8 Chapter 8 (1/2)

I was standing in the middle of my apartment. My bag was packed and sitting by the door. Sleep never came to me yesterday. I laid down for hours, but I couldn't fall asleep. So, now it was four in the morning and I was wide awake. I was in my backup suite since I had left my other on at the guild. Garret's clothes were sitting in a neat pile on the coffee table. I was had all my blades on.

I walked out the door, locked it behind me, and walked into the streets. My thoughts where everywhere. I couldn't stay still. Everything was to close. I needed to get away from everything. I walked towards the back of town. Slowly the buildings disappeared, and I was in the trees. I went to a clearing that I had made. My little cabin still stood. No one had ever found it before. This is were I stayed until the sun was just high enough in the sky to tell me that the guild would be awake.

I ran home and grabbed my bag. ”Okay. Here we go.” I thought. When I got to the front doors of the guild, I paused for a second, took a deep breath. Then I walked in. No one was in the halls. Wait, no one was in the hall that I was in. I could here the quiet chatter of everyone from other halls. Every time I turned down a new one, I could hear people fill in the one I just left. The one I entered would be empty. I gave myself a small smile ”I am glad for once everyone is staying away without me having to yell.”

I was almost all the way to Wilker's office when I saw Garret. He was standing on the doorway to one of the many sitting room's in the guild. He was staring at me, silently asking me to come over and talk to him. I shook my head to him and walk past. I feel a small part of my heart breaking, but this is what I need. For whatever reason, Zachery betraying me last night made me realize that I needed to get away from everyone at this guild. Even Garret. Whatever fragile thing that had formed between us, would have to take this test.

I shuddered at the thought of losing Garret. But for some reason, it didn't scare me as much as I thought it would. I push those thoughts away. I knocked lightly on Wilker's door. I realized right then, I almost never knocked. I usually just walked right in. ”Come in.” He said. I pushed open the door and walked in falling into a kneel. I didn't even look at Wilker. I heard him walk around the desk and he actually came to my level. ”Jaycie, please look at me.” He said. I slowly looked up. He had never done this. Came to my level instead of just telling me to stand. This was his subtle hint, saying right now, he wasn't my Assassin master. ”I am proud of you. It takes a strong person to admit when they need a break. Especially someone in our profession. I know you want to just leave, but there is something I want to give you. I planned to give it to you later, but you deserve it.” He stood up, and I did to.

It takes me two seconds to see the box on his desk it if fairly big. He picks it up and hands it to me. I sit down in my favorite chair. When I open the box, I see a brand-new suite. When I pull out the suite, under it is a cloak, and then a bunch of blades. ”You bought me a new suite?” ”Yes. Everyone else is going to get there's next week. But I figured, you could use yours now.” ”Why?” ”Just go try it on.”

I walk into the connected bathroom and get changed into the new suite. I can immediately feel the differences. Where he has had more armor added. Some taken away. As I add the dagger's I find there are also new pockets. For more daggers. I find each one. Everywhere, where I used to have dagger's had daggers, and then there are more. Six on my back, pointed up and out. Two in secret pockets on the cloak itself. Then I pick out the lock picks. One set goes in the heel or my shoe, and one in the small of my back. I look at them and see had them engraved with my words. Unbindable on one, and Unbreakable on the other.

When I walk out, I realize, there are no knifes to go in the breast pocket sheaths. I grab mine from my old suite and put them in there. A perfect fit. When I walk out all the way, Wilker smiles at me. ”You look great. And I know this suite will be better, I had some areas reinforced, because you have changed you fighting style preferences.” I smile at him. ”Yes. I noticed. And I love the suite. I noticed you had my blades engraved with my words.” ”Yes, I know how important that is to you.” I walk up and give him a hug. ”Thank you. For this gift, and the mission.” I back off and he hands me a folder. I read through it and hand it back. ”I am ready. I will see you in...when I get back.”

I see him nod once before I leave. As I walk out, I see the halls are full now. No one is trying to hide from me. I keep my eyes forward the whole time. When I get out the door, I quickly walk out the gates. I am stopped though. ”Jaycie. Please don't go. I don't want to lose you.” Garret is standing at the front of the gate. I can hear the pain in his voice. But it doesn't affect me. I turn to him.

”Garret, you need to let me go. I told you, after that second kiss, that this was all a mistake. You changed my mind by saying that you are willing to take the risks with me. This is a risk you must take. Letting me go. This is something you have to do. And if you can't do this, see this is what I need, it is obvious you can't see what is best for me.” Garret looked shocked. ”I know you think this is the way, but it is not. Just let me help you. Let me be there for you.” ”You want to be here for me?” I ask. I can feel anger welling up. It is not a mask either. This is true anger. ”Then get away. I need to take a step back. From Wilker. From the guild. And most of all, from YOU.”

With that, I walk away. I feel the emotions in me welling to an all time high. I push them as far down as I can. Then I keep walking. I only get a few blocks before I am stopped again. This time when I hear the voice I freeze. I can't move for a second. ”Jaycie.” It is Zachery. I turn slowly, putting my free hand in casual distance from my side dagger. ”What do you want?” I ask. ”I wanted to apologize.” I feel my head come back in shock. ”What?” ”I knew you were drunk the other night. I didn't realize you were drugged until I saw them giving you the antidote.”

I throw up my mask of anger to make sure he doesn't my shock anymore. ”You still knew I was drunk. Why did you do it.” ”When I first sat down, I didn't know you were drunk. When I realized you were, I just acted. I didn't even think of how you would act when you were back to your normal self. To be honest, I am terrified of you right now. You didn't so much as put a hand on me. Garret gave me a beating, but you, you just stayed mostly calm. That is worse than you blowing up on me.”