her brows, thinking hard about the positives in her life.
...Um, have money I guess?... Okay, but I can't spend it however I want. Can't I though? I mean I can't go wherever I want, but I could probably spend it however I want, right? No, probably not...I guess it depends on what I want, but then that means I can't spend it however I want, right?...Say I wanted to hire a bunch of strippers to come dance at my house, not that I want to but my point is I can't. Therefore I can't... Do they even have strippers here? Yeah, they do. Those entertainment parlor places, you know the expensive classy kind where you get a room and stuff, I'm sure they have some cheap ones too - What the hell are they called? Shoot! This is going to bother me now...Ginsengs? No that's Korean...Geishas? Pretty sure that's Japanese...What the hell is the Chinese version of that called?... Why the hell am I even thinking about this again?... Oh yeah, happy thoughts...Happy thoughts...Why strippers though? I don't know, strip club seems like a fun place to be maybe, never been but yeah why not?...
Lei Xing took a deep breath.
...Okay, so what else?...Happy thoughts...Happy-...I'm here?... What? What's happy about being here?! Nothing, just grasping at straws I guess...Oh yeah, I didn't have to see that witch, that's happy...Yep, that is...and it's all thanks to being here, so that makes it good then...Yep, makes sense...